Guest guest Posted January 17, 2011 Report Share Posted January 17, 2011 Thank you for putting everything I feel into words.I didn't erase the poem in case some one is having trouble finding the original thread I want them to be able to read the poem in its entirety. It is quite poweful. Thank you for putting what I feel into words. Kay > > Oh Goodness, I found one more. I bet some of you have felt like this... > > Resolution > > I only ever sought to protect myself... > Keep you from sucking the life from my veins... > Stop you from imposing your insanity, > Upon what I truly know is reality. > > The more I try to shut you out, > The more you feel invited to assault me... > Throwing all of your ill fated psychological problems... > As if they were mine, as if you described me. > > If I weren't so angry I'd be laughing. > The horrible words you spit at me, > Are a clear description of your own demons. > It's amazing how clear it is to me and how in the dark you are. > > I grow weary of your sick and twisted drama... > No longer will I give you the negative response... > You so willfully seek to extract from me. > Instead I give you quite simply, nothing. > > " Persona non grata " is how I think of you. > You no longer exist in my sphere of reality. > The boundaries are now miles high... > And never again will you walk inside the walls. > > You are one messed up individual... > As much as I love you I'm sending you away. > I forgive you because I know the source of your seething, > But don't mistake my resolution for reconciliation. > > I'm taking back the pieces of my soul you stole from me. > I'm burying my misplaced expectations about you. > I'm through buying into your misconstrued darkness. > I love you but now go away. > > © 2008 Jaie Hart > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 17, 2011 Report Share Posted January 17, 2011 Thank you for putting everything I feel into words.I didn't erase the poem in case some one is having trouble finding the original thread I want them to be able to read the poem in its entirety. It is quite poweful. Thank you for putting what I feel into words. Kay > > Oh Goodness, I found one more. I bet some of you have felt like this... > > Resolution > > I only ever sought to protect myself... > Keep you from sucking the life from my veins... > Stop you from imposing your insanity, > Upon what I truly know is reality. > > The more I try to shut you out, > The more you feel invited to assault me... > Throwing all of your ill fated psychological problems... > As if they were mine, as if you described me. > > If I weren't so angry I'd be laughing. > The horrible words you spit at me, > Are a clear description of your own demons. > It's amazing how clear it is to me and how in the dark you are. > > I grow weary of your sick and twisted drama... > No longer will I give you the negative response... > You so willfully seek to extract from me. > Instead I give you quite simply, nothing. > > " Persona non grata " is how I think of you. > You no longer exist in my sphere of reality. > The boundaries are now miles high... > And never again will you walk inside the walls. > > You are one messed up individual... > As much as I love you I'm sending you away. > I forgive you because I know the source of your seething, > But don't mistake my resolution for reconciliation. > > I'm taking back the pieces of my soul you stole from me. > I'm burying my misplaced expectations about you. > I'm through buying into your misconstrued darkness. > I love you but now go away. > > © 2008 Jaie Hart > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 17, 2011 Report Share Posted January 17, 2011 Thank you for putting everything I feel into words.I didn't erase the poem in case some one is having trouble finding the original thread I want them to be able to read the poem in its entirety. It is quite poweful. Thank you for putting what I feel into words. Kay > > Oh Goodness, I found one more. I bet some of you have felt like this... > > Resolution > > I only ever sought to protect myself... > Keep you from sucking the life from my veins... > Stop you from imposing your insanity, > Upon what I truly know is reality. > > The more I try to shut you out, > The more you feel invited to assault me... > Throwing all of your ill fated psychological problems... > As if they were mine, as if you described me. > > If I weren't so angry I'd be laughing. > The horrible words you spit at me, > Are a clear description of your own demons. > It's amazing how clear it is to me and how in the dark you are. > > I grow weary of your sick and twisted drama... > No longer will I give you the negative response... > You so willfully seek to extract from me. > Instead I give you quite simply, nothing. > > " Persona non grata " is how I think of you. > You no longer exist in my sphere of reality. > The boundaries are now miles high... > And never again will you walk inside the walls. > > You are one messed up individual... > As much as I love you I'm sending you away. > I forgive you because I know the source of your seething, > But don't mistake my resolution for reconciliation. > > I'm taking back the pieces of my soul you stole from me. > I'm burying my misplaced expectations about you. > I'm through buying into your misconstrued darkness. > I love you but now go away. > > © 2008 Jaie Hart > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 17, 2011 Report Share Posted January 17, 2011 I have just joined. As a daughter of a Bp mother, so much of your poem is too familiar. I am struggling to build the walls/bounderies and feeling guilty for doing so. But it helps to read posts written by others who I feel have lived the same life I have. Thank you > > Oh Goodness, I found one more. I bet some of you have felt like this... > / > Resolution > > I only ever sought to protect myself... > Keep you from sucking the life from my veins... > Stop you from imposing your insanity, > Upon what I truly know is reality. > > The more I try to shut you out, > The more you feel invited to assault me... > Throwing all of your ill fated psychological problems... > As if they were mine, as if you described me. > > If I weren't so angry I'd be laughing. > The horrible words you spit at me, > Are a clear description of your own demons. > It's amazing how clear it is to me and how in the dark you are. > > I grow weary of your sick and twisted drama... > No longer will I give you the negative response... > You so willfully seek to extract from me. > Instead I give you quite simply, nothing. > > " Persona non grata " is how I think of you. > You no longer exist in my sphere of reality. > The boundaries are now miles high... > And never again will you walk inside the walls. > > You are one messed up individual... > As much as I love you I'm sending you away. > I forgive you because I know the source of your seething, > But don't mistake my resolution for reconciliation. > > I'm taking back the pieces of my soul you stole from me. > I'm burying my misplaced expectations about you. > I'm through buying into your misconstrued darkness. > I love you but now go away. > > © 2008 Jaie Hart > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 17, 2011 Report Share Posted January 17, 2011 I have just joined. As a daughter of a Bp mother, so much of your poem is too familiar. I am struggling to build the walls/bounderies and feeling guilty for doing so. But it helps to read posts written by others who I feel have lived the same life I have. Thank you > > Oh Goodness, I found one more. I bet some of you have felt like this... > / > Resolution > > I only ever sought to protect myself... > Keep you from sucking the life from my veins... > Stop you from imposing your insanity, > Upon what I truly know is reality. > > The more I try to shut you out, > The more you feel invited to assault me... > Throwing all of your ill fated psychological problems... > As if they were mine, as if you described me. > > If I weren't so angry I'd be laughing. > The horrible words you spit at me, > Are a clear description of your own demons. > It's amazing how clear it is to me and how in the dark you are. > > I grow weary of your sick and twisted drama... > No longer will I give you the negative response... > You so willfully seek to extract from me. > Instead I give you quite simply, nothing. > > " Persona non grata " is how I think of you. > You no longer exist in my sphere of reality. > The boundaries are now miles high... > And never again will you walk inside the walls. > > You are one messed up individual... > As much as I love you I'm sending you away. > I forgive you because I know the source of your seething, > But don't mistake my resolution for reconciliation. > > I'm taking back the pieces of my soul you stole from me. > I'm burying my misplaced expectations about you. > I'm through buying into your misconstrued darkness. > I love you but now go away. > > © 2008 Jaie Hart > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 17, 2011 Report Share Posted January 17, 2011 Beautiful & powerful as always Jaie! Ty for sharing with us. Mia > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 18, 2011 Report Share Posted January 18, 2011 Welcome to the Group, Talk2me. -Annie > > > > Oh Goodness, I found one more. I bet some of you have felt like this... > > / > > Resolution > > > > I only ever sought to protect myself... > > Keep you from sucking the life from my veins... > > Stop you from imposing your insanity, > > Upon what I truly know is reality. > > > > The more I try to shut you out, > > The more you feel invited to assault me... > > Throwing all of your ill fated psychological problems... > > As if they were mine, as if you described me. > > > > If I weren't so angry I'd be laughing. > > The horrible words you spit at me, > > Are a clear description of your own demons. > > It's amazing how clear it is to me and how in the dark you are. > > > > I grow weary of your sick and twisted drama... > > No longer will I give you the negative response... > > You so willfully seek to extract from me. > > Instead I give you quite simply, nothing. > > > > " Persona non grata " is how I think of you. > > You no longer exist in my sphere of reality. > > The boundaries are now miles high... > > And never again will you walk inside the walls. > > > > You are one messed up individual... > > As much as I love you I'm sending you away. > > I forgive you because I know the source of your seething, > > But don't mistake my resolution for reconciliation. > > > > I'm taking back the pieces of my soul you stole from me. > > I'm burying my misplaced expectations about you. > > I'm through buying into your misconstrued darkness. > > I love you but now go away. > > > > © 2008 Jaie Hart > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 18, 2011 Report Share Posted January 18, 2011 Welcome to the Group, Talk2me. -Annie > > > > Oh Goodness, I found one more. I bet some of you have felt like this... > > / > > Resolution > > > > I only ever sought to protect myself... > > Keep you from sucking the life from my veins... > > Stop you from imposing your insanity, > > Upon what I truly know is reality. > > > > The more I try to shut you out, > > The more you feel invited to assault me... > > Throwing all of your ill fated psychological problems... > > As if they were mine, as if you described me. > > > > If I weren't so angry I'd be laughing. > > The horrible words you spit at me, > > Are a clear description of your own demons. > > It's amazing how clear it is to me and how in the dark you are. > > > > I grow weary of your sick and twisted drama... > > No longer will I give you the negative response... > > You so willfully seek to extract from me. > > Instead I give you quite simply, nothing. > > > > " Persona non grata " is how I think of you. > > You no longer exist in my sphere of reality. > > The boundaries are now miles high... > > And never again will you walk inside the walls. > > > > You are one messed up individual... > > As much as I love you I'm sending you away. > > I forgive you because I know the source of your seething, > > But don't mistake my resolution for reconciliation. > > > > I'm taking back the pieces of my soul you stole from me. > > I'm burying my misplaced expectations about you. > > I'm through buying into your misconstrued darkness. > > I love you but now go away. > > > > © 2008 Jaie Hart > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 19, 2011 Report Share Posted January 19, 2011 I escaped into sports and academics when at school but I was not a reader at home. I was never encouraged to read despite my Dad being an avid reader. I had other escapes at home though with crafts/sewing. My oldest brother was the all black child though growing up and into adulthood until his suicide when he couldn't take it anymore (that's my interpretation). Then I seemed like the next weekest prey I guess so now I am the all black child. I always felt very resilient and just sort of carried on with life until I became the all black child. Since then, I have been consumed by the fear of what nada will do next that I can't even relax when she is behaving. She took her fear and smear campaigns to a whole other level that I could have never imagined prior to being the all black child. Anyway, I think there is some genetic resilience involved but I also think nada's target one child over another also and that may have just as much affect on their outcome. Interesting question though. patinage Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 19, 2011 Report Share Posted January 19, 2011 I escaped into sports and academics when at school but I was not a reader at home. I was never encouraged to read despite my Dad being an avid reader. I had other escapes at home though with crafts/sewing. My oldest brother was the all black child though growing up and into adulthood until his suicide when he couldn't take it anymore (that's my interpretation). Then I seemed like the next weekest prey I guess so now I am the all black child. I always felt very resilient and just sort of carried on with life until I became the all black child. Since then, I have been consumed by the fear of what nada will do next that I can't even relax when she is behaving. She took her fear and smear campaigns to a whole other level that I could have never imagined prior to being the all black child. Anyway, I think there is some genetic resilience involved but I also think nada's target one child over another also and that may have just as much affect on their outcome. Interesting question though. patinage Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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