Do you think it's possible?...

[Guest guest]

Just another thought here...

Do you think it's possible that in some cases we really do suppress

memories? I think so, but I'm not entirely sure (at least not for me).

I know that I have experienced situations, even ones that seem harmless,

that have suddenly triggered a memory that seemed lost & forgotten. And

I'll stop & go " Hmm... that's odd/interesting/awful. " I'll know it's mine,

and I know it's real. But I guess I fear that other people won't believe

me. I don't know if any of it makes sense. I've shared some of these rare

randomly triggered memories with my T and she has never used the words

" suppressed memory " or whatever. She just listens. But she's never made me

feel like I'm making it up either. I don't know.

I've had this feeling for some time that there is really something terrible

in the " back of my mind " that I just flat out blocked. Don't ask me what it

is because I don't know. But I don't like the feeling of it, nor do I know

if it's " real " . I think my T suspects something blocked too because from

October to the end of December. I get really down down down. I asked her if

she thought I had seasonal affective disorder, she said, " No. I think

something probably happened around that time for you that's triggering you

to feel depressed. " That just makes me feel more strange about that feeling

of having some terrible thing blocked out of my memory.

The only significant things that happen from october to December are my

birthday & then of course the holidays.

Ok, now just ship me off to the hospital or something. I've obviously lost

it and feel like a real nut right now.

*sigh* Mia