Guest guest Posted January 1, 2008 Report Share Posted January 1, 2008 My Dear -Dove, First let me say that you should never feel bad about laying your problems before others. It often gives us a chance to step up and try to help. Since our life is about service, you give us a chance to do what we are meant to do. I can not tell you what to do of course but will just give you one example of how I know that God exists. Two years ago I began to get very ill for no reason. I was vomiting every day and getting awful migraine headaches from the vomiting. I was so angry at God because the doctors could not tell me what was wrong and could not stop it. I finally went to a gastroenterologist after many months of this and had him run every test imaginable including a colonoscopy (which I would normally have done a year later because colon cancer is strong in my family). The colonoscopy showed that I had a very aggressive and malignant type of colon cancer. It was stage one. I had surgery the next week, they removed it and today I am cancer free. Now if I had waiting another year to have that colonoscopy, I would have been in big trouble, but everything in the universe led me to get that colonoscopy a year early. All of the sickness I went through was well worth them finding that cancer at stage one. I often get angry because I don't understand what is happening to me, especially with my health, but if I just wait long enough, I end up understanding exactly why these things happen. When I was younger I had no compassion for anything. I lived as a very angry person. But because of illness I had to let go of that or die. So I no longer live like that and I know great compassion today. I too was very enmeshed with my mother when she died when I was 16. All I can say about that is that I survived it. While your mother is still alive maybe you can take some steps to become a bit more independent of her. I know its hard to see the big picture when you are in the middle but I promise you there is a big picture, and if you look back on your life you will begin to see it. I pray every day that Source/God will help me see things as they really are instead of the way my mind has interpreted them. I believe this helps me a great deal. I hope it will help you too. I am here if you need me. Love and a big squishy hug , Cherylvisit me at: www.myspace.com/senegaladyor at: www.angelfire.com/co/Senegalady/index.htmlSee my videos:YouTube - Yellow Butterfly YouTube - Reach Out YouTube - The Ripple YouTube - A Woman's Diary May we learn to benefit the life of Earth with peace, humble in our needs,and generous in our giving.Joanne Sunshower In a message dated 1/1/2008 11:25:08 A.M. Eastern Standard Time, hisalone@... writes: I feel badly I've become a lurker. I want to say hello to everyone and yet I feel guilty for why I am posting. God forbid if I ever be the one that brings another soul down and I've found myself hiding behind my own shoulders to protect others. I could go on about how I was in the hospital at Christmas time or how my mothers brother passed away a few days ago and she is mourning. Being an empath I mourn more than she does esp for his soul since he was a scientist and didn't believe in much of anything else. Lol and yet here I am wondering the same thing.What I find suprising is that no matter what drug I am put on, what book I read, tape I listen too or prayer I say. I find myself back in the corner wondering why I am here, who I am and feeling as lost as a baby kitten whose mother died. I believe my fear of losing my mother who I am deeply emeshed with has brought me to fear almost everything lately. I have lost my strong belief in an after life. I keep hoping someone can come along and tell me something that will convince me so strongly I will never doubt again. I've opened the door to any religion or belief even past lives hoping that would give me something to hold onto. I only run from it fearing its the wrong path (yes I've heard whatever path I am on is the right path). I wrestle inside every hour of the day with something that does not feel comfortable and I am sure it is the matter of life and death. I want to see it as a passage into something better, a place of reunion and I so fear there is nothing after death so I am still trying to hold onto every piece of info my mother gives me. I'd rather lose myself than lose her does that make sense? Not even a childhood NDE is stopping my fears. I've had contact with spirits in my childhood and adult life and yet I wonder if I just made it all up now. Even if it was real why are they here, am I going to stuck here? I simply don't know what to believe anymore and that is a painful place to be.Can anyone here tell me of what they know to be true in the realm beyond these bodies? I thought I was attuned to the spiritual realm and no matter who passes in this family I can't feel them at all. Something just is not right about that. I can't believe that any God would create such a huge divide from Heaven and Earth. Please be kind and gentle I know there are many things you could say to me that I should be doing and I welcome it. I guess right now I just want to hear real peoples real accounts of what they know and have seen. Maybe even a reading from someone? If you take the time to respond to me it will be a blessing in itself. -Dove See AOL's top rated recipes and easy ways to stay in shape for winter. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 2, 2008 Report Share Posted January 2, 2008 Dear Dove, Cheryl and EveryBody, Herewith, i am sending an Angel for All HH Members who are suffering with the words:- i said a prayer for you today, because i care and i love you! Lots Of Blessings to All, Alice ---- Original Message ----- From: senegalady@... Sent: Wednesday, January 02, 2008 12:41 AM Subject: Re: [] New Year Blues My Dear -Dove, First let me say that you should never feel bad about laying your problems before others. It often gives us a chance to step up and try to help. Since our life is about service, you give us a chance to do what we are meant to do. I can not tell you what to do of course but will just give you one example of how I know that God exists. Two years ago I began to get very ill for no reason. I was vomiting every day and getting awful migraine headaches from the vomiting. I was so angry at God because the doctors could not tell me what was wrong and could not stop it. I finally went to a gastroenterologist after many months of this and had him run every test imaginable including a colonoscopy (which I would normally have done a year later because colon cancer is strong in my family). The colonoscopy showed that I had a very aggressive and malignant type of colon cancer. It was stage one. I had surgery the next week, they removed it and today I am cancer free. Now if I had waiting another year to have that colonoscopy, I would have been in big trouble, but everything in the universe led me to get that colonoscopy a year early. All of the sickness I went through was well worth them finding that cancer at stage one. I often get angry because I don't understand what is happening to me, especially with my health, but if I just wait long enough, I end up understanding exactly why these things happen. When I was younger I had no compassion for anything. I lived as a very angry person. But because of illness I had to let go of that or die. So I no longer live like that and I know great compassion today. I too was very enmeshed with my mother when she died when I was 16. All I can say about that is that I survived it. While your mother is still alive maybe you can take some steps to become a bit more independent of her. I know its hard to see the big picture when you are in the middle but I promise you there is a big picture, and if you look back on your life you will begin to see it. I pray every day that Source/God will help me see things as they really are instead of the way my mind has interpreted them. I believe this helps me a great deal. I hope it will help you too. I am here if you need me. Love and a big squishy hug , Cherylvisit me at: www.myspace.com/senegaladyor at: www.angelfire.com/co/Senegalady/index.htmlSee my videos:YouTube - Yellow Butterfly YouTube - Reach Out YouTube - The Ripple YouTube - A Woman's Diary May we learn to benefit the life of Earth with peace, humble in our needs,and generous in our giving.Joanne Sunshower In a message dated 1/1/2008 11:25:08 A.M. Eastern Standard Time, hisalone@... writes: I feel badly I've become a lurker. I want to say hello to everyone and yet I feel guilty for why I am posting. God forbid if I ever be the one that brings another soul down and I've found myself hiding behind my own shoulders to protect others. I could go on about how I was in the hospital at Christmas time or how my mothers brother passed away a few days ago and she is mourning. Being an empath I mourn more than she does esp for his soul since he was a scientist and didn't believe in much of anything else. Lol and yet here I am wondering the same thing.What I find suprising is that no matter what drug I am put on, what book I read, tape I listen too or prayer I say. I find myself back in the corner wondering why I am here, who I am and feeling as lost as a baby kitten whose mother died. I believe my fear of losing my mother who I am deeply emeshed with has brought me to fear almost everything lately. I have lost my strong belief in an after life. I keep hoping someone can come along and tell me something that will convince me so strongly I will never doubt again. I've opened the door to any religion or belief even past lives hoping that would give me something to hold onto. I only run from it fearing its the wrong path (yes I've heard whatever path I am on is the right path). I wrestle inside every hour of the day with something that does not feel comfortable and I am sure it is the matter of life and death. I want to see it as a passage into something better, a place of reunion and I so fear there is nothing after death so I am still trying to hold onto every piece of info my mother gives me. I'd rather lose myself than lose her does that make sense? Not even a childhood NDE is stopping my fears. I've had contact with spirits in my childhood and adult life and yet I wonder if I just made it all up now. Even if it was real why are they here, am I going to stuck here? I simply don't know what to believe anymore and that is a painful place to be.Can anyone here tell me of what they know to be true in the realm beyond these bodies? I thought I was attuned to the spiritual realm and no matter who passes in this family I can't feel them at all. Something just is not right about that. I can't believe that any God would create such a huge divide from Heaven and Earth. Please be kind and gentle I know there are many things you could say to me that I should be doing and I welcome it. I guess right now I just want to hear real peoples real accounts of what they know and have seen. Maybe even a reading from someone? If you take the time to respond to me it will be a blessing in itself. -Dove See AOL's top rated recipes and easy ways to stay in shape for winter. No virus found in this incoming message.Checked by AVG Free Edition. Version: 7.5.516 / Virus Database: 269.17.13/1205 - Release Date: 12/31/2007 3:32 PM Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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