Therapy today

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So I had therapy today. It was a rough session because I've been in a bad

funk lately. We talked a bit about dissociation and she does think that's

what's been happening to me at night recently. She also wants me to try &

listen to subtle ques as to why it might be happening, as well as trying to

" go inside " myself and ask the part of me with the fragmented pieces of

memories of my childhood to give the the information as to what's happening.

She also suggested something that I am a little down about. She thinks I

should give myself a little time out from the list because she thinks (and I

agree) that it's overwhelming me somewhat. As I told her, I love this list

and feel so amazed & yet horrified that people can relate to what I have

been through. She thinks it's sort of like sensory overload right now. I

think she might be right, but it is saddening me to think that.

I love this group and I do find it helpful, so what I am going to try to do

is cut down on how much time I do spend here and perhaps limit myself to X

amount of time X days a week for the time being. To see if I can pull

myself out of this sensory overload which I do agree with her on that. I do

feel overloaded.

So here comes the KO thought & plea from me: I hope no one will be mad,

hope you guys will understand. I do want you to know that I love being

here, love chatting with you guys & appreciate all of the insight & help

that you all have helped me with. I have gotten so much out of this group,

and hope that I have given back some too and hope to continue on those

paths, but just a little more slowly. And it is going to be hard for me

because I do enjoy it here so much =\

I think this will help to bring myself out of this overload and help me

identify better what is triggering me, especially when it comes to the oh so

subtle ones. Then, hopefully, as I can identify them more I can get

stronger & stop having scary issues with things like flashbacks &

dissociation.

So, I'm going to lay a little low for a while. I do hope you guys

understand.

Mia