Re: A cry for help from a Myspace friend...

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I will say that I'll, as I always do, send " love " to the problem at

hand. I am adding a little " Rieki " to it, so don't be surprised at all

at the energy you might feel...it is " cleansing " . Let it rush into your

lungs, and I KNOW you FEEL it THIS INSTANT....do you feel that " clean,

cool, spring breeze like " intake? Of course you do...breath it in

slowly...

I KNOW you FEEL IT, because I DO! You see, I've had the same thing

happen, loss of breath...frozen lungs, nothing in or out, trying as I

might to DO SOMETHING...ANYTHING to get air moving one way or the

other...I saw my death riding upon me...I FELT it. I collapsed...unable

to call for help, not wanting to, because ANY HELP would have proved

" smothering " , and SURELY death would occur.....surely.

It lasted, what seemed like 30 minutes, but, finally, air moved...my

body felt like it was 2000 degrees; sweating, passing out...and the most

BEAUTIFUL BREEZE came through the trees as I laid there on that

patio....and LIFE HAPPENED.

I've had a few like that, but not to that extreme, like the first....I

was even " EXPERIENCING " a touch of it when I saw this post...shallow

breathing....and the MOMENT I sent to you....my lung felt sooooooooooo

NEW and REFRESHED......and NOW...

YOU FEEL IT TOO.

D~

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> anuary 10, 2008 - Thursday

> Please help me, healing, prayers, anything, just please...

> Current mood: anxious

> Category: Life

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> Please,read this and please do not think I have become insane or

> anything,because I have not. I am just tired, I am very very tired. I

> feel oldand like dying in my mind

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> Four months ago, September 10th, I nearly died choking in some food -

> we're talking seconds...

> Mymother used Heimlich on me, I used the breathing techniques I

> havelearned through the spiritual computer game The Wild Divine.

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> I know now that my throat has healed physically, but my subconscious

> still think it is dangerous to eat and swallow

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> When I eat, it feels like something gets stuck, not just a little, it

> really feels like it gets stuck.

> I have difficulty breathing then (because I panick, so it feels even

> more like something's stuck then)

> It also hurts, really hurts, when the food comes down in my throat.

Like

> knives cutting when it is worst with pain.

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> I know I need help to move on now, this is no longer something I can

> manage to get through myself.

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> If I am not able to eat perfectly normally onJanuary 16th (where I am

to

> see my doctor again who now is keeping aneye with me), then i will

agree

> to get help through cognitive therapy.I may want to do it even though

I

> eat somehow normal that day, to realyget it all back to normal

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> I will not give up, because that is justmeaningless, I am young and

have

> a beautiful life in wait, so giving upwould be the same as not wanting

> to get this beautiful life.

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> I hope that there are some healers - orsomeone who somehow can help

me

> through prayers, meditaion, healing,even magic if that is what it

takes

> (here I am talking about the magicused in Wicca >> some may prefer to

> call it energy << andnot black magic of course lol) - who read this

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> Please, please, please help me, in any way youcan, even if it is just

by

> talking with me about this (as I thinkpeople around me soon will go

> insane if I keep talking about it all thetime - I don't want to push

> people away from me because of this and Ido understand their reaction,

> it is hard to always listen to problemsand fears from others)

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> I don't think people know how this feels like, unless they ahve tried

it

> themselves, to be seconds from dying.

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> I mean... I could actually not be hereanymore. I could be cold, my

body

> lying in cold earth while my soulwould be in joy - I believe in an

> afterlife and is not afraid of death,but love life)

> I seriously could be dead... it is such a crazy thought, it keeps me

> awake sometimes

> I have flash backs from the choking episode where I have to gasp for

> breath.

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> You see... I need to be realistic, I cannot handle all of this myself

> anymore, I need professional help to move on.

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> Because... I want my life back and right now this is only half my

life,

> I want my whole life

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> I talked with her today and asked if I could post here:

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> here is her URL if you wish to send her some love and be her friend.

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