Guest guest Posted February 20, 2008 Report Share Posted February 20, 2008 Hi, I'm new to the group. I had my saline implants for 10 years. I have been diagnosed with fibro, CFS, epstein barr and a systemic candida infection. I had my implants removed 2 weeks ago. I actually had a couple of days where I felt great! But now I'm back in bed, as usual, with horrible pain. I'm so drained by all of my health issues and from the chronic, horrific pain that I don't even feel like living anymore. The ONLY reason I have not done anything about it is that I have the most beautiful 5 yr old twins. I don't understand why I would be so blessed to have them in my life, only to become bed-ridden. It's not fair to them or my husband! It's hard not to think they would be better off without me. I'm sorry I sound like a whiner. I usually make a HUGE effort to remain positive and be grateful for what I have. I realize their are many people with much worse situations then me. I know it's only been 2 weeks since I had my implants removed, but the pain is so bad. I'm having a throbbing pain on the side of my neck that is new. I am already being treated by a fibro specialist and a pain specialist. I just don't know how to keep going anymore. The entire side of my family has died in the last 4 years, so I no longer have that support system. My mom was a nurse and always tried to help me physically and emotionally. She was my best friend and champion. She was a big help with the twins. My son has ADHD and I don't feel capable of handling it well (even though I was a teacher)because I'm too sick. We are financially being wiped out by my medical bills. I need to go back to work, but I'm too sick. Our house is going into foreclosure. My husband is so stressed because he can't keep up with all of my bills (I just had my 20th surgery). I'm terrified he will leave me and I will not be well enough to care/support my children or even myself. If we ever did seperate, I have no family to lean on. I worry that he feels trapped by me. I could go on-and-on, but I'm sure many of you have similar issues. Once again, I apologize for the whining.... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted February 20, 2008 Report Share Posted February 20, 2008 Hi, I'm new to the group. I had my saline implants for 10 years. I have been diagnosed with fibro, CFS, epstein barr and a systemic candida infection. I had my implants removed 2 weeks ago. I actually had a couple of days where I felt great! But now I'm back in bed, as usual, with horrible pain. I'm so drained by all of my health issues and from the chronic, horrific pain that I don't even feel like living anymore. The ONLY reason I have not done anything about it is that I have the most beautiful 5 yr old twins. I don't understand why I would be so blessed to have them in my life, only to become bed-ridden. It's not fair to them or my husband! It's hard not to think they would be better off without me. I'm sorry I sound like a whiner. I usually make a HUGE effort to remain positive and be grateful for what I have. I realize their are many people with much worse situations then me. I know it's only been 2 weeks since I had my implants removed, but the pain is so bad. I'm having a throbbing pain on the side of my neck that is new. I am already being treated by a fibro specialist and a pain specialist. I just don't know how to keep going anymore. The entire side of my family has died in the last 4 years, so I no longer have that support system. My mom was a nurse and always tried to help me physically and emotionally. She was my best friend and champion. She was a big help with the twins. My son has ADHD and I don't feel capable of handling it well (even though I was a teacher)because I'm too sick. We are financially being wiped out by my medical bills. I need to go back to work, but I'm too sick. Our house is going into foreclosure. My husband is so stressed because he can't keep up with all of my bills (I just had my 20th surgery). I'm terrified he will leave me and I will not be well enough to care/support my children or even myself. If we ever did seperate, I have no family to lean on. I worry that he feels trapped by me. I could go on-and-on, but I'm sure many of you have similar issues. Once again, I apologize for the whining.... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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