Re: Sending love and support across the miles:

[Guest guest]

Oh, Darling Lynda:

This is when you need someone to be there to give you love and support. I promise that we will never go away, because you need to tell someone how you are feeling. We really find it hard to believe that your children are not by your side at this time.

Honey, have you asked your friends to help you, because sometimes a friend is more understanding? Please ask them to help you to get through this. I am sorry that you are having so many symptoms after your second treatment. This is all about getting you better; however, we are sure that you do not feel that way. Depression is not easy to deal with, especially when you are trying to cope with these awful symptoms.

Lynda, you need a lot of hugs, please ask someone to help you to cope with all of this. I wish that we lived closer, because you would get plenty of love and laughter. Would you like to speak to me on the telephone? I would love to talk to you....bless your heart.

Thank you for allowing us to walk with you through this journey of healing. Things will get better with each treatment, but you need instant support.

We love you so much....Lea and

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A week into second treatment, seems like years since I found out I had this cancer the second time.Still dealing with daily nausea, fatigue, problems sleeping, constipation, and chills. Food does not taste good for the most part. Have to try to find something that I really feel I want to eat to tempt me to eat at all. Much of the time I am so tired I just go back to bed for hours.I don't know how this progresses, but I seem to have gone from mostly angry to mostly depressed. Sometimes I can cry at the drop of a hat. Everything makes me sad.I feel overwhelmed with trying to manage all the sickness after the chemo and overwhelmed with the enormous task of trying to fight to get better. I feel overwhelmed fighting the hand-foot problems and getting the fluid drained from the pleural cavity. Just trying to keep prescriptions straight overwhelms me. I feel overwhelmed just having to drive back and forth to Boulder a couple of times a week. I just plain feel overwhelmed with all of it. I feel like most of my family (kids in particular) and friends have disappeared from my life, as maybe they just cannot handle this or don't wish to be involved. Heaven forbid it is ever their turn to have this happen to them.I know this is one of the stages of grief, wish I could work my way out of it quicker. I need my positive fighting energy for all of this battle, and this seems to detract.I hope to be out of this stage soon and on to something I feel I can hold onto with more strength and fighting ability.Maybe tomorrow will be better.Lynda