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Wow!! Never knew that anyone could relate to my situation--i continue to be

amazed at the similarities with KO BPD's experiences. I grew up being pretty

regular as far as a bed until the age of 15 when my parents divorced. we moved

into a house that my grandfather owned and i had my same bed from childhood

except that it was falling apart by this point. That would have been

alright----my problem was THE CATS my nada collected. I have severe allergies

and asthma and my nada was told by several doctors at appointments to never have

me around animal dander. After my parents divorced my nada rescued 3 cats and

they lived with us my senior year of high school. My nada was never the neatest

housekeeper but after my parents divorced she was just plain filthy. I always

thought that if CPS could have seen our home they would have died. The cats

destroyed the house---using the couch as a scratching post and generally our

house as their landfill. What i remember about my bed at that house was how my

mom let the cats pee and poop under my bed and sometimes on my sheets. I never

knew what i find in there. Poop, Urine, Vomit Hairballs---that was where i

slept. I hardly ever had friends over (except my 2 closest who knew my nada was

nuts)---i was too embarrassed of my living conditions and it smelled too bad. I

remember one time-i couldn't breathe and my inhaler wasn't providing relief and

so i went to the ER. My mom was furious after i told the doctor we had cats(he

asked me and i was honest)! She yelled at me when he left the room-told me i was

a big faker and that i was doing all of that for attention. I told her we needed

to get rid of the cats for my health and she told me she wasn't getting rid of

them and I COULD LEAVE if i didn't like it. I couldn't help i had asthma and

severe allergies. I remember going to bed at night and praying that God would

keep me breathing through one more night until i could go to college. Ahhh-this

makes me cry now---i have 2 kids and i could NEVER imagine neglected them in

this way! Being a parent has really given me proper perspective on how neglected

i was for so long. When i left for college---i had a pulmonologist examine my

lungs and i had such severe damage that i had developed some holes in the

tissues of my lungs. It has taken years of healing and proper medication to gain

healthy breathing back and i take 10 allergy shots a week. She still won't take

responsibility for any of her actions rregarding my health and i asked her if

she knew then what she knows now about my asthma would she have gotten rid of

the cats---her response--- " no, i wouldn't change a thing-i would do it all

again(keeping the cats)! She still denies my asthma. OUCH, now that's hurtful!!!

Thanks for letting me vent.....

~Hope