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Hi Everyone-

My name is n and I went searching for this group after discovering Geneen

Roth a couple of months ago. I live in CT and am a single mom of two daughters

(18 and 11) and work fulltime for a local publisher.

What initially got me started was my concern over the realization that when I

eat I just tend to blank out. I had done years of WW and exercise always with

the ending weight being greater than the beginning weight and frankly I was sick

of paying and failing. I knew I needed to understand the emotion behind my

eating before I was able to actually tackle any weight issue. So I stopped

dieting and Geneens book fell into my lap about the same time. Actually asking

myself how I felt as I stood at Dunkin Donuts for my usual breakfast sandwich

and soda was kind of a revelation and as you might guess it had nothing to do

with hunger.

So here I am trying to not beat myself up unmercifully (wow the negative

messges!) when I see myself in a full length mirror and trying to really listen

to my body speak to me. One thing I have been doing for over a month now and

sharing with 2 friends (should they choose to read) is a google doc that is my

food journal. its not meant to be a precise measure of what I am eating or

exercising. More on a how I am feeling about myself as I eat and seeing what I

eat and actually trying to be aware of what I am eating all of which are new to

me.

Yesterday for the first time I tried to track hourly where my hunger level was

because what I am finding is that eating when hungry and the social " lunch and

dinner hour " dont coincide in my life and so I was still not really honoring my

bodies needs but I like eating with others so its a struggle and some pressure

to do that. So that was really interesting for me as the day progressed and I

felt my cycle. I am going to try again today but I dont have a resolution on the

hunger vs group meal thing yet. Just trying to be gentle with myself as I take

on this journey.

I look forward to reading posts and getting to know you all in the future.

n