Re: sugar troubles...

[Guest guest]

Hi Sohni,

Thanks for the reply. That sounds like a good idea. Like you mentioned I also

have foods that are lower on the 'trigger scale.' That sounds like a good way

to ease into legalizing.

I had an experience yesterday I'd like to share. I started having the 'diet'

thoughts again. And began thinking that today I would start my new diet. But,

of course I don't call it a diet, but 'healthier eating.' Which really means I

will restrict foods. These thoughts triggered me to go to the coffee shop and

order a VERY sugary butterscotch latte and a dessert bar. I wasn't even hungry.

And I actually couldn't even finish the latte because I felt SO full.

I sat there thinking about it and realized that this might be the first time in

a long time that I have felt full after eating sugar. I didn't think that was

possible. Usually I feel hungrier. I went to class and had a frustrating test.

Of course my first instinct was comfort food. I wrestled with it and thought,

'oh well, I'm going on a diet tomorrow anyway.' And I did end up eating WAY too

much...

But, the point of my ramble... is my thinking after made me realize some

things. I was full. I was not hungry. I chose to eat anyway. It wasn't the

fault of the sugar. The sugar in that case didn't make me physically hungrier.

It was my brain, my response to thoughts of restriction. It's my lack of

knowledge about how to comfort myself besides through food. I always blame

sugar, like it is some evil demon that drags me into an addiction. And I think

that may be just my way of avoiding personal responsibility for my relationship

with food. So, maybe refined sugar upsets my blood sugar balance, but I make

the decision to eat more of it instead of trying to find a way to stabilize it.

Sorry for the length It just made me feel really good to know that I do have

the power to change... I'm not helpless

Have a great day,

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> > > > Hi all

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> > > > I've struggled with trying to be an intuitive eater for quite a

> > while now. I keep falling back into the restriction mindset. I feel

> > quite successful for a couple days, then fall back into bingeing, then

> > back into the diet mentality to control weight gain. The thing that

> > affects me the most is SUGAR! When I am not around it and don't eat

> > it, I eat well and mindfully, enjoy my food, and feel less anxiety in

> > general. But, it seems like when that temptation is there I can't not

> > eat it. And then when I give in, it usually ends in a binge, guilt,

> > and thinking about dieting. This cycle has been going on for several

> > months now, close to a year, and it is very frustrating. I don't want

> > to waste my life worrying about sugar!

> > > >

> > > > I've tried moderation. I've tried to 'legalize' it. I went through

> > a cookie dough phase trying to legalize it, but after I get sick of it

> > I just find sugar in another form. It makes me feel bad physically,

> > but I seem to forget that after a few days without it. I feel like

> > it's a drug!

> > > >

> > > > I want to embrace this lifestyle, but I need help over this bump

> > in the road

> > > >

> > > > Thanks for reading,

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[Guest guest]

It's not really a step backwards though. Because your " step back " provided a

learning experience that you can draw from in the future. Plus, your steps

forward are also experience that you can draw upon as well. I hope that makes

sense.

It helps me to think of IE as two steps forward, one step back. I feel like I'm

moving in the right direction, even if some days I slide back a bit. Sohni