Re: more about me, history, current challenges-sorry long post

[Guest guest]

Thanks, Jen, for bravely sharing more of your story. I'm impressed by your

insights about your eating history and commitments to accept yourself, rather

than judge yourself by your weight, and to resist choosing foods according to

calorie counts or 'good/bad' assessments. Hopefully self-acceptance will

influence a commitment to self-care which includes feeding your body when it

needs food (according to hunger cues), foods that feel good in your body (not

just taste good in your mouth) and avoiding discomfort of overeating or foods

which don't feel good in your body.

I look forward to reading more of your progress.

SUE

PS Telling 'your story' often requires long posts. I appreciate your telling

more of your story.

>

> hi all,

> i'm new and this is my second post...i'm shy so it's a little scary for me.

>

> my history: i started with eating disorderd behavior(counting calories,

exercising to burn calories) when i was 9. i had full blown anorexia by the time

i was 17. my parents refused therapy and back then(1977) there weren't a lot of

resources anyway. the family doctor didn't have a clue.

>

> i'm not sure how i survived that but i did and did start eating on my own

after i left home at 19 years old.

> at that point i would say i evolved into being in cycles restrictive eating

and eating more, tho not ever really binge eating, (i would say eating mindlessy

and some for comfort or distraction), then back to restricting.

> as with other dieters, each time i regained more weight. thes cycles have

lasted basically to the present even tho i have been trying to incorporate IE

principles as i now undertand them since my early 20s when i first read the

books by Geneen Roth. it's been a long journey and i'm still in it.

>

> the last restrictive stage was triggered about 6 years ago when a wholistic

doctor suggested a " cleansing " diet which was supposed to be healthy and solve a

lot of my problems. i lost a lot of weight and got very phobic about eating

again.

> i started to come out of this cycle probably about 2 years ago, partly because

i was so hungry and partly because of pressure from my sister who was convinced

i could easily die from an eating disorder.

>

> because of my other anxiety disorders, this un-restricting phase has been a

tough one. i'm still afraid to eat, i'm afraid not to eat and i have a generally

very high anxiety level with agoraphobia and ongoing PTSD symptoms as well. i am

in therapy and take medications under the care of a psychiatric nurse practioner

so i'm well cared for.

>

> this what i see as my current challenges and why i hope this group and it's

resources will be helpful for me:

> 1. learning to truly accept and love myself and my body as is

> 2. letting go of calorie counting and measuring food

> 3. letting go of notions of " bad food " versus " good food " and learning to

really enjoy food and eating

> 4. stop weighing myself

>

> there are more challenges i know and i know there's more to IE. but i'm

starting where i can.

> i don't know as i can discern either hunger or fullness very well but i need

to at least start some where. it's only been since this past sunday that i

stopped recording all my calories and put the scale away. it's been difficult

for me...

>

> so that's the eating part of my story.

> i love singing and volunteer for a hospice singing group.

> i love painting and keep a visual journal and scrapbook, mainly for

therapeutic use.

> i love animals and am working on getting a psychiatric service dog to help

with the PTSD and agoraphobia.

>

> thanks to everyone for listening...i think this is a great group.

> jennifer (or jen)

>

[Guest guest]

Thanks, Jen, for bravely sharing more of your story. I'm impressed by your

insights about your eating history and commitments to accept yourself, rather

than judge yourself by your weight, and to resist choosing foods according to

calorie counts or 'good/bad' assessments. Hopefully self-acceptance will

influence a commitment to self-care which includes feeding your body when it

needs food (according to hunger cues), foods that feel good in your body (not

just taste good in your mouth) and avoiding discomfort of overeating or foods

which don't feel good in your body.

I look forward to reading more of your progress.

SUE

PS Telling 'your story' often requires long posts. I appreciate your telling

more of your story.

>

> hi all,

> i'm new and this is my second post...i'm shy so it's a little scary for me.

>

> my history: i started with eating disorderd behavior(counting calories,

exercising to burn calories) when i was 9. i had full blown anorexia by the time

i was 17. my parents refused therapy and back then(1977) there weren't a lot of

resources anyway. the family doctor didn't have a clue.

>

> i'm not sure how i survived that but i did and did start eating on my own

after i left home at 19 years old.

> at that point i would say i evolved into being in cycles restrictive eating

and eating more, tho not ever really binge eating, (i would say eating mindlessy

and some for comfort or distraction), then back to restricting.

> as with other dieters, each time i regained more weight. thes cycles have

lasted basically to the present even tho i have been trying to incorporate IE

principles as i now undertand them since my early 20s when i first read the

books by Geneen Roth. it's been a long journey and i'm still in it.

>

> the last restrictive stage was triggered about 6 years ago when a wholistic

doctor suggested a " cleansing " diet which was supposed to be healthy and solve a

lot of my problems. i lost a lot of weight and got very phobic about eating

again.

> i started to come out of this cycle probably about 2 years ago, partly because

i was so hungry and partly because of pressure from my sister who was convinced

i could easily die from an eating disorder.

>

> because of my other anxiety disorders, this un-restricting phase has been a

tough one. i'm still afraid to eat, i'm afraid not to eat and i have a generally

very high anxiety level with agoraphobia and ongoing PTSD symptoms as well. i am

in therapy and take medications under the care of a psychiatric nurse practioner

so i'm well cared for.

>

> this what i see as my current challenges and why i hope this group and it's

resources will be helpful for me:

> 1. learning to truly accept and love myself and my body as is

> 2. letting go of calorie counting and measuring food

> 3. letting go of notions of " bad food " versus " good food " and learning to

really enjoy food and eating

> 4. stop weighing myself

>

> there are more challenges i know and i know there's more to IE. but i'm

starting where i can.

> i don't know as i can discern either hunger or fullness very well but i need

to at least start some where. it's only been since this past sunday that i

stopped recording all my calories and put the scale away. it's been difficult

for me...

>

> so that's the eating part of my story.

> i love singing and volunteer for a hospice singing group.

> i love painting and keep a visual journal and scrapbook, mainly for

therapeutic use.

> i love animals and am working on getting a psychiatric service dog to help

with the PTSD and agoraphobia.

>

> thanks to everyone for listening...i think this is a great group.

> jennifer (or jen)

>

[Guest guest]

Thanks, Jen, for bravely sharing more of your story. I'm impressed by your

insights about your eating history and commitments to accept yourself, rather

than judge yourself by your weight, and to resist choosing foods according to

calorie counts or 'good/bad' assessments. Hopefully self-acceptance will

influence a commitment to self-care which includes feeding your body when it

needs food (according to hunger cues), foods that feel good in your body (not

just taste good in your mouth) and avoiding discomfort of overeating or foods

which don't feel good in your body.

I look forward to reading more of your progress.

SUE

PS Telling 'your story' often requires long posts. I appreciate your telling

more of your story.

>

> hi all,

> i'm new and this is my second post...i'm shy so it's a little scary for me.

>

> my history: i started with eating disorderd behavior(counting calories,

exercising to burn calories) when i was 9. i had full blown anorexia by the time

i was 17. my parents refused therapy and back then(1977) there weren't a lot of

resources anyway. the family doctor didn't have a clue.

>

> i'm not sure how i survived that but i did and did start eating on my own

after i left home at 19 years old.

> at that point i would say i evolved into being in cycles restrictive eating

and eating more, tho not ever really binge eating, (i would say eating mindlessy

and some for comfort or distraction), then back to restricting.

> as with other dieters, each time i regained more weight. thes cycles have

lasted basically to the present even tho i have been trying to incorporate IE

principles as i now undertand them since my early 20s when i first read the

books by Geneen Roth. it's been a long journey and i'm still in it.

>

> the last restrictive stage was triggered about 6 years ago when a wholistic

doctor suggested a " cleansing " diet which was supposed to be healthy and solve a

lot of my problems. i lost a lot of weight and got very phobic about eating

again.

> i started to come out of this cycle probably about 2 years ago, partly because

i was so hungry and partly because of pressure from my sister who was convinced

i could easily die from an eating disorder.

>

> because of my other anxiety disorders, this un-restricting phase has been a

tough one. i'm still afraid to eat, i'm afraid not to eat and i have a generally

very high anxiety level with agoraphobia and ongoing PTSD symptoms as well. i am

in therapy and take medications under the care of a psychiatric nurse practioner

so i'm well cared for.

>

> this what i see as my current challenges and why i hope this group and it's

resources will be helpful for me:

> 1. learning to truly accept and love myself and my body as is

> 2. letting go of calorie counting and measuring food

> 3. letting go of notions of " bad food " versus " good food " and learning to

really enjoy food and eating

> 4. stop weighing myself

>

> there are more challenges i know and i know there's more to IE. but i'm

starting where i can.

> i don't know as i can discern either hunger or fullness very well but i need

to at least start some where. it's only been since this past sunday that i

stopped recording all my calories and put the scale away. it's been difficult

for me...

>

> so that's the eating part of my story.

> i love singing and volunteer for a hospice singing group.

> i love painting and keep a visual journal and scrapbook, mainly for

therapeutic use.

> i love animals and am working on getting a psychiatric service dog to help

with the PTSD and agoraphobia.

>

> thanks to everyone for listening...i think this is a great group.

> jennifer (or jen)

>

[Guest guest]

hi Sue,

thanks for your email...i was very nervous about posting, so your post has

reassured me.

thanks for your understanding and support,

jen

>

> Thanks, Jen, for bravely sharing more of your story. I'm impressed by your

insights about your eating history and commitments to accept yourself, rather

than judge yourself by your weight, and to resist choosing foods according to

calorie counts or 'good/bad' assessments. Hopefully self-acceptance will

influence a commitment to self-care which includes feeding your body when it

needs food (according to hunger cues), foods that feel good in your body (not

just taste good in your mouth) and avoiding discomfort of overeating or foods

which don't feel good in your body.

>

> I look forward to reading more of your progress.

>

> SUE

>

> PS Telling 'your story' often requires long posts. I appreciate your telling

more of your story.

[Guest guest]

Hi jen,

Welcome to the group, and thanks for sharing your story!

It was definitely scary for me to share my story... in fact, I just jumped in and started commenting on others' posts, and didn't really introduce myself until a couple months later bc I was just too self conscious at first to draw " so much " attention to myself.

But then I've seen that it really helps me when others share their stories... and I think you'll see that too.

Congratulations on putting away the scale, and stopping the calorie counting! That's a big step. I hope you will be patient with yourself... one day at a time.

And I hope you will keep posting!

Abby

IE since 11/08

 

Thanks, Jen, for bravely sharing more of your story. I'm impressed by your insights about your eating history and commitments to accept yourself, rather than judge yourself by your weight, and to resist choosing foods according to calorie counts or 'good/bad' assessments. Hopefully self-acceptance will influence a commitment to self-care which includes feeding your body when it needs food (according to hunger cues), foods that feel good in your body (not just taste good in your mouth) and avoiding discomfort of overeating or foods which don't feel good in your body.

I look forward to reading more of your progress.

SUE

PS Telling 'your story' often requires long posts. I appreciate your telling more of your story.

>

> hi all,

>...

[Guest guest]

Hi jen,

Welcome to the group, and thanks for sharing your story!

It was definitely scary for me to share my story... in fact, I just jumped in and started commenting on others' posts, and didn't really introduce myself until a couple months later bc I was just too self conscious at first to draw " so much " attention to myself.

But then I've seen that it really helps me when others share their stories... and I think you'll see that too.

Congratulations on putting away the scale, and stopping the calorie counting! That's a big step. I hope you will be patient with yourself... one day at a time.

And I hope you will keep posting!

Abby

IE since 11/08

 

Thanks, Jen, for bravely sharing more of your story. I'm impressed by your insights about your eating history and commitments to accept yourself, rather than judge yourself by your weight, and to resist choosing foods according to calorie counts or 'good/bad' assessments. Hopefully self-acceptance will influence a commitment to self-care which includes feeding your body when it needs food (according to hunger cues), foods that feel good in your body (not just taste good in your mouth) and avoiding discomfort of overeating or foods which don't feel good in your body.

I look forward to reading more of your progress.

SUE

PS Telling 'your story' often requires long posts. I appreciate your telling more of your story.

>

> hi all,

>...

[Guest guest]

Hi jen,

Welcome to the group, and thanks for sharing your story!

It was definitely scary for me to share my story... in fact, I just jumped in and started commenting on others' posts, and didn't really introduce myself until a couple months later bc I was just too self conscious at first to draw " so much " attention to myself.

But then I've seen that it really helps me when others share their stories... and I think you'll see that too.

Congratulations on putting away the scale, and stopping the calorie counting! That's a big step. I hope you will be patient with yourself... one day at a time.

And I hope you will keep posting!

Abby

IE since 11/08

 

Thanks, Jen, for bravely sharing more of your story. I'm impressed by your insights about your eating history and commitments to accept yourself, rather than judge yourself by your weight, and to resist choosing foods according to calorie counts or 'good/bad' assessments. Hopefully self-acceptance will influence a commitment to self-care which includes feeding your body when it needs food (according to hunger cues), foods that feel good in your body (not just taste good in your mouth) and avoiding discomfort of overeating or foods which don't feel good in your body.

I look forward to reading more of your progress.

SUE

PS Telling 'your story' often requires long posts. I appreciate your telling more of your story.

>

> hi all,

>...

[Guest guest]

hi Abby,

thanks for your post...i appreciate your support.

i feel like i have such a long way to go, i feel so at odds with my body so much

of the time.,,

but you are right...take it one day at a time...

thanks again,

jen

>

> Hi jen,

>

> Welcome to the group, and thanks for sharing your story!

>

> It was definitely scary for me to share my story... in fact, I just jumped

> in and started commenting on others' posts, and didn't really introduce

> myself until a couple months later bc I was just too self conscious at first

> to draw " so much " attention to myself.

>

> But then I've seen that it really helps me when others share their

> stories... and I think you'll see that too.

>

> Congratulations on putting away the scale, and stopping the calorie

> counting! That's a big step. I hope you will be patient with yourself... one

> day at a time.

>

> And I hope you will keep posting!

>

> Abby

> IE since 11/08

[Guest guest]

hi Abby,

thanks for your post...i appreciate your support.

i feel like i have such a long way to go, i feel so at odds with my body so much

of the time.,,

but you are right...take it one day at a time...

thanks again,

jen

>

> Hi jen,

>

> Welcome to the group, and thanks for sharing your story!

>

> It was definitely scary for me to share my story... in fact, I just jumped

> in and started commenting on others' posts, and didn't really introduce

> myself until a couple months later bc I was just too self conscious at first

> to draw " so much " attention to myself.

>

> But then I've seen that it really helps me when others share their

> stories... and I think you'll see that too.

>

> Congratulations on putting away the scale, and stopping the calorie

> counting! That's a big step. I hope you will be patient with yourself... one

> day at a time.

>

> And I hope you will keep posting!

>

> Abby

> IE since 11/08

[Guest guest]

hi Abby,

thanks for your post...i appreciate your support.

i feel like i have such a long way to go, i feel so at odds with my body so much

of the time.,,

but you are right...take it one day at a time...

thanks again,

jen

>

> Hi jen,

>

> Welcome to the group, and thanks for sharing your story!

>

> It was definitely scary for me to share my story... in fact, I just jumped

> in and started commenting on others' posts, and didn't really introduce

> myself until a couple months later bc I was just too self conscious at first

> to draw " so much " attention to myself.

>

> But then I've seen that it really helps me when others share their

> stories... and I think you'll see that too.

>

> Congratulations on putting away the scale, and stopping the calorie

> counting! That's a big step. I hope you will be patient with yourself... one

> day at a time.

>

> And I hope you will keep posting!

>

> Abby

> IE since 11/08

[Guest guest]

Borrowing the advice of someone else, maybe it would be helpful to pick one principle from the IE book and focus on that? (have you read the book? if not, Intuitive Eating is great. i also think Geneen Roth is great, though her books are less of a how-to, from what I recall.)

IE is super tough, and a very long journey, but the great thing is that you can start to see dividends right from the beginning... 

 

hi Abby,

thanks for your post...i appreciate your support.

i feel like i have such a long way to go, i feel so at odds with my body so much of the time.,,

but you are right...take it one day at a time...

thanks again,

jen

>

> Hi jen,

>

> Welcome to the group, and thanks for sharing your story!

>

> It was definitely scary for me to share my story... in fact, I just jumped

> in and started commenting on others' posts, and didn't really introduce

> myself until a couple months later bc I was just too self conscious at first

> to draw " so much " attention to myself.

>

> But then I've seen that it really helps me when others share their

> stories... and I think you'll see that too.

>

> Congratulations on putting away the scale, and stopping the calorie

> counting! That's a big step. I hope you will be patient with yourself... one

> day at a time.

>

> And I hope you will keep posting!

>

> Abby

> IE since 11/08

[Guest guest]

hi Abby,

i just picked up the IE book from the library today so can start reading it when

i next have some quiet time.

that's excellent advice to focus on one principle at a time! it's very easy for

me to be overwhelmed...so i can't think of a better way to start.

thanks, jen

>

> Borrowing the advice of someone else, maybe it would be helpful to pick one

> principle from the IE book and focus on that? (have you read the book? if

> not, Intuitive Eating is great. i also think Geneen Roth is great, though

> her books are less of a how-to, from what I recall.)

>

> IE is super tough, and a very long journey, but the great thing is that you

> can start to see dividends right from the beginning...