Re: BPD and babies

[Guest guest]

I was colicky as well and it was just my nada and NPD father, and from the

stories I've heard there was nothing and no one that could stop me from crying.

My nada tells stories of breaking down crying herself, my father leaving the

house and even him shaking me because of the crying. My theory is that even as

a baby I knew that I knew I was in a bad situation. My nada casually tells

these stories like she has no clue in the world it would be upsetting to me to

hear them - or that I put them in my mental stockpile of proof that her stories

I was a happy baby just can't be true.

As for her blaming innocent actions, she told me I never liked to be held and

always squirmed away from her. Said it was just because I was an " active " baby.

In her world the fiction that I was perfectly happy and she was a perfect mother

had to be maintained.

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> my nada told me I've always hated her...I was a colicky baby and my oldest

> sister was the only one who could get me to stop crying...

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> Jackie

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> >I once mentioned to nada that my infant son liked pulling my hair. I also

> >mentioned that I was sure he didn't realize that it hurt me. Nada looked

> >skeptical and said, " not yet " in an ominous tone. Now that he has a few

> >teeth, she keeps asking if he's bit me yet and then tells stories of times

> >her kids bit her. It makes me wonder how young were we when nada started

> >to think we were out to get her. Has anyone else seen evidence of your

> >nada attributing malicious intent to an infant?

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[Guest guest]

My nada acts as though it's my fault that my birth was overdue, and that I CHOSE

to be born in the middle of the night. How inconvenient for her, how malicious

of me! So in my experience, it can start very early. And after all these years,

she still holds it against me, along with countless other things. Nuts!

Jonna

[Guest guest]

, yep this was my situation as well. I grew up too fast cause of it and

later found out I had growing up left undone.

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> > My nada acts as though it's my fault that my birth was overdue, and that I

> > CHOSE to be born in the middle of the night. How inconvenient for her, how

> > malicious of me! So in my experience, it can start very early. And after all

> > these years, she still holds it against me, along with countless other

> > things. Nuts!

> > Jonna

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[Guest guest]

My nada does this also.  She tells me how she could have easily got me aborted

and that I was such a grown up child, always very mature etc, that is only

because I had to be my nadas mom......they really are crazy.

I am over one year NC now, and even though at times I still have my moments were

I yearn for my nadas love, it is honestly the best thing that I could have done

for myself and my family.

Since being NC I am realising how foooked nada really is, and wonder how the

hell on gods earth did I get through all that I had to go through.

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To: WTOAdultChildren1

Sent: Wed, August 4, 2010 6:01:48 AM

Subject: Re: BPD and babies

 

, yep this was my situation as well. I grew up too fast cause of it and

later found out I had growing up left undone.

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> > My nada acts as though it's my fault that my birth was overdue, and that I

> > CHOSE to be born in the middle of the night. How inconvenient for her, how

> > malicious of me! So in my experience, it can start very early. And after all

> > these years, she still holds it against me, along with countless other

> > things. Nuts!

> > Jonna

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