Guest guest Posted May 12, 2010 Report Share Posted May 12, 2010 MY, my nada would make audible sniff noises, too! Amazing. Yay, I hope I get more input like this. --ChhC > > > > > > > So, of all nada did, one of the things that hit me hardest was her constant > > torrent of panicked exclamations about her physical condition. She had a set > > list of these, and I must have heard each of them literally thousands of > > times. She issued them as if she was going to burst into flames any second, > > and they were MY fault (for, blame was always in the undercurrent), but she > > would NOT allow me to help her or comfort her in any way. She had a pretty > > specific litany of these, repeated ad naseum, and they really were like > > torture to me when I was a child--because I felt the responsibility she > > implied, and that I should help her, but she would not let me, and that made > > me feel doubly 'Bad'. Her intense 'panic' level in these statements was very > > disturbing to me. For some reason, this week her body panic charade has been > > bouncing through my head, so without further ado, here is the top ten: > > > > 1. It's FREEZING in this house! (faux shivering) > > > > 2. Oh (obscenely huge suck in of breath), I chipped a nail! > > > > 3. Oh, that (insert specific food I am eating) is TURNING MY STOMACH. > > > > 4. Oh! That air (as in AC) is blowin' right on me. > > > > 5. Do you SMELL that? (appalled, huge eyes). What is that SMELL? > > > > 6. I just don't FEEL like cooking, today. > > > > 7. I think I have alzheimers. (Since her 30s.) > > > > 8. OH! I just can't get MOVIN'! (in bed at 1 pm.) > > > > 9. OH! My allergies are actin' up today. > > > > 10. I am EXHAUSTED. > > > > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 12, 2010 Report Share Posted May 12, 2010 MY, my nada would make audible sniff noises, too! Amazing. Yay, I hope I get more input like this. --ChhC > > > > > > > So, of all nada did, one of the things that hit me hardest was her constant > > torrent of panicked exclamations about her physical condition. She had a set > > list of these, and I must have heard each of them literally thousands of > > times. She issued them as if she was going to burst into flames any second, > > and they were MY fault (for, blame was always in the undercurrent), but she > > would NOT allow me to help her or comfort her in any way. She had a pretty > > specific litany of these, repeated ad naseum, and they really were like > > torture to me when I was a child--because I felt the responsibility she > > implied, and that I should help her, but she would not let me, and that made > > me feel doubly 'Bad'. Her intense 'panic' level in these statements was very > > disturbing to me. For some reason, this week her body panic charade has been > > bouncing through my head, so without further ado, here is the top ten: > > > > 1. It's FREEZING in this house! (faux shivering) > > > > 2. Oh (obscenely huge suck in of breath), I chipped a nail! > > > > 3. Oh, that (insert specific food I am eating) is TURNING MY STOMACH. > > > > 4. Oh! That air (as in AC) is blowin' right on me. > > > > 5. Do you SMELL that? (appalled, huge eyes). What is that SMELL? > > > > 6. I just don't FEEL like cooking, today. > > > > 7. I think I have alzheimers. (Since her 30s.) > > > > 8. OH! I just can't get MOVIN'! (in bed at 1 pm.) > > > > 9. OH! My allergies are actin' up today. > > > > 10. I am EXHAUSTED. > > > > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 12, 2010 Report Share Posted May 12, 2010 MY, my nada would make audible sniff noises, too! Amazing. Yay, I hope I get more input like this. --ChhC > > > > > > > So, of all nada did, one of the things that hit me hardest was her constant > > torrent of panicked exclamations about her physical condition. She had a set > > list of these, and I must have heard each of them literally thousands of > > times. She issued them as if she was going to burst into flames any second, > > and they were MY fault (for, blame was always in the undercurrent), but she > > would NOT allow me to help her or comfort her in any way. She had a pretty > > specific litany of these, repeated ad naseum, and they really were like > > torture to me when I was a child--because I felt the responsibility she > > implied, and that I should help her, but she would not let me, and that made > > me feel doubly 'Bad'. Her intense 'panic' level in these statements was very > > disturbing to me. For some reason, this week her body panic charade has been > > bouncing through my head, so without further ado, here is the top ten: > > > > 1. It's FREEZING in this house! (faux shivering) > > > > 2. Oh (obscenely huge suck in of breath), I chipped a nail! > > > > 3. Oh, that (insert specific food I am eating) is TURNING MY STOMACH. > > > > 4. Oh! That air (as in AC) is blowin' right on me. > > > > 5. Do you SMELL that? (appalled, huge eyes). What is that SMELL? > > > > 6. I just don't FEEL like cooking, today. > > > > 7. I think I have alzheimers. (Since her 30s.) > > > > 8. OH! I just can't get MOVIN'! (in bed at 1 pm.) > > > > 9. OH! My allergies are actin' up today. > > > > 10. I am EXHAUSTED. > > > > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 6, 2010 Report Share Posted August 6, 2010 I know I do all I can to NOT be like my nada. And that means ignoring any physical problems of my own. That can be dangerous because sometimes we actually need medical attention. I've pushed things a bit too far a couple of times and ended up in ER. > > Fiona I just have to say AMEN, I do not express my discomfort. > > Now that i'm in my mid 30s, I'm learning to. Wow. It makes me extremely > uncomfortable to say I'm uncomfortable. Ha ha doest that make any sense. > > I think that might be why I have fibro - actually. In pain. Don't say > anything. If you say anything, you'll get screamed at. Or told by fada to > cowboy up. Or teased by the bada. or worse. > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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