Ready to give up...

[Guest guest]

I have been trying IE for awhile now. In the process, I have put on 50 pounds. I

have never been this big or unhealthy in my life. I have trouble with my knees

and awful heel pain. I didn't gain this much when I went off a diet. I am so

disappointed because I thought this was the way to go. I always want junk food

and never crave any of the healthier stuff. I feel terrible. I have acid reflux

and terrible anxiety from all this weight I have put on. It is a constant

struggle for me to turn away from food. I have to fight with myself all the time

to try not to eat when I'm not hungry. To me, this seems so much like a diet. I

am only 33 years old and having all these issues. Please tell me how you all get

through this. My ankles swell really bad now and gaining all this weight has

made me really depressed. What put the icing on the cake was when I went for my

yearly physical, my doc recommended gastric bypass. IE seems so simple, but yet

is so hard. I just don't know if this is for me. Sorry for rambling.

Raina

[Guest guest]

Hi Jen. The part that seems diety to me is trying to only eat when I'm hungry. It's like I have made this a set of rules. Either do it like the book says or don't do it at all. I know that IE is supposed to help you have a healthy relationship with food, but how can you get to that point when you just keep putting on weight. I don't even feel like playing with my daughter. I am not healthy at all. Some days, the pull to eat when I'm not hungry is so strong, it's almost impossible to control it. Raina Sent from my iPhone

Raina,

You aren't rambling at all. I read your post and truly feel for you. And I understand so much. It seems as though when I began IE I did well for the initial 2 weeks. I was thrilled. I thought I understood so much and was gaining so much insight about all of this. And then I began having more trouble eating only when I was hungry. And not binging my brains out every single night regardless of HOW much I try to implement the practices. It seems that nothing works for me anymore. I haven't given up on IE, but I have gained more weight while doing it than I was gaining before. I am gaining significant weight. It's as though I want to binge even MORE (especially in the evenings). I have read Geneen's book twice and IE once and am reading another one right now.

Raina, you mentioned that this feels like a diet to you. What aspects of it make you feel like you are dieting? And what part of the day do you seem to struggle the most?

You aren't alone,

Jen