Re: Re: Binging, pehaps because of medication?? Need help-Abby

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Cortney,I am glad you are having a better day!i hope my email didn't make you feel more ashamed.each of our inherent worth as human beings, and what we contribute, has nothing to do with our weight or appearance. and no matter what, time marches on with regards to our looks. remember all the fabulous things about you that have nothing to do with what you look like! 

how was your appointment today? are you less worried about that now?

 

Hi Abby

Thank you, thank you, thank you!

I didn't realize that my post came across like that and it opened my eyes. I feel shameful. I do. That's hard to say but I do feel shameful for many things including my illness. I avoid life because of my weight because I'm embarrassed and ashamed of myself. I look at pics of me when I was thin and I out myself down because I don't look like that now...And I may never. I'm 32 I was 18-19 when the pics were taken...I want to be healthy, to feel good, to have control over my eating and my life.

So thank you. I am having a better day today.

Cortney

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> Cortney,

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> I have just started on meds (for fertility) that I think cause weight gain,

> at least, I know some fertility meds can do that. But I decided not to look

> up the side effects because I didn't want to know for sure -- self

> fulfilling prophecy and all that!

>

> the big thing that jumps out at me about your post is that you seem to be

> feeling a lot of shame. Which is sad. It is not your fault that you have

> this illness, and that you need to take this medication which may (or may

> not) cause you to gain weight. I wonder if you are feeling like the weight

> gain is inevitable event, and are frustrated by that, and angry with

> yourself for needing these meds, and thus using food to punish yourself

> and/or drown out these feelings?

>

> What if you looked at the weight gain as a possibility (even if it's 98%

> possible!) and not as a sure thing? And decide that no matter what, you will

> do your best to take care of YOU. which means feeding yourself but not

> binging, forgiving yourself for having an illness, forgiving yourself for

> gaining weight if indeed it does happen, checking in with yourself, and

> accepting help from others? I don't think your therapist or your

> nutritionist or your psychiatrist will blame or criticize you! This is a

> very hard thing you are doing. And certainly we are all here to support you

> however we can. It was a very brave thing to do to reach out in the first

> place. Good for you!

>

> Best,

> abby

>

> ps if this is all totally out of line and a misreading of your situation, i

> apologize!

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