Re: Binging, pehaps because of medication?? Need help-Abby

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Hi Abby

Thank you, thank you, thank you!

I didn't realize that my post came across like that and it opened my eyes. I

feel shameful. I do. That's hard to say but I do feel shameful for many things

including my illness. I avoid life because of my weight because I'm embarrassed

and ashamed of myself. I look at pics of me when I was thin and I out myself

down because I don't look like that now...And I may never. I'm 32 I was 18-19

when the pics were taken...I want to be healthy, to feel good, to have control

over my eating and my life.

So thank you. I am having a better day today.

Cortney

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> Cortney,

>

> I have just started on meds (for fertility) that I think cause weight gain,

> at least, I know some fertility meds can do that. But I decided not to look

> up the side effects because I didn't want to know for sure -- self

> fulfilling prophecy and all that!

>

> the big thing that jumps out at me about your post is that you seem to be

> feeling a lot of shame. Which is sad. It is not your fault that you have

> this illness, and that you need to take this medication which may (or may

> not) cause you to gain weight. I wonder if you are feeling like the weight

> gain is inevitable event, and are frustrated by that, and angry with

> yourself for needing these meds, and thus using food to punish yourself

> and/or drown out these feelings?

>

> What if you looked at the weight gain as a possibility (even if it's 98%

> possible!) and not as a sure thing? And decide that no matter what, you will

> do your best to take care of YOU. which means feeding yourself but not

> binging, forgiving yourself for having an illness, forgiving yourself for

> gaining weight if indeed it does happen, checking in with yourself, and

> accepting help from others? I don't think your therapist or your

> nutritionist or your psychiatrist will blame or criticize you! This is a

> very hard thing you are doing. And certainly we are all here to support you

> however we can. It was a very brave thing to do to reach out in the first

> place. Good for you!

>

> Best,

> abby

>

> ps if this is all totally out of line and a misreading of your situation, i

> apologize!

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