gaining weight and freaking out!! Help!!

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I'm up prob 5 pds since I started eating this way! In a lot of ways I feel a lot

calmer around food....but since stepping on the scale I just want to run back to

counting calories! I need to lose 30 pds..and I honestly don't know what to

think right now. I know my mind is warped by these thoughts, I know my slef

worth is not determined by that number....but I can't seem to stop these

thoughts of feeling worthless and like a failure! I wish I could just not think

about food every minute of every day. I can't imagine what I could be doing with

all this time and energy I spend thinking about food, dieting, ways to loose

weight etc! Its so frustrating! I could really use some words of advice here

ladies...Help!!!!!