Re: Can't seem to do this!

[Guest guest]

I wish I had something to say in reply to this other than " me too " . I've been

trying to do this for so long (over a year). And I've managed to legalise almost

every 'forbidden' food. I have all the chocolate etc in my house. And there are

times, occasional times when it clicks. The other day I went to the cinema and

ate a few chocolates really slowly, and really enjoyed them and felt in control

and satisfied by those few. But today I shoved the rest of the box down my

throat in a guilt-filled frenzy and didn't enjoy it or feel in control at all.

I'm gaining weight like crazy, and it's starting to bring up all the panicky

diet thoughts in me again. Just saw photos of me from Christmas, and UGH indeed.

I know it is - for me - all about using food as a drug, as a sedative to numb me

out of feeling any uncomfortable emotion. I KNOW that knowing this MUST be the

key to overcoming the emotional eating and beginning to eat intuitively. But I,

like you, seem unable to pause before I reach for food, before I start yet

another binge. I wish I knew the solution. I know journalling helps me to figure

out the emotional stuff. That's as close as I've gotten so far. Let me know if

you find anything that helps!

[Guest guest]

I wish I had something to say in reply to this other than " me too " . I've been

trying to do this for so long (over a year). And I've managed to legalise almost

every 'forbidden' food. I have all the chocolate etc in my house. And there are

times, occasional times when it clicks. The other day I went to the cinema and

ate a few chocolates really slowly, and really enjoyed them and felt in control

and satisfied by those few. But today I shoved the rest of the box down my

throat in a guilt-filled frenzy and didn't enjoy it or feel in control at all.

I'm gaining weight like crazy, and it's starting to bring up all the panicky

diet thoughts in me again. Just saw photos of me from Christmas, and UGH indeed.

I know it is - for me - all about using food as a drug, as a sedative to numb me

out of feeling any uncomfortable emotion. I KNOW that knowing this MUST be the

key to overcoming the emotional eating and beginning to eat intuitively. But I,

like you, seem unable to pause before I reach for food, before I start yet

another binge. I wish I knew the solution. I know journalling helps me to figure

out the emotional stuff. That's as close as I've gotten so far. Let me know if

you find anything that helps!

[Guest guest]

Hi and JetBlack,I have been lurking for a some time on this group and you moved me to make my first reply. :)I've been where you are. But it's not the food, it's your feelings. Your eating is telling you that you are feeling some things that you don't want to feel. So you have to just keep going back and looking and looking. I went to therapy for a few years and I picked a therapist who would challenge me to be real and it really helped. I'm still pretty heavy but I have a decent amount of peace with food now and I don't often feel out of control. Anyway, the point being, you have to just keep digging and digging in your emotions. Stuff that

you obviously don't want to deal with, well, you have to deal with it. You might think it's going to overwhelm you or you won't be able to stand it or something like that, but you can stand it and it won't overwhelm you. YOU CAN DO IT! Also it's going to take a loooong time and you might never really be done, but if you can be real and dig into stuff that is really uncomfortable then I promise you will see some movement before too long. Just remember the eating is not the problem, the eating is a sign of the problem.Just keep at it and don't give up on yourself. Have some courage and face your fears. Once you do they lose their power.IT'S GOING TO BE OK. I promise. -bakum

[Guest guest]

I too just wanted to thank you so much for this response. I feel this has put the work I'm trying to do in prespective. I really have been working with a great therapist to actually stop and feel and since she's been on vacation I haven't been paying as much attention to myself. The sign that I am not present is my eating and your post has really helped me remember that-thank you for the support!

-C

To: IntuitiveEating_Support Sent: Sun, January 2, 2011 1:50:26 AMSubject: RE: Re: Can't seem to do this!

Hi and JetBlack,

I have been lurking for a some time on this group and you moved me to make my first reply.

I've been where you are. But it's not the food, it's your feelings. Your eating is telling you that you are feeling some things that you don't want to feel. So you have to just keep going back and looking and looking. I went to therapy for a few years and I picked a therapist who would challenge me to be real and it really helped. I'm still pretty heavy but I have a decent amount of peace with food now and I don't often feel out of control.

Anyway, the point being, you have to just keep digging and digging in your emotions. Stuff that you obviously don't want to deal with, well, you have to deal with it. You might think it's going to overwhelm you or you won't be able to stand it or something like that, but you can stand it and it won't overwhelm you. YOU CAN DO IT!

Also it's going to take a loooong time and you might never really be done, but if you can be real and dig into stuff that is really uncomfortable then I promise you will see some movement before too long. Just remember the eating is not the problem, the eating is a sign of the problem.

Just keep at it and don't give up on yourself. Have some courage and face your fears. Once you do they lose their power.

IT'S GOING TO BE OK. I promise.

-bakum

[Guest guest]

I too just wanted to thank you so much for this response. I feel this has put the work I'm trying to do in prespective. I really have been working with a great therapist to actually stop and feel and since she's been on vacation I haven't been paying as much attention to myself. The sign that I am not present is my eating and your post has really helped me remember that-thank you for the support!

-C

To: IntuitiveEating_Support Sent: Sun, January 2, 2011 1:50:26 AMSubject: RE: Re: Can't seem to do this!

Hi and JetBlack,

I have been lurking for a some time on this group and you moved me to make my first reply.

I've been where you are. But it's not the food, it's your feelings. Your eating is telling you that you are feeling some things that you don't want to feel. So you have to just keep going back and looking and looking. I went to therapy for a few years and I picked a therapist who would challenge me to be real and it really helped. I'm still pretty heavy but I have a decent amount of peace with food now and I don't often feel out of control.

Anyway, the point being, you have to just keep digging and digging in your emotions. Stuff that you obviously don't want to deal with, well, you have to deal with it. You might think it's going to overwhelm you or you won't be able to stand it or something like that, but you can stand it and it won't overwhelm you. YOU CAN DO IT!

Also it's going to take a loooong time and you might never really be done, but if you can be real and dig into stuff that is really uncomfortable then I promise you will see some movement before too long. Just remember the eating is not the problem, the eating is a sign of the problem.

Just keep at it and don't give up on yourself. Have some courage and face your fears. Once you do they lose their power.

IT'S GOING TO BE OK. I promise.

-bakum

[Guest guest]

I too just wanted to thank you so much for this response. I feel this has put the work I'm trying to do in prespective. I really have been working with a great therapist to actually stop and feel and since she's been on vacation I haven't been paying as much attention to myself. The sign that I am not present is my eating and your post has really helped me remember that-thank you for the support!

-C

To: IntuitiveEating_Support Sent: Sun, January 2, 2011 1:50:26 AMSubject: RE: Re: Can't seem to do this!

Hi and JetBlack,

I have been lurking for a some time on this group and you moved me to make my first reply.

I've been where you are. But it's not the food, it's your feelings. Your eating is telling you that you are feeling some things that you don't want to feel. So you have to just keep going back and looking and looking. I went to therapy for a few years and I picked a therapist who would challenge me to be real and it really helped. I'm still pretty heavy but I have a decent amount of peace with food now and I don't often feel out of control.

Anyway, the point being, you have to just keep digging and digging in your emotions. Stuff that you obviously don't want to deal with, well, you have to deal with it. You might think it's going to overwhelm you or you won't be able to stand it or something like that, but you can stand it and it won't overwhelm you. YOU CAN DO IT!

Also it's going to take a loooong time and you might never really be done, but if you can be real and dig into stuff that is really uncomfortable then I promise you will see some movement before too long. Just remember the eating is not the problem, the eating is a sign of the problem.

Just keep at it and don't give up on yourself. Have some courage and face your fears. Once you do they lose their power.

IT'S GOING TO BE OK. I promise.

-bakum

[Guest guest]

I can relate to everything you've said, .  But I now can very easily remind myself that I can't follow Weight Watchers, or any other diet. The overeating would still happen--only I'd now be paying money to do it! 

I'm trying to take the " magic " out of food.  It's very, very hard for me to remember that there aren't any forbidden foods in my life.

 

I'm feeling like this too.  I bought some dark chocolate chips and for a while I was able to eat them slowly and enjoy them,  but lately I'm been eating a whole bag of them.  I'm gaining weight, my clothes feel tight and I'm thinking of going back to Weight Watchers meetings.  I'm really tired of this.  I should be able to control what I put in my mouth,  but it seems I can't like I'm a food addict.   

To: IntuitiveEating_Support

Sent: Sat, January 1, 2011 8:09:58 PMSubject: Re: Can't seem to do this!

 

I wish I had something to say in reply to this other than " me too " . I've been trying to do this for so long (over a year). And I've managed to legalise almost every 'forbidden' food. I have all the chocolate etc in my house. And there are times, occasional times when it clicks. The other day I went to the cinema and ate a few chocolates really slowly, and really enjoyed them and felt in control and satisfied by those few. But today I shoved the rest of the box down my throat in a guilt-filled frenzy and didn't enjoy it or feel in control at all. I'm gaining weight like crazy, and it's starting to bring up all the panicky diet thoughts in me again. Just saw photos of me from Christmas, and UGH indeed.

I know it is - for me - all about using food as a drug, as a sedative to numb me out of feeling any uncomfortable emotion. I KNOW that knowing this MUST be the key to overcoming the emotional eating and beginning to eat intuitively. But I, like

you, seem unable to pause before I reach for food, before I start yet another binge. I wish I knew the solution. I know journalling helps me to figure out the emotional stuff. That's as close as I've gotten so far. Let me know if you find anything that helps!

[Guest guest]

I can relate to everything you've said, .  But I now can very easily remind myself that I can't follow Weight Watchers, or any other diet. The overeating would still happen--only I'd now be paying money to do it! 

I'm trying to take the " magic " out of food.  It's very, very hard for me to remember that there aren't any forbidden foods in my life.

 

I'm feeling like this too.  I bought some dark chocolate chips and for a while I was able to eat them slowly and enjoy them,  but lately I'm been eating a whole bag of them.  I'm gaining weight, my clothes feel tight and I'm thinking of going back to Weight Watchers meetings.  I'm really tired of this.  I should be able to control what I put in my mouth,  but it seems I can't like I'm a food addict.   

To: IntuitiveEating_Support

Sent: Sat, January 1, 2011 8:09:58 PMSubject: Re: Can't seem to do this!

 

I wish I had something to say in reply to this other than " me too " . I've been trying to do this for so long (over a year). And I've managed to legalise almost every 'forbidden' food. I have all the chocolate etc in my house. And there are times, occasional times when it clicks. The other day I went to the cinema and ate a few chocolates really slowly, and really enjoyed them and felt in control and satisfied by those few. But today I shoved the rest of the box down my throat in a guilt-filled frenzy and didn't enjoy it or feel in control at all. I'm gaining weight like crazy, and it's starting to bring up all the panicky diet thoughts in me again. Just saw photos of me from Christmas, and UGH indeed.

I know it is - for me - all about using food as a drug, as a sedative to numb me out of feeling any uncomfortable emotion. I KNOW that knowing this MUST be the key to overcoming the emotional eating and beginning to eat intuitively. But I, like

you, seem unable to pause before I reach for food, before I start yet another binge. I wish I knew the solution. I know journalling helps me to figure out the emotional stuff. That's as close as I've gotten so far. Let me know if you find anything that helps!

[Guest guest]

I can relate to everything you've said, .  But I now can very easily remind myself that I can't follow Weight Watchers, or any other diet. The overeating would still happen--only I'd now be paying money to do it! 

I'm trying to take the " magic " out of food.  It's very, very hard for me to remember that there aren't any forbidden foods in my life.

 

I'm feeling like this too.  I bought some dark chocolate chips and for a while I was able to eat them slowly and enjoy them,  but lately I'm been eating a whole bag of them.  I'm gaining weight, my clothes feel tight and I'm thinking of going back to Weight Watchers meetings.  I'm really tired of this.  I should be able to control what I put in my mouth,  but it seems I can't like I'm a food addict.   

To: IntuitiveEating_Support

Sent: Sat, January 1, 2011 8:09:58 PMSubject: Re: Can't seem to do this!

 

I wish I had something to say in reply to this other than " me too " . I've been trying to do this for so long (over a year). And I've managed to legalise almost every 'forbidden' food. I have all the chocolate etc in my house. And there are times, occasional times when it clicks. The other day I went to the cinema and ate a few chocolates really slowly, and really enjoyed them and felt in control and satisfied by those few. But today I shoved the rest of the box down my throat in a guilt-filled frenzy and didn't enjoy it or feel in control at all. I'm gaining weight like crazy, and it's starting to bring up all the panicky diet thoughts in me again. Just saw photos of me from Christmas, and UGH indeed.

I know it is - for me - all about using food as a drug, as a sedative to numb me out of feeling any uncomfortable emotion. I KNOW that knowing this MUST be the key to overcoming the emotional eating and beginning to eat intuitively. But I, like

you, seem unable to pause before I reach for food, before I start yet another binge. I wish I knew the solution. I know journalling helps me to figure out the emotional stuff. That's as close as I've gotten so far. Let me know if you find anything that helps!

[Guest guest]

,

I feel like you hit on something - trying to take the magic out of food. EXACTLY! We CAN eat anything, so food isn't what it once was for me. And, at this point in my daily journey with IE, I have found I don't plan everything around a meal. It is part of the plans many times, but not my main focus, because i know I can have what I want and won't feel like I am going to blow up from overstuffing myself afterwards. I have even thought of what I would love to "pig out" on and honestly I can't ever come up with anything. I guess because pigging out isn't my main goal anymore. Thanks for your awesome insight!

Jami

I'm feeling like this too. I bought some dark chocolate chips and for a while I was able to eat them slowly and enjoy them, but lately I'm been eating a whole bag of them. I'm gaining weight, my clothes feel tight and I'm thinking of going back to Weight Watchers meetings. I'm really tired of this. I should be able to control what I put in my mouth, but it seems I can't like I'm a food addict.

To: IntuitiveEating_Support Sent: Sat, January 1, 2011 8:09:58 PM

Subject: Re: Can't seem to do this!

I wish I had something to say in reply to this other than "me too". I've been trying to do this for so long (over a year). And I've managed to legalise almost every 'forbidden' food. I have all the chocolate etc in my house. And there are times, occasional times when it clicks. The other day I went to the cinema and ate a few chocolates really slowly, and really enjoyed them and felt in control and satisfied by those few. But today I shoved the rest of the box down my throat in a guilt-filled frenzy and didn't enjoy it or feel in control at all. I'm gaining weight like crazy, and it's starting to bring up all the panicky diet thoughts in me again. Just saw photos of me from Christmas, and UGH indeed.I know it is - for me - all about using food as a drug, as a sedative to numb me out of feeling any uncomfortable emotion. I KNOW that knowing this MUST be the key to overcoming the emotional eating and beginning to eat intuitively. But I, like

you, seem unable to pause before I reach for food, before I start yet another binge. I wish I knew the solution. I know journalling helps me to figure out the emotional stuff. That's as close as I've gotten so far. Let me know if you find anything that helps!

[Guest guest]

,

I feel like you hit on something - trying to take the magic out of food. EXACTLY! We CAN eat anything, so food isn't what it once was for me. And, at this point in my daily journey with IE, I have found I don't plan everything around a meal. It is part of the plans many times, but not my main focus, because i know I can have what I want and won't feel like I am going to blow up from overstuffing myself afterwards. I have even thought of what I would love to "pig out" on and honestly I can't ever come up with anything. I guess because pigging out isn't my main goal anymore. Thanks for your awesome insight!

Jami

I'm feeling like this too. I bought some dark chocolate chips and for a while I was able to eat them slowly and enjoy them, but lately I'm been eating a whole bag of them. I'm gaining weight, my clothes feel tight and I'm thinking of going back to Weight Watchers meetings. I'm really tired of this. I should be able to control what I put in my mouth, but it seems I can't like I'm a food addict.

To: IntuitiveEating_Support Sent: Sat, January 1, 2011 8:09:58 PM

Subject: Re: Can't seem to do this!

I wish I had something to say in reply to this other than "me too". I've been trying to do this for so long (over a year). And I've managed to legalise almost every 'forbidden' food. I have all the chocolate etc in my house. And there are times, occasional times when it clicks. The other day I went to the cinema and ate a few chocolates really slowly, and really enjoyed them and felt in control and satisfied by those few. But today I shoved the rest of the box down my throat in a guilt-filled frenzy and didn't enjoy it or feel in control at all. I'm gaining weight like crazy, and it's starting to bring up all the panicky diet thoughts in me again. Just saw photos of me from Christmas, and UGH indeed.I know it is - for me - all about using food as a drug, as a sedative to numb me out of feeling any uncomfortable emotion. I KNOW that knowing this MUST be the key to overcoming the emotional eating and beginning to eat intuitively. But I, like

you, seem unable to pause before I reach for food, before I start yet another binge. I wish I knew the solution. I know journalling helps me to figure out the emotional stuff. That's as close as I've gotten so far. Let me know if you find anything that helps!

[Guest guest]

,

I feel like you hit on something - trying to take the magic out of food. EXACTLY! We CAN eat anything, so food isn't what it once was for me. And, at this point in my daily journey with IE, I have found I don't plan everything around a meal. It is part of the plans many times, but not my main focus, because i know I can have what I want and won't feel like I am going to blow up from overstuffing myself afterwards. I have even thought of what I would love to "pig out" on and honestly I can't ever come up with anything. I guess because pigging out isn't my main goal anymore. Thanks for your awesome insight!

Jami

I'm feeling like this too. I bought some dark chocolate chips and for a while I was able to eat them slowly and enjoy them, but lately I'm been eating a whole bag of them. I'm gaining weight, my clothes feel tight and I'm thinking of going back to Weight Watchers meetings. I'm really tired of this. I should be able to control what I put in my mouth, but it seems I can't like I'm a food addict.

To: IntuitiveEating_Support Sent: Sat, January 1, 2011 8:09:58 PM

Subject: Re: Can't seem to do this!

I wish I had something to say in reply to this other than "me too". I've been trying to do this for so long (over a year). And I've managed to legalise almost every 'forbidden' food. I have all the chocolate etc in my house. And there are times, occasional times when it clicks. The other day I went to the cinema and ate a few chocolates really slowly, and really enjoyed them and felt in control and satisfied by those few. But today I shoved the rest of the box down my throat in a guilt-filled frenzy and didn't enjoy it or feel in control at all. I'm gaining weight like crazy, and it's starting to bring up all the panicky diet thoughts in me again. Just saw photos of me from Christmas, and UGH indeed.I know it is - for me - all about using food as a drug, as a sedative to numb me out of feeling any uncomfortable emotion. I KNOW that knowing this MUST be the key to overcoming the emotional eating and beginning to eat intuitively. But I, like

you, seem unable to pause before I reach for food, before I start yet another binge. I wish I knew the solution. I know journalling helps me to figure out the emotional stuff. That's as close as I've gotten so far. Let me know if you find anything that helps!

[Guest guest]

Ugh..I went grocery shopping yesterday, and instead of only buying the same old

foods, decided to really try and mix it up with foods I have been craving and

truly enjoy. I bought a loaf of cinnamon raisin bread, and did great....with

the first piece. However, last night and this morning, it all went downhill

fast. The entire loaf is almost gone! I don't get why it's SO hard for me to

take that pause. It's like I can't even remember to when the thought of the

food enters my head. It's thought, then straight to the food, and it's in my

mouth before I even realize it. Once in awhile when I am eating, I will try to

eat slowly and enjoy it, but it never lasts more than a few seconds, and even in

those few seconds, I'm not really tasting it. It's so odd. How could I want

the food so bad when I really hardly ever even taste it or enjoy it???

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> I'm feeling like this too.  I bought some dark chocolate chips and for a

while I was able to eat them slowly and enjoy them,  but lately I'm been eating

a whole bag of them.  I'm gaining weight, my clothes feel tight and I'm

thinking of going back to Weight Watchers meetings.  I'm really tired of

this.  I should be able to control what I put in my mouth,  but it seems I

can't like I'm a food addict.   

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> To: IntuitiveEating_Support

> Sent: Sat, January 1, 2011 8:09:58 PM

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> Subject: Re: Can't seem to do this!

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> I wish I had something to say in reply to this other than " me too " . I've been

trying to do this for so long (over a year). And I've managed to legalise almost

every 'forbidden' food. I have all the chocolate etc in my house. And there are

times, occasional times when it clicks. The other day I went to the cinema and

ate a few chocolates really slowly, and really enjoyed them and felt in control

and satisfied by those few. But today I shoved the rest of the box down my

throat in a guilt-filled frenzy and didn't enjoy it or feel in control at all.

I'm gaining weight like crazy, and it's starting to bring up all the panicky

diet thoughts in me again. Just saw photos of me from Christmas, and UGH indeed.

>

> I know it is - for me - all about using food as a drug, as a sedative to numb

me out of feeling any uncomfortable emotion. I KNOW that knowing this MUST be

the key to overcoming the emotional eating and beginning to eat intuitively. But

I, like you, seem unable to pause before I reach for food, before I start yet

another binge. I wish I knew the solution. I know journalling helps me to figure

out the emotional stuff. That's as close as I've gotten so far. Let me know if

you find anything that helps!

>

[Guest guest]

Ugh..I went grocery shopping yesterday, and instead of only buying the same old

foods, decided to really try and mix it up with foods I have been craving and

truly enjoy. I bought a loaf of cinnamon raisin bread, and did great....with

the first piece. However, last night and this morning, it all went downhill

fast. The entire loaf is almost gone! I don't get why it's SO hard for me to

take that pause. It's like I can't even remember to when the thought of the

food enters my head. It's thought, then straight to the food, and it's in my

mouth before I even realize it. Once in awhile when I am eating, I will try to

eat slowly and enjoy it, but it never lasts more than a few seconds, and even in

those few seconds, I'm not really tasting it. It's so odd. How could I want

the food so bad when I really hardly ever even taste it or enjoy it???

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> I'm feeling like this too.  I bought some dark chocolate chips and for a

while I was able to eat them slowly and enjoy them,  but lately I'm been eating

a whole bag of them.  I'm gaining weight, my clothes feel tight and I'm

thinking of going back to Weight Watchers meetings.  I'm really tired of

this.  I should be able to control what I put in my mouth,  but it seems I

can't like I'm a food addict.   

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> To: IntuitiveEating_Support

> Sent: Sat, January 1, 2011 8:09:58 PM

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> Subject: Re: Can't seem to do this!

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> I wish I had something to say in reply to this other than " me too " . I've been

trying to do this for so long (over a year). And I've managed to legalise almost

every 'forbidden' food. I have all the chocolate etc in my house. And there are

times, occasional times when it clicks. The other day I went to the cinema and

ate a few chocolates really slowly, and really enjoyed them and felt in control

and satisfied by those few. But today I shoved the rest of the box down my

throat in a guilt-filled frenzy and didn't enjoy it or feel in control at all.

I'm gaining weight like crazy, and it's starting to bring up all the panicky

diet thoughts in me again. Just saw photos of me from Christmas, and UGH indeed.

>

> I know it is - for me - all about using food as a drug, as a sedative to numb

me out of feeling any uncomfortable emotion. I KNOW that knowing this MUST be

the key to overcoming the emotional eating and beginning to eat intuitively. But

I, like you, seem unable to pause before I reach for food, before I start yet

another binge. I wish I knew the solution. I know journalling helps me to figure

out the emotional stuff. That's as close as I've gotten so far. Let me know if

you find anything that helps!

>

[Guest guest]

Ugh..I went grocery shopping yesterday, and instead of only buying the same old

foods, decided to really try and mix it up with foods I have been craving and

truly enjoy. I bought a loaf of cinnamon raisin bread, and did great....with

the first piece. However, last night and this morning, it all went downhill

fast. The entire loaf is almost gone! I don't get why it's SO hard for me to

take that pause. It's like I can't even remember to when the thought of the

food enters my head. It's thought, then straight to the food, and it's in my

mouth before I even realize it. Once in awhile when I am eating, I will try to

eat slowly and enjoy it, but it never lasts more than a few seconds, and even in

those few seconds, I'm not really tasting it. It's so odd. How could I want

the food so bad when I really hardly ever even taste it or enjoy it???

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> I'm feeling like this too.  I bought some dark chocolate chips and for a

while I was able to eat them slowly and enjoy them,  but lately I'm been eating

a whole bag of them.  I'm gaining weight, my clothes feel tight and I'm

thinking of going back to Weight Watchers meetings.  I'm really tired of

this.  I should be able to control what I put in my mouth,  but it seems I

can't like I'm a food addict.   

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> To: IntuitiveEating_Support

> Sent: Sat, January 1, 2011 8:09:58 PM

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> Subject: Re: Can't seem to do this!

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> I wish I had something to say in reply to this other than " me too " . I've been

trying to do this for so long (over a year). And I've managed to legalise almost

every 'forbidden' food. I have all the chocolate etc in my house. And there are

times, occasional times when it clicks. The other day I went to the cinema and

ate a few chocolates really slowly, and really enjoyed them and felt in control

and satisfied by those few. But today I shoved the rest of the box down my

throat in a guilt-filled frenzy and didn't enjoy it or feel in control at all.

I'm gaining weight like crazy, and it's starting to bring up all the panicky

diet thoughts in me again. Just saw photos of me from Christmas, and UGH indeed.

>

> I know it is - for me - all about using food as a drug, as a sedative to numb

me out of feeling any uncomfortable emotion. I KNOW that knowing this MUST be

the key to overcoming the emotional eating and beginning to eat intuitively. But

I, like you, seem unable to pause before I reach for food, before I start yet

another binge. I wish I knew the solution. I know journalling helps me to figure

out the emotional stuff. That's as close as I've gotten so far. Let me know if

you find anything that helps!

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[Guest guest]

When I started IE, I was thrilled with the idea of decriminalizing food and for the first few weeks I ate too much of everything because my system didn't really believe that I could actually have as much as I want of it forever. Forever. As much as I want. The advice I got was not to worry at all about weight at the beginning, not to worry yet about how much I was eating. Just to wait until I was hungry and keep reassuring myself that I could have as many cookies as FELT SATISFYING to me. Keep the focus on satisfaction. Make each eating experience a satisfying one - eating the thing you most want when you're comfortably hungry. Paying attention to how lovely and delicious it is when you eat. And if you keep your focus on satisfaction you will find in a few days that you don't actually want to eat to discomfort because that's not satisfying.

I also started talking to my little deprived hungry self, saying, at the first sign of hunger: Yes, honey, I'm going to feed you. I'm going to feed you. To counteract all those decades of telling myself I would NOT feed myself, because I had already eaten to much, because I was too fat, because this was fattening food, etc. Yes, sweetheart, I'm going to feed you.

And I caught myself every time I started to think that I was eating too many cookies or too much ice cream and I should try to eat less later. And I'd reassure myself, No, you don't have to worry about later - I promise that when you get hungry later, I will again feed you as much as you need of something really tasty.

The body and mind really get terribly scared of deprivation after all the diets we've put them on. I don't know about you, but I was telling myself every minute of every day that I shouldn't be eating. To the point of trauma.

Finally, gradually, my system has started to believe that I really will feed it and it's starting to calm down.

Hope this helps.

April

Ugh..I went grocery shopping yesterday, and instead of only buying the same old foods, decided to really try and mix it up with foods I have been craving and truly enjoy. I bought a loaf of cinnamon raisin bread, and did great....with the first piece. However, last night and this morning, it all went downhill fast. The entire loaf is almost gone! I don't get why it's SO hard for me to take that pause. It's like I can't even remember to when the thought of the food enters my head. It's thought, then straight to the food, and it's in my mouth before I even realize it. Once in awhile when I am eating, I will try to eat slowly and enjoy it, but it never lasts more than a few seconds, and even in those few seconds, I'm not really tasting it. It's so odd. How could I want the food so bad when I really hardly ever even taste it or enjoy it???> > >  > > > > > > I'm feeling like this too. I bought some dark chocolate chips and for a while I was able to eat them slowly and enjoy them, but lately I'm been eating a whole bag of them. I'm gaining weight, my clothes feel tight and I'm thinking of going back to Weight Watchers meetings. I'm really tired of this. I should be able to control what I put in my mouth, but it seems I can't like I'm a food addict.  > > > > > > > > To: IntuitiveEating_Support > Sent: Sat, January 1, 2011 8:09:58 PM> > Subject: Re: Can't seem to do this!> >  > > I wish I had something to say in reply to this other than "me too". I've been trying to do this for so long (over a year). And I've managed to legalise almost every 'forbidden' food. I have all the chocolate etc in my house. And there are times, occasional times when it clicks. The other day I went to the cinema and ate a few chocolates really slowly, and really enjoyed them and felt in control and satisfied by those few. But today I shoved the rest of the box down my throat in a guilt-filled frenzy and didn't enjoy it or feel in control at all. I'm gaining weight like crazy, and it's starting to bring up all the panicky diet thoughts in me again. Just saw photos of me from Christmas, and UGH indeed.> > I know it is - for me - all about using food as a drug, as a sedative to numb me out of feeling any uncomfortable emotion. I KNOW that knowing this MUST be the key to overcoming the emotional eating and beginning to eat intuitively. But I, like you, seem unable to pause before I reach for food, before I start yet another binge. I wish I knew the solution. I know journalling helps me to figure out the emotional stuff. That's as close as I've gotten so far. Let me know if you find anything that helps!>------------------------------------

[Guest guest]

When I started IE, I was thrilled with the idea of decriminalizing food and for the first few weeks I ate too much of everything because my system didn't really believe that I could actually have as much as I want of it forever. Forever. As much as I want. The advice I got was not to worry at all about weight at the beginning, not to worry yet about how much I was eating. Just to wait until I was hungry and keep reassuring myself that I could have as many cookies as FELT SATISFYING to me. Keep the focus on satisfaction. Make each eating experience a satisfying one - eating the thing you most want when you're comfortably hungry. Paying attention to how lovely and delicious it is when you eat. And if you keep your focus on satisfaction you will find in a few days that you don't actually want to eat to discomfort because that's not satisfying.

I also started talking to my little deprived hungry self, saying, at the first sign of hunger: Yes, honey, I'm going to feed you. I'm going to feed you. To counteract all those decades of telling myself I would NOT feed myself, because I had already eaten to much, because I was too fat, because this was fattening food, etc. Yes, sweetheart, I'm going to feed you.

And I caught myself every time I started to think that I was eating too many cookies or too much ice cream and I should try to eat less later. And I'd reassure myself, No, you don't have to worry about later - I promise that when you get hungry later, I will again feed you as much as you need of something really tasty.

The body and mind really get terribly scared of deprivation after all the diets we've put them on. I don't know about you, but I was telling myself every minute of every day that I shouldn't be eating. To the point of trauma.

Finally, gradually, my system has started to believe that I really will feed it and it's starting to calm down.

Hope this helps.

April

Ugh..I went grocery shopping yesterday, and instead of only buying the same old foods, decided to really try and mix it up with foods I have been craving and truly enjoy. I bought a loaf of cinnamon raisin bread, and did great....with the first piece. However, last night and this morning, it all went downhill fast. The entire loaf is almost gone! I don't get why it's SO hard for me to take that pause. It's like I can't even remember to when the thought of the food enters my head. It's thought, then straight to the food, and it's in my mouth before I even realize it. Once in awhile when I am eating, I will try to eat slowly and enjoy it, but it never lasts more than a few seconds, and even in those few seconds, I'm not really tasting it. It's so odd. How could I want the food so bad when I really hardly ever even taste it or enjoy it???> > >  > > > > > > I'm feeling like this too. I bought some dark chocolate chips and for a while I was able to eat them slowly and enjoy them, but lately I'm been eating a whole bag of them. I'm gaining weight, my clothes feel tight and I'm thinking of going back to Weight Watchers meetings. I'm really tired of this. I should be able to control what I put in my mouth, but it seems I can't like I'm a food addict.  > > > > > > > > To: IntuitiveEating_Support > Sent: Sat, January 1, 2011 8:09:58 PM> > Subject: Re: Can't seem to do this!> >  > > I wish I had something to say in reply to this other than "me too". I've been trying to do this for so long (over a year). And I've managed to legalise almost every 'forbidden' food. I have all the chocolate etc in my house. And there are times, occasional times when it clicks. The other day I went to the cinema and ate a few chocolates really slowly, and really enjoyed them and felt in control and satisfied by those few. But today I shoved the rest of the box down my throat in a guilt-filled frenzy and didn't enjoy it or feel in control at all. I'm gaining weight like crazy, and it's starting to bring up all the panicky diet thoughts in me again. Just saw photos of me from Christmas, and UGH indeed.> > I know it is - for me - all about using food as a drug, as a sedative to numb me out of feeling any uncomfortable emotion. I KNOW that knowing this MUST be the key to overcoming the emotional eating and beginning to eat intuitively. But I, like you, seem unable to pause before I reach for food, before I start yet another binge. I wish I knew the solution. I know journalling helps me to figure out the emotional stuff. That's as close as I've gotten so far. Let me know if you find anything that helps!>------------------------------------

[Guest guest]

When I started IE, I was thrilled with the idea of decriminalizing food and for the first few weeks I ate too much of everything because my system didn't really believe that I could actually have as much as I want of it forever. Forever. As much as I want. The advice I got was not to worry at all about weight at the beginning, not to worry yet about how much I was eating. Just to wait until I was hungry and keep reassuring myself that I could have as many cookies as FELT SATISFYING to me. Keep the focus on satisfaction. Make each eating experience a satisfying one - eating the thing you most want when you're comfortably hungry. Paying attention to how lovely and delicious it is when you eat. And if you keep your focus on satisfaction you will find in a few days that you don't actually want to eat to discomfort because that's not satisfying.

I also started talking to my little deprived hungry self, saying, at the first sign of hunger: Yes, honey, I'm going to feed you. I'm going to feed you. To counteract all those decades of telling myself I would NOT feed myself, because I had already eaten to much, because I was too fat, because this was fattening food, etc. Yes, sweetheart, I'm going to feed you.

And I caught myself every time I started to think that I was eating too many cookies or too much ice cream and I should try to eat less later. And I'd reassure myself, No, you don't have to worry about later - I promise that when you get hungry later, I will again feed you as much as you need of something really tasty.

The body and mind really get terribly scared of deprivation after all the diets we've put them on. I don't know about you, but I was telling myself every minute of every day that I shouldn't be eating. To the point of trauma.

Finally, gradually, my system has started to believe that I really will feed it and it's starting to calm down.

Hope this helps.

April

Ugh..I went grocery shopping yesterday, and instead of only buying the same old foods, decided to really try and mix it up with foods I have been craving and truly enjoy. I bought a loaf of cinnamon raisin bread, and did great....with the first piece. However, last night and this morning, it all went downhill fast. The entire loaf is almost gone! I don't get why it's SO hard for me to take that pause. It's like I can't even remember to when the thought of the food enters my head. It's thought, then straight to the food, and it's in my mouth before I even realize it. Once in awhile when I am eating, I will try to eat slowly and enjoy it, but it never lasts more than a few seconds, and even in those few seconds, I'm not really tasting it. It's so odd. How could I want the food so bad when I really hardly ever even taste it or enjoy it???> > >  > > > > > > I'm feeling like this too. I bought some dark chocolate chips and for a while I was able to eat them slowly and enjoy them, but lately I'm been eating a whole bag of them. I'm gaining weight, my clothes feel tight and I'm thinking of going back to Weight Watchers meetings. I'm really tired of this. I should be able to control what I put in my mouth, but it seems I can't like I'm a food addict.  > > > > > > > > To: IntuitiveEating_Support > Sent: Sat, January 1, 2011 8:09:58 PM> > Subject: Re: Can't seem to do this!> >  > > I wish I had something to say in reply to this other than "me too". I've been trying to do this for so long (over a year). And I've managed to legalise almost every 'forbidden' food. I have all the chocolate etc in my house. And there are times, occasional times when it clicks. The other day I went to the cinema and ate a few chocolates really slowly, and really enjoyed them and felt in control and satisfied by those few. But today I shoved the rest of the box down my throat in a guilt-filled frenzy and didn't enjoy it or feel in control at all. I'm gaining weight like crazy, and it's starting to bring up all the panicky diet thoughts in me again. Just saw photos of me from Christmas, and UGH indeed.> > I know it is - for me - all about using food as a drug, as a sedative to numb me out of feeling any uncomfortable emotion. I KNOW that knowing this MUST be the key to overcoming the emotional eating and beginning to eat intuitively. But I, like you, seem unable to pause before I reach for food, before I start yet another binge. I wish I knew the solution. I know journalling helps me to figure out the emotional stuff. That's as close as I've gotten so far. Let me know if you find anything that helps!>------------------------------------

[Guest guest]

Seems to me whenever I try to eat anything with sugar or white flour I can't eat just a little. CEA HOW AND THE BODY KNOWS ARE TWO PROGRAMS that advocate that we are allergic to these foods and eating them makes us binge any thoughts on this thanks mary

To: IntuitiveEating_Support Sent: Tue, January 4, 2011 10:22:38 AMSubject: Re: Re: Can't seem to do this!

When I started IE, I was thrilled with the idea of decriminalizing food and for the first few weeks I ate too much of everything because my system didn't really believe that I could actually have as much as I want of it forever. Forever. As much as I want. The advice I got was not to worry at all about weight at the beginning, not to worry yet about how much I was eating. Just to wait until I was hungry and keep reassuring myself that I could have as many cookies as FELT SATISFYING to me. Keep the focus on satisfaction. Make each eating experience a satisfying one - eating the thing you most want when you're comfortably hungry. Paying attention to how lovely and delicious it is when you eat. And if you keep your focus on satisfaction you will find in a few days that you don't actually want to eat to discomfort because that's not satisfying.

I also started talking to my little deprived hungry self, saying, at the first sign of hunger: Yes, honey, I'm going to feed you. I'm going to feed you. To counteract all those decades of telling myself I would NOT feed myself, because I had already eaten to much, because I was too fat, because this was fattening food, etc. Yes, sweetheart, I'm going to feed you.

And I caught myself every time I started to think that I was eating too many cookies or too much ice cream and I should try to eat less later. And I'd reassure myself, No, you don't have to worry about later - I promise that when you get hungry later, I will again feed you as much as you need of something really tasty.

The body and mind really get terribly scared of deprivation after all the diets we've put them on. I don't know about you, but I was telling myself every minute of every day that I shouldn't be eating. To the point of trauma.

Finally, gradually, my system has started to believe that I really will feed it and it's starting to calm down.

Hope this helps.

April

Ugh..I went grocery shopping yesterday, and instead of only buying the same old foods, decided to really try and mix it up with foods I have been craving and truly enjoy. I bought a loaf of cinnamon raisin bread, and did great....with the first piece. However, last night and this morning, it all went downhill fast. The entire loaf is almost gone! I don't get why it's SO hard for me to take that pause. It's like I can't even remember to when the thought of the food enters my head. It's thought, then straight to the food, and it's in my mouth before I even realize it. Once in awhile when I am eating, I will try to eat slowly and enjoy it, but it never lasts more than a few seconds, and even in those few seconds, I'm not really tasting it. It's so odd. How could I want the food

so bad when I really hardly ever even taste it or enjoy it???> > > Â > > > > > > I'm feeling like this

too. I bought some dark chocolate chips and for a while I was able to eat them slowly and enjoy them, but lately I'm been eating a whole bag of them. I'm gaining weight, my clothes feel tight and I'm thinking of going back to Weight Watchers meetings. I'm really tired of this. I should be able to control what I put in my mouth, but it seems I can't like I'm a food addict.  > > > > > > > > To: IntuitiveEating_Support > Sent: Sat, January 1, 2011 8:09:58 PM> > Subject: Re: Can't seem to do this!> >  > > I wish I had something to say in reply to this other than "me too". I've been trying to do this for so long (over a year). And I've managed to legalise almost every 'forbidden' food. I have all

the chocolate etc in my house. And there are times, occasional times when it clicks. The other day I went to the cinema and ate a few chocolates really slowly, and really enjoyed them and felt in control and satisfied by those few. But today I shoved the rest of the box down my throat in a guilt-filled frenzy and didn't enjoy it or feel in control at all. I'm gaining weight like crazy, and it's starting to bring up all the panicky diet thoughts in me again. Just saw photos of me from Christmas, and UGH indeed.> > I know it is - for me - all about using food as a drug, as a sedative to numb me out of feeling any uncomfortable emotion. I KNOW that knowing this MUST be the key to overcoming the emotional eating and beginning to eat intuitively. But I, like you, seem unable to pause before I reach for food, before I start yet another binge. I wish I knew the solution. I know journalling helps me to figure out the emotional stuff. That's as

close as I've gotten so far. Let me know if you find anything that helps!>------------------------------------

[Guest guest]

Seems to me whenever I try to eat anything with sugar or white flour I can't eat just a little. CEA HOW AND THE BODY KNOWS ARE TWO PROGRAMS that advocate that we are allergic to these foods and eating them makes us binge any thoughts on this thanks mary

To: IntuitiveEating_Support Sent: Tue, January 4, 2011 10:22:38 AMSubject: Re: Re: Can't seem to do this!

When I started IE, I was thrilled with the idea of decriminalizing food and for the first few weeks I ate too much of everything because my system didn't really believe that I could actually have as much as I want of it forever. Forever. As much as I want. The advice I got was not to worry at all about weight at the beginning, not to worry yet about how much I was eating. Just to wait until I was hungry and keep reassuring myself that I could have as many cookies as FELT SATISFYING to me. Keep the focus on satisfaction. Make each eating experience a satisfying one - eating the thing you most want when you're comfortably hungry. Paying attention to how lovely and delicious it is when you eat. And if you keep your focus on satisfaction you will find in a few days that you don't actually want to eat to discomfort because that's not satisfying.

I also started talking to my little deprived hungry self, saying, at the first sign of hunger: Yes, honey, I'm going to feed you. I'm going to feed you. To counteract all those decades of telling myself I would NOT feed myself, because I had already eaten to much, because I was too fat, because this was fattening food, etc. Yes, sweetheart, I'm going to feed you.

And I caught myself every time I started to think that I was eating too many cookies or too much ice cream and I should try to eat less later. And I'd reassure myself, No, you don't have to worry about later - I promise that when you get hungry later, I will again feed you as much as you need of something really tasty.

The body and mind really get terribly scared of deprivation after all the diets we've put them on. I don't know about you, but I was telling myself every minute of every day that I shouldn't be eating. To the point of trauma.

Finally, gradually, my system has started to believe that I really will feed it and it's starting to calm down.

Hope this helps.

April

Ugh..I went grocery shopping yesterday, and instead of only buying the same old foods, decided to really try and mix it up with foods I have been craving and truly enjoy. I bought a loaf of cinnamon raisin bread, and did great....with the first piece. However, last night and this morning, it all went downhill fast. The entire loaf is almost gone! I don't get why it's SO hard for me to take that pause. It's like I can't even remember to when the thought of the food enters my head. It's thought, then straight to the food, and it's in my mouth before I even realize it. Once in awhile when I am eating, I will try to eat slowly and enjoy it, but it never lasts more than a few seconds, and even in those few seconds, I'm not really tasting it. It's so odd. How could I want the food

so bad when I really hardly ever even taste it or enjoy it???> > > Â > > > > > > I'm feeling like this

too. I bought some dark chocolate chips and for a while I was able to eat them slowly and enjoy them, but lately I'm been eating a whole bag of them. I'm gaining weight, my clothes feel tight and I'm thinking of going back to Weight Watchers meetings. I'm really tired of this. I should be able to control what I put in my mouth, but it seems I can't like I'm a food addict.  > > > > > > > > To: IntuitiveEating_Support > Sent: Sat, January 1, 2011 8:09:58 PM> > Subject: Re: Can't seem to do this!> >  > > I wish I had something to say in reply to this other than "me too". I've been trying to do this for so long (over a year). And I've managed to legalise almost every 'forbidden' food. I have all

the chocolate etc in my house. And there are times, occasional times when it clicks. The other day I went to the cinema and ate a few chocolates really slowly, and really enjoyed them and felt in control and satisfied by those few. But today I shoved the rest of the box down my throat in a guilt-filled frenzy and didn't enjoy it or feel in control at all. I'm gaining weight like crazy, and it's starting to bring up all the panicky diet thoughts in me again. Just saw photos of me from Christmas, and UGH indeed.> > I know it is - for me - all about using food as a drug, as a sedative to numb me out of feeling any uncomfortable emotion. I KNOW that knowing this MUST be the key to overcoming the emotional eating and beginning to eat intuitively. But I, like you, seem unable to pause before I reach for food, before I start yet another binge. I wish I knew the solution. I know journalling helps me to figure out the emotional stuff. That's as

close as I've gotten so far. Let me know if you find anything that helps!>------------------------------------

[Guest guest]

Seems to me whenever I try to eat anything with sugar or white flour I can't eat just a little. CEA HOW AND THE BODY KNOWS ARE TWO PROGRAMS that advocate that we are allergic to these foods and eating them makes us binge any thoughts on this thanks mary

To: IntuitiveEating_Support Sent: Tue, January 4, 2011 10:22:38 AMSubject: Re: Re: Can't seem to do this!

When I started IE, I was thrilled with the idea of decriminalizing food and for the first few weeks I ate too much of everything because my system didn't really believe that I could actually have as much as I want of it forever. Forever. As much as I want. The advice I got was not to worry at all about weight at the beginning, not to worry yet about how much I was eating. Just to wait until I was hungry and keep reassuring myself that I could have as many cookies as FELT SATISFYING to me. Keep the focus on satisfaction. Make each eating experience a satisfying one - eating the thing you most want when you're comfortably hungry. Paying attention to how lovely and delicious it is when you eat. And if you keep your focus on satisfaction you will find in a few days that you don't actually want to eat to discomfort because that's not satisfying.

I also started talking to my little deprived hungry self, saying, at the first sign of hunger: Yes, honey, I'm going to feed you. I'm going to feed you. To counteract all those decades of telling myself I would NOT feed myself, because I had already eaten to much, because I was too fat, because this was fattening food, etc. Yes, sweetheart, I'm going to feed you.

And I caught myself every time I started to think that I was eating too many cookies or too much ice cream and I should try to eat less later. And I'd reassure myself, No, you don't have to worry about later - I promise that when you get hungry later, I will again feed you as much as you need of something really tasty.

The body and mind really get terribly scared of deprivation after all the diets we've put them on. I don't know about you, but I was telling myself every minute of every day that I shouldn't be eating. To the point of trauma.

Finally, gradually, my system has started to believe that I really will feed it and it's starting to calm down.

Hope this helps.

April

Ugh..I went grocery shopping yesterday, and instead of only buying the same old foods, decided to really try and mix it up with foods I have been craving and truly enjoy. I bought a loaf of cinnamon raisin bread, and did great....with the first piece. However, last night and this morning, it all went downhill fast. The entire loaf is almost gone! I don't get why it's SO hard for me to take that pause. It's like I can't even remember to when the thought of the food enters my head. It's thought, then straight to the food, and it's in my mouth before I even realize it. Once in awhile when I am eating, I will try to eat slowly and enjoy it, but it never lasts more than a few seconds, and even in those few seconds, I'm not really tasting it. It's so odd. How could I want the food

so bad when I really hardly ever even taste it or enjoy it???> > > Â > > > > > > I'm feeling like this

too. I bought some dark chocolate chips and for a while I was able to eat them slowly and enjoy them, but lately I'm been eating a whole bag of them. I'm gaining weight, my clothes feel tight and I'm thinking of going back to Weight Watchers meetings. I'm really tired of this. I should be able to control what I put in my mouth, but it seems I can't like I'm a food addict.  > > > > > > > > To: IntuitiveEating_Support > Sent: Sat, January 1, 2011 8:09:58 PM> > Subject: Re: Can't seem to do this!> >  > > I wish I had something to say in reply to this other than "me too". I've been trying to do this for so long (over a year). And I've managed to legalise almost every 'forbidden' food. I have all

the chocolate etc in my house. And there are times, occasional times when it clicks. The other day I went to the cinema and ate a few chocolates really slowly, and really enjoyed them and felt in control and satisfied by those few. But today I shoved the rest of the box down my throat in a guilt-filled frenzy and didn't enjoy it or feel in control at all. I'm gaining weight like crazy, and it's starting to bring up all the panicky diet thoughts in me again. Just saw photos of me from Christmas, and UGH indeed.> > I know it is - for me - all about using food as a drug, as a sedative to numb me out of feeling any uncomfortable emotion. I KNOW that knowing this MUST be the key to overcoming the emotional eating and beginning to eat intuitively. But I, like you, seem unable to pause before I reach for food, before I start yet another binge. I wish I knew the solution. I know journalling helps me to figure out the emotional stuff. That's as

close as I've gotten so far. Let me know if you find anything that helps!>------------------------------------

[Guest guest]

Hello,

This happens to me, too. I eat mindlessly. Geneen said that it is normal to not

be able to stop at first. She said something like, " at first you will realize

it after you ate it, then you will begin to realize that you are eating

unconsciously in the middle & finally you will realize it before you start. "

Not her exact wording but something along those lines.

Right now I am in the realizing it while I am doing it & still choosing to do

it. The difference is that I do tend to slow down & enjoy (maybe not the right

wording) it more after the realization has kicked in even if I am NOT able to

stop altogether.

It does take time, that is for sure. I am not the most patient person so just

being willing to give it all the time it takes is something for me.

mj

> >

> >

> >  

> >

> >

> >

> >

> >

> > I'm feeling like this too.  I bought some dark chocolate chips and for a

while I was able to eat them slowly and enjoy them,  but lately I'm been eating

a whole bag of them.  I'm gaining weight, my clothes feel tight and I'm

thinking of going back to Weight Watchers meetings.  I'm really tired of

this.  I should be able to control what I put in my mouth,  but it seems I

can't like I'm a food addict.   

> >

> >

> >

> >

> >

> > From: jetblacknewme <jetblacknewme@>

> >

> > To: IntuitiveEating_Support

> > Sent: Sat, January 1, 2011 8:09:58 PM

> >

> > Subject: Re: Can't seem to do this!

> >

> >  

> >

> > I wish I had something to say in reply to this other than " me too " . I've

been trying to do this for so long (over a year). And I've managed to legalise

almost every 'forbidden' food. I have all the chocolate etc in my house. And

there are times, occasional times when it clicks. The other day I went to the

cinema and ate a few chocolates really slowly, and really enjoyed them and felt

in control and satisfied by those few. But today I shoved the rest of the box

down my throat in a guilt-filled frenzy and didn't enjoy it or feel in control

at all. I'm gaining weight like crazy, and it's starting to bring up all the

panicky diet thoughts in me again. Just saw photos of me from Christmas, and UGH

indeed.

> >

> > I know it is - for me - all about using food as a drug, as a sedative to

numb me out of feeling any uncomfortable emotion. I KNOW that knowing this MUST

be the key to overcoming the emotional eating and beginning to eat intuitively.

But I, like you, seem unable to pause before I reach for food, before I start

yet another binge. I wish I knew the solution. I know journalling helps me to

figure out the emotional stuff. That's as close as I've gotten so far. Let me

know if you find anything that helps!

> >

>

[Guest guest]

Hello,

This happens to me, too. I eat mindlessly. Geneen said that it is normal to not

be able to stop at first. She said something like, " at first you will realize

it after you ate it, then you will begin to realize that you are eating

unconsciously in the middle & finally you will realize it before you start. "

Not her exact wording but something along those lines.

Right now I am in the realizing it while I am doing it & still choosing to do

it. The difference is that I do tend to slow down & enjoy (maybe not the right

wording) it more after the realization has kicked in even if I am NOT able to

stop altogether.

It does take time, that is for sure. I am not the most patient person so just

being willing to give it all the time it takes is something for me.

mj

> >

> >

> >  

> >

> >

> >

> >

> >

> > I'm feeling like this too.  I bought some dark chocolate chips and for a

while I was able to eat them slowly and enjoy them,  but lately I'm been eating

a whole bag of them.  I'm gaining weight, my clothes feel tight and I'm

thinking of going back to Weight Watchers meetings.  I'm really tired of

this.  I should be able to control what I put in my mouth,  but it seems I

can't like I'm a food addict.   

> >

> >

> >

> >

> >

> > From: jetblacknewme <jetblacknewme@>

> >

> > To: IntuitiveEating_Support

> > Sent: Sat, January 1, 2011 8:09:58 PM

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> > Subject: Re: Can't seem to do this!

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> > I wish I had something to say in reply to this other than " me too " . I've

been trying to do this for so long (over a year). And I've managed to legalise

almost every 'forbidden' food. I have all the chocolate etc in my house. And

there are times, occasional times when it clicks. The other day I went to the

cinema and ate a few chocolates really slowly, and really enjoyed them and felt

in control and satisfied by those few. But today I shoved the rest of the box

down my throat in a guilt-filled frenzy and didn't enjoy it or feel in control

at all. I'm gaining weight like crazy, and it's starting to bring up all the

panicky diet thoughts in me again. Just saw photos of me from Christmas, and UGH

indeed.

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> > I know it is - for me - all about using food as a drug, as a sedative to

numb me out of feeling any uncomfortable emotion. I KNOW that knowing this MUST

be the key to overcoming the emotional eating and beginning to eat intuitively.

But I, like you, seem unable to pause before I reach for food, before I start

yet another binge. I wish I knew the solution. I know journalling helps me to

figure out the emotional stuff. That's as close as I've gotten so far. Let me

know if you find anything that helps!

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[Guest guest]

Hello,

This happens to me, too. I eat mindlessly. Geneen said that it is normal to not

be able to stop at first. She said something like, " at first you will realize

it after you ate it, then you will begin to realize that you are eating

unconsciously in the middle & finally you will realize it before you start. "

Not her exact wording but something along those lines.

Right now I am in the realizing it while I am doing it & still choosing to do

it. The difference is that I do tend to slow down & enjoy (maybe not the right

wording) it more after the realization has kicked in even if I am NOT able to

stop altogether.

It does take time, that is for sure. I am not the most patient person so just

being willing to give it all the time it takes is something for me.

mj

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> > I'm feeling like this too.  I bought some dark chocolate chips and for a

while I was able to eat them slowly and enjoy them,  but lately I'm been eating

a whole bag of them.  I'm gaining weight, my clothes feel tight and I'm

thinking of going back to Weight Watchers meetings.  I'm really tired of

this.  I should be able to control what I put in my mouth,  but it seems I

can't like I'm a food addict.   

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> > From: jetblacknewme <jetblacknewme@>

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> > To: IntuitiveEating_Support

> > Sent: Sat, January 1, 2011 8:09:58 PM

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> > Subject: Re: Can't seem to do this!

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> > I wish I had something to say in reply to this other than " me too " . I've

been trying to do this for so long (over a year). And I've managed to legalise

almost every 'forbidden' food. I have all the chocolate etc in my house. And

there are times, occasional times when it clicks. The other day I went to the

cinema and ate a few chocolates really slowly, and really enjoyed them and felt

in control and satisfied by those few. But today I shoved the rest of the box

down my throat in a guilt-filled frenzy and didn't enjoy it or feel in control

at all. I'm gaining weight like crazy, and it's starting to bring up all the

panicky diet thoughts in me again. Just saw photos of me from Christmas, and UGH

indeed.

> >

> > I know it is - for me - all about using food as a drug, as a sedative to

numb me out of feeling any uncomfortable emotion. I KNOW that knowing this MUST

be the key to overcoming the emotional eating and beginning to eat intuitively.

But I, like you, seem unable to pause before I reach for food, before I start

yet another binge. I wish I knew the solution. I know journalling helps me to

figure out the emotional stuff. That's as close as I've gotten so far. Let me

know if you find anything that helps!

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[Guest guest]

That is true I always hated paying WW. Sometimes I hate to admit it I would cheat and lean on the counter while getting weighed so it would show I weighed less than I did so I wouldn't have to pay. Then after getting weighed I would celebrate and take myself out to lunch and binge.

To: IntuitiveEating_Support Sent: Mon, January 3, 2011 5:47:47 PMSubject: Re: Re: Can't seem to do this!

I can relate to everything you've said, . But I now can very easily remind myself that I can't follow Weight Watchers, or any other diet. The overeating would still happen--only I'd now be paying money to do it! I'm trying to take the "magic" out of food. It's very, very hard for me to remember that there aren't any forbidden foods in my life.

I'm feeling like this too. I bought some dark chocolate chips and for a while I was able to eat them slowly and enjoy them, but lately I'm been eating a whole bag of them. I'm gaining weight, my clothes feel tight and I'm thinking of going back to Weight Watchers meetings. I'm really tired of this. I should be able to control what I put in my mouth, but it seems I can't like I'm a food addict.

To: IntuitiveEating_Support Sent: Sat, January 1, 2011 8:09:58 PM Subject: Re: Can't seem to do this!

I wish I had something to say in reply to this other than "me too". I've been trying to do this for so long (over a year). And I've managed to legalise almost every 'forbidden' food. I have all the chocolate etc in my house. And there are times, occasional times when it clicks. The other day I went to the cinema and ate a few chocolates really slowly, and really enjoyed them and felt in control and satisfied by those few. But today I shoved the rest of the box down my throat in a guilt-filled frenzy and didn't enjoy it or feel in control at all. I'm gaining weight like crazy, and it's starting to bring up all the panicky diet thoughts in me again. Just saw photos of me from Christmas, and UGH indeed.I know it is - for me - all about using food as a drug, as a sedative to numb me out of feeling any uncomfortable emotion. I KNOW that knowing this MUST be the key to overcoming the emotional eating and beginning to eat intuitively. But I, like

you, seem unable to pause before I reach for food, before I start yet another binge. I wish I knew the solution. I know journalling helps me to figure out the emotional stuff. That's as close as I've gotten so far. Let me know if you find anything that helps!