Re: Where are you on your IE journey?

[Guest guest]

Hi, Katcha.

Thanks for opening this thread. It's good to reflect on where we are in this very nonlinear and personal process.

I seem to have gotten over the terror that I would blow up like a balloon when I got rid of diet mentality. That was a rough one! Yay!

And I'm clear now when I'm hungry. Yay! And mostly clear when I'm satisfied.

I'm doing a much better job of honoring my body - wrestling the bad-body feelings to the ground when they get triggered and saying (implicitly) to the world: This is me, this is my body, without apologies. I NEVER would have believed I could do this!

I'm really enjoying playing with what I want to eat, discovering things. I don't think all foods are equal in value yet - some are still charged from decades of deprivation so there's a whole lot of ice cream in my day. I'm enjoying it enormously but also aware that it's probably not what I will choose intuitively when things calm down some more.

Clean plate club: Yes, me too. I still have trouble wasting food. And trouble imagining criticism from a waiter or my host for not eating what they think is enough. (What's the matter? You hardly ate!)

Mostly, I'm working on my emotional eating: the kind that comes from being tired and resenting being so overscheduled; the kind that comes from feeling I need a bedtime snack; and especially the kind I do like clockwork the moment I think my pants are buttoning a little more easily. I'm working on calming down, taking the long view, trying to learn, and taking small risks in baby steps.

Oh, and MOST IMPORTANT: I'M SO MUCH HAPPIER! WAKING UP KNOWING I'M GOING TO ENJOY MY RELATIONSHIP WITH FOOD DURING THE DAY AND THAT I'M ALSO GOING TO BE FREE TO NOT THINKING ABOUT IT WHEN I'M NOT HUNGRY IS LIKE THE END OF A PRISON SENTENCE!

April

I thought a good way to spark conversation here might be to introduce an IE topic that all members could speak to. Viewing the IE process as a 'journey' helped me to see that I didn't have to master all the principles at one time and place. IE became more a return(ing) voyage to the starting point that I was born with - responding to my body for its needs. And as much as I thought I had set my IE GPS for that point, I've wandered allllll over the landscape and are still on my way.I'm currently at a lull place - not standing totally still, but not hot-to-go either. I have recently caught myself back in the clean plate club! I do not load my plate up - I have a decent idea about how much I need to eat. However I find I am taking those last few bites and am ignoring the okay, that's enough feedback that is there when I listen to it. Perhaps part of this is a mild reaction to not being able eat exactly what I want. I am self testing for gluten intolerance so my beloved baked goods are out. I have bought a gluten free cook book for baking, made a few recipes which are tasty enough, but just not the 'real' thing as I know them. Its a touch off putting, but I do want to give this the best go I can - my body is happier for it too. Just another detour in my IE journey. Learning to appreciate the 'view' from where ever I am on it too.ehugs, KatchaIEing since March 2007------------------------------------

[Guest guest]

Hi, Katcha.

Thanks for opening this thread. It's good to reflect on where we are in this very nonlinear and personal process.

I seem to have gotten over the terror that I would blow up like a balloon when I got rid of diet mentality. That was a rough one! Yay!

And I'm clear now when I'm hungry. Yay! And mostly clear when I'm satisfied.

I'm doing a much better job of honoring my body - wrestling the bad-body feelings to the ground when they get triggered and saying (implicitly) to the world: This is me, this is my body, without apologies. I NEVER would have believed I could do this!

I'm really enjoying playing with what I want to eat, discovering things. I don't think all foods are equal in value yet - some are still charged from decades of deprivation so there's a whole lot of ice cream in my day. I'm enjoying it enormously but also aware that it's probably not what I will choose intuitively when things calm down some more.

Clean plate club: Yes, me too. I still have trouble wasting food. And trouble imagining criticism from a waiter or my host for not eating what they think is enough. (What's the matter? You hardly ate!)

Mostly, I'm working on my emotional eating: the kind that comes from being tired and resenting being so overscheduled; the kind that comes from feeling I need a bedtime snack; and especially the kind I do like clockwork the moment I think my pants are buttoning a little more easily. I'm working on calming down, taking the long view, trying to learn, and taking small risks in baby steps.

Oh, and MOST IMPORTANT: I'M SO MUCH HAPPIER! WAKING UP KNOWING I'M GOING TO ENJOY MY RELATIONSHIP WITH FOOD DURING THE DAY AND THAT I'M ALSO GOING TO BE FREE TO NOT THINKING ABOUT IT WHEN I'M NOT HUNGRY IS LIKE THE END OF A PRISON SENTENCE!

April

I thought a good way to spark conversation here might be to introduce an IE topic that all members could speak to. Viewing the IE process as a 'journey' helped me to see that I didn't have to master all the principles at one time and place. IE became more a return(ing) voyage to the starting point that I was born with - responding to my body for its needs. And as much as I thought I had set my IE GPS for that point, I've wandered allllll over the landscape and are still on my way.I'm currently at a lull place - not standing totally still, but not hot-to-go either. I have recently caught myself back in the clean plate club! I do not load my plate up - I have a decent idea about how much I need to eat. However I find I am taking those last few bites and am ignoring the okay, that's enough feedback that is there when I listen to it. Perhaps part of this is a mild reaction to not being able eat exactly what I want. I am self testing for gluten intolerance so my beloved baked goods are out. I have bought a gluten free cook book for baking, made a few recipes which are tasty enough, but just not the 'real' thing as I know them. Its a touch off putting, but I do want to give this the best go I can - my body is happier for it too. Just another detour in my IE journey. Learning to appreciate the 'view' from where ever I am on it too.ehugs, KatchaIEing since March 2007------------------------------------

[Guest guest]

Hi, Katcha.

Thanks for opening this thread. It's good to reflect on where we are in this very nonlinear and personal process.

I seem to have gotten over the terror that I would blow up like a balloon when I got rid of diet mentality. That was a rough one! Yay!

And I'm clear now when I'm hungry. Yay! And mostly clear when I'm satisfied.

I'm doing a much better job of honoring my body - wrestling the bad-body feelings to the ground when they get triggered and saying (implicitly) to the world: This is me, this is my body, without apologies. I NEVER would have believed I could do this!

I'm really enjoying playing with what I want to eat, discovering things. I don't think all foods are equal in value yet - some are still charged from decades of deprivation so there's a whole lot of ice cream in my day. I'm enjoying it enormously but also aware that it's probably not what I will choose intuitively when things calm down some more.

Clean plate club: Yes, me too. I still have trouble wasting food. And trouble imagining criticism from a waiter or my host for not eating what they think is enough. (What's the matter? You hardly ate!)

Mostly, I'm working on my emotional eating: the kind that comes from being tired and resenting being so overscheduled; the kind that comes from feeling I need a bedtime snack; and especially the kind I do like clockwork the moment I think my pants are buttoning a little more easily. I'm working on calming down, taking the long view, trying to learn, and taking small risks in baby steps.

Oh, and MOST IMPORTANT: I'M SO MUCH HAPPIER! WAKING UP KNOWING I'M GOING TO ENJOY MY RELATIONSHIP WITH FOOD DURING THE DAY AND THAT I'M ALSO GOING TO BE FREE TO NOT THINKING ABOUT IT WHEN I'M NOT HUNGRY IS LIKE THE END OF A PRISON SENTENCE!

April

I thought a good way to spark conversation here might be to introduce an IE topic that all members could speak to. Viewing the IE process as a 'journey' helped me to see that I didn't have to master all the principles at one time and place. IE became more a return(ing) voyage to the starting point that I was born with - responding to my body for its needs. And as much as I thought I had set my IE GPS for that point, I've wandered allllll over the landscape and are still on my way.I'm currently at a lull place - not standing totally still, but not hot-to-go either. I have recently caught myself back in the clean plate club! I do not load my plate up - I have a decent idea about how much I need to eat. However I find I am taking those last few bites and am ignoring the okay, that's enough feedback that is there when I listen to it. Perhaps part of this is a mild reaction to not being able eat exactly what I want. I am self testing for gluten intolerance so my beloved baked goods are out. I have bought a gluten free cook book for baking, made a few recipes which are tasty enough, but just not the 'real' thing as I know them. Its a touch off putting, but I do want to give this the best go I can - my body is happier for it too. Just another detour in my IE journey. Learning to appreciate the 'view' from where ever I am on it too.ehugs, KatchaIEing since March 2007------------------------------------

[Guest guest]

Yay April!! I know I started out with a weight focus, but since IE have been

about to switch back to living within my body. How sad that I ever thought or

tried to 'be' what the should-heads yammered at me. Hey if they want to live a

la crowd, fine and enjoy. But I don't dance to their jig any more. GOOD for you

too.

ehugs, Katcha

IEing since March 2007

>

> Oh, and MOST IMPORTANT: I'M SO MUCH HAPPIER! WAKING UP KNOWING I'M

> GOING TO ENJOY MY RELATIONSHIP WITH FOOD DURING THE DAY AND THAT I'M ALSO

GOING

> TO BE FREE TO NOT THINKING ABOUT IT WHEN I'M NOT HUNGRY IS LIKE THE END OF

> A PRISON SENTENCE!

> April

>

[Guest guest]

Yay April!! I know I started out with a weight focus, but since IE have been

about to switch back to living within my body. How sad that I ever thought or

tried to 'be' what the should-heads yammered at me. Hey if they want to live a

la crowd, fine and enjoy. But I don't dance to their jig any more. GOOD for you

too.

ehugs, Katcha

IEing since March 2007

>

> Oh, and MOST IMPORTANT: I'M SO MUCH HAPPIER! WAKING UP KNOWING I'M

> GOING TO ENJOY MY RELATIONSHIP WITH FOOD DURING THE DAY AND THAT I'M ALSO

GOING

> TO BE FREE TO NOT THINKING ABOUT IT WHEN I'M NOT HUNGRY IS LIKE THE END OF

> A PRISON SENTENCE!

> April

>

[Guest guest]

Yay April!! I know I started out with a weight focus, but since IE have been

about to switch back to living within my body. How sad that I ever thought or

tried to 'be' what the should-heads yammered at me. Hey if they want to live a

la crowd, fine and enjoy. But I don't dance to their jig any more. GOOD for you

too.

ehugs, Katcha

IEing since March 2007

>

> Oh, and MOST IMPORTANT: I'M SO MUCH HAPPIER! WAKING UP KNOWING I'M

> GOING TO ENJOY MY RELATIONSHIP WITH FOOD DURING THE DAY AND THAT I'M ALSO

GOING

> TO BE FREE TO NOT THINKING ABOUT IT WHEN I'M NOT HUNGRY IS LIKE THE END OF

> A PRISON SENTENCE!

> April

>

[Guest guest]

My name is and I am new to IE... I just bought the book for my Kindle the other day and am just in chapter one and trying to wrap my head around the concepts. I am always applying "good" and "bad" labels to either specific foods or to myself for even thinking about eating specific foods. I was also brought up in a family that said this at dinner time: "clean your plate or you can't have any dessert"!! So not only was I raised to keep eating no matter how full I was, I was rewarded for doing so by being given a yummy dessert, making myself even more full. I really fight that clean-your-plate syndrome, as well as the "must have something sweet after a meal" problem. And of course, I am an emotional eater as well as a boredom eater. So I

have lots of issues to deal with and I hope that IE will be the answer for me. It is very hard to wrap my head around the concept of eating any thing I am wanting or craving without the food police intervening. I'll be reading everyone's posts for help and guidance.

[Guest guest]

My name is and I am new to IE... I just bought the book for my Kindle the other day and am just in chapter one and trying to wrap my head around the concepts. I am always applying "good" and "bad" labels to either specific foods or to myself for even thinking about eating specific foods. I was also brought up in a family that said this at dinner time: "clean your plate or you can't have any dessert"!! So not only was I raised to keep eating no matter how full I was, I was rewarded for doing so by being given a yummy dessert, making myself even more full. I really fight that clean-your-plate syndrome, as well as the "must have something sweet after a meal" problem. And of course, I am an emotional eater as well as a boredom eater. So I

have lots of issues to deal with and I hope that IE will be the answer for me. It is very hard to wrap my head around the concept of eating any thing I am wanting or craving without the food police intervening. I'll be reading everyone's posts for help and guidance.

[Guest guest]

My name is and I am new to IE... I just bought the book for my Kindle the other day and am just in chapter one and trying to wrap my head around the concepts. I am always applying "good" and "bad" labels to either specific foods or to myself for even thinking about eating specific foods. I was also brought up in a family that said this at dinner time: "clean your plate or you can't have any dessert"!! So not only was I raised to keep eating no matter how full I was, I was rewarded for doing so by being given a yummy dessert, making myself even more full. I really fight that clean-your-plate syndrome, as well as the "must have something sweet after a meal" problem. And of course, I am an emotional eater as well as a boredom eater. So I

have lots of issues to deal with and I hope that IE will be the answer for me. It is very hard to wrap my head around the concept of eating any thing I am wanting or craving without the food police intervening. I'll be reading everyone's posts for help and guidance.

[Guest guest]

Welcome, ! Great topic, Katcha!Where am I??? Well, I LOOOOOVE knowing that i will never, ever go back to dieting... but then I catch myself having diety thoughts now and then. Like, in the future, I'm going to do better with limiting my carbs... not now, of course, but someday!

So I guess that is better than starting to diet... planning for the far future.. but not 100% where I want to be.My weight has been stable, well, within 5-10 pounds or so (only weighed at the doctor) for the last couple of years. Of course, now I willl be gaining, because I'm pregnant! (news to you -- Katcha!) i had a dream the other night that when i went to the midwife, i weighed myself and found i had gained 10 pounds since my last visit. 

which seems unlikely... but it's been interesting to see what issues pregnancy brings up. part of me is enjoying the freedom of feeling like it's okay to enjoy french fries (something I didn't know I had outlawed)... and part of me gets scared of blowing up like a balloon and never being able to lose the weight again. some days my new curves are terrifying and other days they are pleasurable. it's a strange thing! 

i also found that i was using pregnancy as an excuse to not eat very well, because i HAD been nauseous... even though the nausea wore off by 12 weeks. i kind of freaked out about this a couple of weeks ago. and it was REALLY REALLY hard to not get mad at myself! but instead i decided to TRY to be gentle and instead of being mean or punitive or outlawing things, to instead set little goals for myself. first, i decided to try to eat more protein, which a body really needs in pregnancy, without making any other changes. next, i decided first to try for 5 servings of fruit and veg a day (without having to cut back on anything else). not hard, as i love fruits, especially, it just means not automatically reaching for pretzels. i realized today that i haven't had candy in a while, maybe as a result? if i really want something, i can always have it... but i tried to at least work on not reaching for the automatic quick blood sugar fix in favor of really thinking about what i wanted. i do feel better. i still have a ways to go with this. i'm doing great with fruit but my midwife wants me to eat dark green leafy veg every day... maybe this will be my next goal. 

i REALLY like that my midwife is not focused on weight gain. at my first visit, i told her that i won't diet and that i don't want to get hung up on my weight, and a little of my IE history. and that i'd prefer not to weigh in at all. she said she really doesn't care about weight, she just wants to know if i gain, like, 10 pounds in one week, because that could mean that something is wrong. i thought it all over and that all seems fine, and now i don't worry about it too much (though i'm aware of it, the day of a visit). but i get it that that's about me, and not about her! 

next i'd like to work on getting back to eating without distraction more often. this is especially hard for me when i am tired, and want to veg out with food. but i think i might have a little more energy now, and so i'm going to try to SLOWLY work on this. tonight i took myself out for dinner for a beautiful salad (bibb lettuce with pumpkin seeds, cranberries, and goat cheese fritters), a grassfed burger, and dreamy french fries. i brought a magazine for company... and was content to just sit and space out, without needing to read even when I was just waiting for the food to arrive. 

i think eating without distraction is a HUGE thing for me. because it forces me to pay attention to when i am eating for hunger versus when i am eating for other reasons. but oh, how delicious it can be to curl up with a movie and a snack! so i think i may compromise, and let myself do that on friday nights when i am so tired, but try to eliminate other times, when i am doing it out of boredom. again, slow and gradual changes!

whew, sorry this is so long!best,abbyIE since 11/08

[Guest guest]

Welcome Tricia and Happy IE Journey to you! Ie, like many other things, is

simple but not easy. What worked best for me in the very beginning was to pick

ONE thing (suggestion/principle) and let that be my focus for a bit. Then as

other IE suggestions popped up for me, I would tackle them as they did. Its

rather like the clean plate compulsion - taking EVERYTHING in alllll at once -

burp! and definitely OVERload. Figure it took you years to get to this point so

what's a few months or so compared to that?

Looking forward to reading more posts from you. Don't be shy and get the most

out of this group for YOUR sake.

BEST to you, Katcha

IEing since March 2007

>

> My name is and I am new to IE... I just bought the book for my Kindle

> the other day and am just in chapter one and trying to wrap my head around the

> concepts.  I am always applying " good " and " bad " labels to either specific

foods

> or to myself for even thinking about eating specific foods.  I was also

brought

> up in a family that said this at dinner time:   " clean your plate or you can't

> have any dessert " !!  So not only was I raised to keep eating no matter how

full

> I was, I was rewarded for doing so by being given a yummy dessert, making

myself

> even more full.  I really fight that clean-your-plate syndrome, as well as the

> " must have something sweet after a meal " problem.  And of course, I am an

> emotional eater as well as a boredom eater.  So I have lots of issues to deal

> with and I hope that IE will be the answer for me.  It is very hard to wrap my

> head around the concept of eating any thing I am wanting or craving without

the

> food police intervening.  I'll be reading everyone's posts for help and

> guidance. 

>

>

>

>

>

> ________________________________

>

[Guest guest]

Welcome Tricia and Happy IE Journey to you! Ie, like many other things, is

simple but not easy. What worked best for me in the very beginning was to pick

ONE thing (suggestion/principle) and let that be my focus for a bit. Then as

other IE suggestions popped up for me, I would tackle them as they did. Its

rather like the clean plate compulsion - taking EVERYTHING in alllll at once -

burp! and definitely OVERload. Figure it took you years to get to this point so

what's a few months or so compared to that?

Looking forward to reading more posts from you. Don't be shy and get the most

out of this group for YOUR sake.

BEST to you, Katcha

IEing since March 2007

>

> My name is and I am new to IE... I just bought the book for my Kindle

> the other day and am just in chapter one and trying to wrap my head around the

> concepts.  I am always applying " good " and " bad " labels to either specific

foods

> or to myself for even thinking about eating specific foods.  I was also

brought

> up in a family that said this at dinner time:   " clean your plate or you can't

> have any dessert " !!  So not only was I raised to keep eating no matter how

full

> I was, I was rewarded for doing so by being given a yummy dessert, making

myself

> even more full.  I really fight that clean-your-plate syndrome, as well as the

> " must have something sweet after a meal " problem.  And of course, I am an

> emotional eater as well as a boredom eater.  So I have lots of issues to deal

> with and I hope that IE will be the answer for me.  It is very hard to wrap my

> head around the concept of eating any thing I am wanting or craving without

the

> food police intervening.  I'll be reading everyone's posts for help and

> guidance. 

>

>

>

>

>

> ________________________________

>

[Guest guest]

Welcome Tricia and Happy IE Journey to you! Ie, like many other things, is

simple but not easy. What worked best for me in the very beginning was to pick

ONE thing (suggestion/principle) and let that be my focus for a bit. Then as

other IE suggestions popped up for me, I would tackle them as they did. Its

rather like the clean plate compulsion - taking EVERYTHING in alllll at once -

burp! and definitely OVERload. Figure it took you years to get to this point so

what's a few months or so compared to that?

Looking forward to reading more posts from you. Don't be shy and get the most

out of this group for YOUR sake.

BEST to you, Katcha

IEing since March 2007

>

> My name is and I am new to IE... I just bought the book for my Kindle

> the other day and am just in chapter one and trying to wrap my head around the

> concepts.  I am always applying " good " and " bad " labels to either specific

foods

> or to myself for even thinking about eating specific foods.  I was also

brought

> up in a family that said this at dinner time:   " clean your plate or you can't

> have any dessert " !!  So not only was I raised to keep eating no matter how

full

> I was, I was rewarded for doing so by being given a yummy dessert, making

myself

> even more full.  I really fight that clean-your-plate syndrome, as well as the

> " must have something sweet after a meal " problem.  And of course, I am an

> emotional eater as well as a boredom eater.  So I have lots of issues to deal

> with and I hope that IE will be the answer for me.  It is very hard to wrap my

> head around the concept of eating any thing I am wanting or craving without

the

> food police intervening.  I'll be reading everyone's posts for help and

> guidance. 

>

>

>

>

>

> ________________________________

>

[Guest guest]

First congrats Abby - your expecting is happy news, you must be SO excited! I

have to smile to imagine what your current (IE) self would seem like to your

'old' (pre IE) self?!? I bet you wouldn't change places for the world - and

neither would I.

Lovely to read that you are taking care of yourself in gentle ways. Not only is

this good for you, its great practice for when your baby comes along. Maybe your

'resting' now is for when you can't as much that first year ;-)

Smiled too when I read about your banana love a few posts ago. The ones I buy

lately turn brown before I want them. Guess its time to stop buying them for a

while - might desire them more if they aren't nagging me to eat them - lol!

ehugs, Katcha

IEing since March 2007

>

> Welcome, !

>

> Great topic, Katcha!

>

> Where am I???

>

> Well, I LOOOOOVE knowing that i will never, ever go back to dieting... but

> then I catch myself having diety thoughts now and then. Like, in the future,

> I'm going to do better with limiting my carbs... not now, of course, but

> someday!

>

> So I guess that is better than starting to diet... planning for the far

> future.. but not 100% where I want to be.

>

> My weight has been stable, well, within 5-10 pounds or so (only weighed at

> the doctor) for the last couple of years. Of course, now I willl be gaining,

> because I'm pregnant! (news to you -- Katcha!) i had a dream the other night

> that when i went to the midwife, i weighed myself and found i had gained 10

> pounds since my last visit.

>

> which seems unlikely... but it's been interesting to see what issues

> pregnancy brings up. part of me is enjoying the freedom of feeling like it's

> okay to enjoy french fries (something I didn't know I had outlawed)... and

> part of me gets scared of blowing up like a balloon and never being able to

> lose the weight again. some days my new curves are terrifying and other days

> they are pleasurable. it's a strange thing!

>

> i also found that i was using pregnancy as an excuse to not eat very well,

> because i HAD been nauseous... even though the nausea wore off by 12 weeks.

> i kind of freaked out about this a couple of weeks ago. and it was REALLY

> REALLY hard to not get mad at myself! but instead i decided to TRY to be

> gentle and instead of being mean or punitive or outlawing things, to instead

> set little goals for myself. first, i decided to try to eat more protein,

> which a body really needs in pregnancy, without making any other changes.

> next, i decided first to try for 5 servings of fruit and veg a day (without

> having to cut back on anything else). not hard, as i love fruits,

> especially, it just means not automatically reaching for pretzels. i

> realized today that i haven't had candy in a while, maybe as a result? if i

> really want something, i can always have it... but i tried to at least work

> on not reaching for the automatic quick blood sugar fix in favor of really

> thinking about what i wanted. i do feel better. i still have a ways to go

> with this. i'm doing great with fruit but my midwife wants me to eat dark

> green leafy veg every day... maybe this will be my next goal.

>

> i REALLY like that my midwife is not focused on weight gain. at my first

> visit, i told her that i won't diet and that i don't want to get hung up on

> my weight, and a little of my IE history. and that i'd prefer not to weigh

> in at all. she said she really doesn't care about weight, she just wants to

> know if i gain, like, 10 pounds in one week, because that could mean that

> something is wrong. i thought it all over and that all seems fine, and now i

> don't worry about it too much (though i'm aware of it, the day of a visit).

> but i get it that that's about me, and not about her!

>

> next i'd like to work on getting back to eating without distraction more

> often. this is especially hard for me when i am tired, and want to veg out

> with food. but i think i might have a little more energy now, and so i'm

> going to try to SLOWLY work on this. tonight i took myself out for dinner

> for a beautiful salad (bibb lettuce with pumpkin seeds, cranberries, and

> goat cheese fritters), a grassfed burger, and dreamy french fries. i brought

> a magazine for company... and was content to just sit and space out, without

> needing to read even when I was just waiting for the food to arrive.

>

> i think eating without distraction is a HUGE thing for me. because it forces

> me to pay attention to when i am eating for hunger versus when i am eating

> for other reasons. but oh, how delicious it can be to curl up with a movie

> and a snack! so i think i may compromise, and let myself do that on friday

> nights when i am so tired, but try to eliminate other times, when i am doing

> it out of boredom. again, slow and gradual changes!

>

> whew, sorry this is so long!

>

> best,

>

> abby

> IE since 11/08

>

>

> >

>

[Guest guest]

First congrats Abby - your expecting is happy news, you must be SO excited! I

have to smile to imagine what your current (IE) self would seem like to your

'old' (pre IE) self?!? I bet you wouldn't change places for the world - and

neither would I.

Lovely to read that you are taking care of yourself in gentle ways. Not only is

this good for you, its great practice for when your baby comes along. Maybe your

'resting' now is for when you can't as much that first year ;-)

Smiled too when I read about your banana love a few posts ago. The ones I buy

lately turn brown before I want them. Guess its time to stop buying them for a

while - might desire them more if they aren't nagging me to eat them - lol!

ehugs, Katcha

IEing since March 2007

>

> Welcome, !

>

> Great topic, Katcha!

>

> Where am I???

>

> Well, I LOOOOOVE knowing that i will never, ever go back to dieting... but

> then I catch myself having diety thoughts now and then. Like, in the future,

> I'm going to do better with limiting my carbs... not now, of course, but

> someday!

>

> So I guess that is better than starting to diet... planning for the far

> future.. but not 100% where I want to be.

>

> My weight has been stable, well, within 5-10 pounds or so (only weighed at

> the doctor) for the last couple of years. Of course, now I willl be gaining,

> because I'm pregnant! (news to you -- Katcha!) i had a dream the other night

> that when i went to the midwife, i weighed myself and found i had gained 10

> pounds since my last visit.

>

> which seems unlikely... but it's been interesting to see what issues

> pregnancy brings up. part of me is enjoying the freedom of feeling like it's

> okay to enjoy french fries (something I didn't know I had outlawed)... and

> part of me gets scared of blowing up like a balloon and never being able to

> lose the weight again. some days my new curves are terrifying and other days

> they are pleasurable. it's a strange thing!

>

> i also found that i was using pregnancy as an excuse to not eat very well,

> because i HAD been nauseous... even though the nausea wore off by 12 weeks.

> i kind of freaked out about this a couple of weeks ago. and it was REALLY

> REALLY hard to not get mad at myself! but instead i decided to TRY to be

> gentle and instead of being mean or punitive or outlawing things, to instead

> set little goals for myself. first, i decided to try to eat more protein,

> which a body really needs in pregnancy, without making any other changes.

> next, i decided first to try for 5 servings of fruit and veg a day (without

> having to cut back on anything else). not hard, as i love fruits,

> especially, it just means not automatically reaching for pretzels. i

> realized today that i haven't had candy in a while, maybe as a result? if i

> really want something, i can always have it... but i tried to at least work

> on not reaching for the automatic quick blood sugar fix in favor of really

> thinking about what i wanted. i do feel better. i still have a ways to go

> with this. i'm doing great with fruit but my midwife wants me to eat dark

> green leafy veg every day... maybe this will be my next goal.

>

> i REALLY like that my midwife is not focused on weight gain. at my first

> visit, i told her that i won't diet and that i don't want to get hung up on

> my weight, and a little of my IE history. and that i'd prefer not to weigh

> in at all. she said she really doesn't care about weight, she just wants to

> know if i gain, like, 10 pounds in one week, because that could mean that

> something is wrong. i thought it all over and that all seems fine, and now i

> don't worry about it too much (though i'm aware of it, the day of a visit).

> but i get it that that's about me, and not about her!

>

> next i'd like to work on getting back to eating without distraction more

> often. this is especially hard for me when i am tired, and want to veg out

> with food. but i think i might have a little more energy now, and so i'm

> going to try to SLOWLY work on this. tonight i took myself out for dinner

> for a beautiful salad (bibb lettuce with pumpkin seeds, cranberries, and

> goat cheese fritters), a grassfed burger, and dreamy french fries. i brought

> a magazine for company... and was content to just sit and space out, without

> needing to read even when I was just waiting for the food to arrive.

>

> i think eating without distraction is a HUGE thing for me. because it forces

> me to pay attention to when i am eating for hunger versus when i am eating

> for other reasons. but oh, how delicious it can be to curl up with a movie

> and a snack! so i think i may compromise, and let myself do that on friday

> nights when i am so tired, but try to eliminate other times, when i am doing

> it out of boredom. again, slow and gradual changes!

>

> whew, sorry this is so long!

>

> best,

>

> abby

> IE since 11/08

>

>

> >

>

[Guest guest]

First congrats Abby - your expecting is happy news, you must be SO excited! I

have to smile to imagine what your current (IE) self would seem like to your

'old' (pre IE) self?!? I bet you wouldn't change places for the world - and

neither would I.

Lovely to read that you are taking care of yourself in gentle ways. Not only is

this good for you, its great practice for when your baby comes along. Maybe your

'resting' now is for when you can't as much that first year ;-)

Smiled too when I read about your banana love a few posts ago. The ones I buy

lately turn brown before I want them. Guess its time to stop buying them for a

while - might desire them more if they aren't nagging me to eat them - lol!

ehugs, Katcha

IEing since March 2007

>

> Welcome, !

>

> Great topic, Katcha!

>

> Where am I???

>

> Well, I LOOOOOVE knowing that i will never, ever go back to dieting... but

> then I catch myself having diety thoughts now and then. Like, in the future,

> I'm going to do better with limiting my carbs... not now, of course, but

> someday!

>

> So I guess that is better than starting to diet... planning for the far

> future.. but not 100% where I want to be.

>

> My weight has been stable, well, within 5-10 pounds or so (only weighed at

> the doctor) for the last couple of years. Of course, now I willl be gaining,

> because I'm pregnant! (news to you -- Katcha!) i had a dream the other night

> that when i went to the midwife, i weighed myself and found i had gained 10

> pounds since my last visit.

>

> which seems unlikely... but it's been interesting to see what issues

> pregnancy brings up. part of me is enjoying the freedom of feeling like it's

> okay to enjoy french fries (something I didn't know I had outlawed)... and

> part of me gets scared of blowing up like a balloon and never being able to

> lose the weight again. some days my new curves are terrifying and other days

> they are pleasurable. it's a strange thing!

>

> i also found that i was using pregnancy as an excuse to not eat very well,

> because i HAD been nauseous... even though the nausea wore off by 12 weeks.

> i kind of freaked out about this a couple of weeks ago. and it was REALLY

> REALLY hard to not get mad at myself! but instead i decided to TRY to be

> gentle and instead of being mean or punitive or outlawing things, to instead

> set little goals for myself. first, i decided to try to eat more protein,

> which a body really needs in pregnancy, without making any other changes.

> next, i decided first to try for 5 servings of fruit and veg a day (without

> having to cut back on anything else). not hard, as i love fruits,

> especially, it just means not automatically reaching for pretzels. i

> realized today that i haven't had candy in a while, maybe as a result? if i

> really want something, i can always have it... but i tried to at least work

> on not reaching for the automatic quick blood sugar fix in favor of really

> thinking about what i wanted. i do feel better. i still have a ways to go

> with this. i'm doing great with fruit but my midwife wants me to eat dark

> green leafy veg every day... maybe this will be my next goal.

>

> i REALLY like that my midwife is not focused on weight gain. at my first

> visit, i told her that i won't diet and that i don't want to get hung up on

> my weight, and a little of my IE history. and that i'd prefer not to weigh

> in at all. she said she really doesn't care about weight, she just wants to

> know if i gain, like, 10 pounds in one week, because that could mean that

> something is wrong. i thought it all over and that all seems fine, and now i

> don't worry about it too much (though i'm aware of it, the day of a visit).

> but i get it that that's about me, and not about her!

>

> next i'd like to work on getting back to eating without distraction more

> often. this is especially hard for me when i am tired, and want to veg out

> with food. but i think i might have a little more energy now, and so i'm

> going to try to SLOWLY work on this. tonight i took myself out for dinner

> for a beautiful salad (bibb lettuce with pumpkin seeds, cranberries, and

> goat cheese fritters), a grassfed burger, and dreamy french fries. i brought

> a magazine for company... and was content to just sit and space out, without

> needing to read even when I was just waiting for the food to arrive.

>

> i think eating without distraction is a HUGE thing for me. because it forces

> me to pay attention to when i am eating for hunger versus when i am eating

> for other reasons. but oh, how delicious it can be to curl up with a movie

> and a snack! so i think i may compromise, and let myself do that on friday

> nights when i am so tired, but try to eliminate other times, when i am doing

> it out of boredom. again, slow and gradual changes!

>

> whew, sorry this is so long!

>

> best,

>

> abby

> IE since 11/08

>

>

> >

>

[Guest guest]

I thought I was doing so well with IE, and I'm pretty sure I was.. I'd noticed that I'd put on some weight but I didn't judge myself. I felt so much calmer about food and was thoroughly enjoying eating without guilt. I know it's more important that I fix my relationship with food - something that will benefit me in the long run - rather than feeling skinny right now. But now with more stress - I have my college thesis due in two months - and I'm in season for varsity softball, I've found myself going past my fullness a lot more often, and thinking about food a lot more often than I had been. I'm not depriving myself of anything but for some reason I still feel like I am... I feel like I've gone back into the dieting mentality but I can't pinpoint what exactly has

changed! I find myself doing the body check with other girls a lot more often and I get frustrated putting on clothes... I think this makes it all spiral - when I feel fat I eat more. Could that be what it is? I don't know what to do right now I just feel like I'm not making anymore progress.. or even going backwards. To: IntuitiveEating_Support Sent: Mon, February 14, 2011 11:20:45 AMSubject: Re: Where are you on your IE journey?

First congrats Abby - your expecting is happy news, you must be SO excited! I have to smile to imagine what your current (IE) self would seem like to your 'old' (pre IE) self?!? I bet you wouldn't change places for the world - and neither would I.

Lovely to read that you are taking care of yourself in gentle ways. Not only is this good for you, its great practice for when your baby comes along. Maybe your 'resting' now is for when you can't as much that first year ;-)

Smiled too when I read about your banana love a few posts ago. The ones I buy lately turn brown before I want them. Guess its time to stop buying them for a while - might desire them more if they aren't nagging me to eat them - lol!

ehugs, Katcha

IEing since March 2007

>

> Welcome, !

>

> Great topic, Katcha!

>

> Where am I???

>

> Well, I LOOOOOVE knowing that i will never, ever go back to dieting... but

> then I catch myself having diety thoughts now and then. Like, in the future,

> I'm going to do better with limiting my carbs... not now, of course, but

> someday!

>

> So I guess that is better than starting to diet... planning for the far

> future.. but not 100% where I want to be.

>

> My weight has been stable, well, within 5-10 pounds or so (only weighed at

> the doctor) for the last couple of years. Of course, now I willl be gaining,

> because I'm pregnant! (news to you -- Katcha!) i had a dream the other night

> that when i went to the midwife, i weighed myself and found i had gained 10

> pounds since my last visit.

>

> which seems unlikely... but it's been interesting to see what issues

> pregnancy brings up. part of me is enjoying the freedom of feeling like it's

> okay to enjoy french fries (something I didn't know I had outlawed)... and

> part of me gets scared of blowing up like a balloon and never being able to

> lose the weight again. some days my new curves are terrifying and other days

> they are pleasurable. it's a strange thing!

>

> i also found that i was using pregnancy as an excuse to not eat very well,

> because i HAD been nauseous... even though the nausea wore off by 12 weeks.

> i kind of freaked out about this a couple of weeks ago. and it was REALLY

> REALLY hard to not get mad at myself! but instead i decided to TRY to be

> gentle and instead of being mean or punitive or outlawing things, to instead

> set little goals for myself. first, i decided to try to eat more protein,

> which a body really needs in pregnancy, without making any other changes.

> next, i decided first to try for 5 servings of fruit and veg a day (without

> having to cut back on anything else). not hard, as i love fruits,

> especially, it just means not automatically reaching for pretzels. i

> realized today that i haven't had candy in a while, maybe as a result? if i

> really want something, i can always have it... but i tried to at least work

> on not reaching for the automatic quick blood sugar fix in favor of really

> thinking about what i wanted. i do feel better. i still have a ways to go

> with this. i'm doing great with fruit but my midwife wants me to eat dark

> green leafy veg every day... maybe this will be my next goal.

>

> i REALLY like that my midwife is not focused on weight gain. at my first

> visit, i told her that i won't diet and that i don't want to get hung up on

> my weight, and a little of my IE history. and that i'd prefer not to weigh

> in at all. she said she really doesn't care about weight, she just wants to

> know if i gain, like, 10 pounds in one week, because that could mean that

> something is wrong. i thought it all over and that all seems fine, and now i

> don't worry about it too much (though i'm aware of it, the day of a visit).

> but i get it that that's about me, and not about her!

>

> next i'd like to work on getting back to eating without distraction more

> often. this is especially hard for me when i am tired, and want to veg out

> with food. but i think i might have a little more energy now, and so i'm

> going to try to SLOWLY work on this. tonight i took myself out for dinner

> for a beautiful salad (bibb lettuce with pumpkin seeds, cranberries, and

> goat cheese fritters), a grassfed burger, and dreamy french fries. i brought

> a magazine for company... and was content to just sit and space out, without

> needing to read even when I was just waiting for the food to arrive.

>

> i think eating without distraction is a HUGE thing for me. because it forces

> me to pay attention to when i am eating for hunger versus when i am eating

> for other reasons. but oh, how delicious it can be to curl up with a movie

> and a snack! so i think i may compromise, and let myself do that on friday

> nights when i am so tired, but try to eliminate other times, when i am doing

> it out of boredom. again, slow and gradual changes!

>

> whew, sorry this is so long!

>

> best,

>

> abby

> IE since 11/08

>

>

> >

>

[Guest guest]

BIG CONGRATS on your pregnancy!!!

That's so exciting. I love pregnancy and babies so much. Enjoy, enjoy,

enjoy!!! And remember, pregnancy always looks way more beautiful than it

sometimes feels.

Sara

>

Of course, now I willl be gaining,

> because I'm pregnant!

> >

>

[Guest guest]

BIG CONGRATS on your pregnancy!!!

That's so exciting. I love pregnancy and babies so much. Enjoy, enjoy,

enjoy!!! And remember, pregnancy always looks way more beautiful than it

sometimes feels.

Sara

>

Of course, now I willl be gaining,

> because I'm pregnant!

> >

>