Re: A little freak out right now.....

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S.

I can also relate to wanting to binge after weight loss, or after I get a

compliment about my weight. For me, my ego automatically goes to " Someone

thinks I am beautiful so it is OK.... "

My goal is to get to the point in which the way I select my food choices has

nothing to do with what I look like. Because in reality food wasn't designed for

molding our bodies, it was designed for giving us fuel. Our society has warped

that so much. That is why it is so important that we have each other to

communicate about this....to remind each other of the natural purpose of food

because a lot of people we meet in today's world (especially women cause of the

added social pressure) are in the mindset that food is meant for body-molding.

It is almost unconscious at that point.

You don't sound irrational either by the way .

>

> > I tend to want to binge when I realize I've lost weight, too. It seems

> > like such an odd reaction.

>

> I'm the same. I tend to " freak out " somehow once I see I've lost weight.

> You all know this talk about self-sabotage and blablabla I guess.

>

> I think you just pinpointed for me. It's this:

>

> > I think the celebration of the loss takes me

> > away from loving my body the same at any weight.

>

> I think this really might be IT. Not self-sabotage because of being

> scared of weight loss or something but the impression that celebrating

> weight loss (or just losing weight) implies that something is wrong we

> me NOW and that weighing less is BETTER.

>

> Well, a person without eating and weight issues would now say: " Weighing

> less IS actually better for you when it comes to health, but it has

> nothing to do with how GOOD or BAD you are as a PERSON and you weren't

> " worse " or " bad " as a person when you where heavier, but you were

> unHEALTHIER. "

>

> However, I can't wrap my brain around that. When someone complimented me

> on weight loss it always smacked of critique as well and it smacked of

> finally giving in to something (e. g. social pressure to be thinner).

>

> This sounds so completly irrational once I write it down. And yet! - I

> have written it down more than one time, shook my head because of being

> this irrational and then wasn't being able to keep that in mind. I guess

> even though it all sounds so irrational even to ME I still believe

> somehow that it is TRUE, that I really would " give in " to something...

>

> ---

>

> Maybe your strategy will work for me, too, though I can't really wrap my

> brain around it yet as weight loss is tied to better blood sugar

> control.

>

> > I give myself permission

> > to gain all the weight back and then some, and then food, eating, and

> > weight lose their importance again.

>

> This sounds so scary.

>

> Regards

> s.

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