Re: want to give up...Re: our Joannne:

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Darling Dede:

You know just what to say when we are hurting....bless your heart.

I will write more later, but I must have my shower, and do my wild hair.

We love you always.....Lea

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Re: want to give up

Hello Joanne ~ I am so sorry you are having such a rough time of it.The depression that goes with feeling so badis really so very hard too.You know, when I get that feeling that God has givenme more than I can handle, somehow things change........I have been at that point many times, ready to throw in the towel.......and then, somehow I move into change......The gentleman that doesnt understand.........I am sorryhe doesnt, I know that makes it hard on you......but it alsotells you what type person he would be in the elder years....You know, some people just dont understand illness at all,I think in part because they have had a healthy life. My father took a mild anti-depressent for sleep aftermy mom passed, and he took it for a couple years. It wascalled trazadone. It didnt seem to give him side effects,and when he went off of it, it did not cause any weird reactions. Sometimes we just need help, and dont feel bad for it.....sleep is so important in maintaining health, and moresowhen you are trying to obtain health, I think it would be more benefit for you to try something than to struggle, and swim backwards. You just went through a long period of very stressfulweeks with your folks. Your father being so ill, and notrecovering as planned, and no help from your siblings....I am sure careing for them, and having to put them both in a nursing home was not a piece of cake. I find that weather changes make me feel so bad and thereis alot of changes going on right now....maybe that is not helpingyou either. I get the full body burning too. Sometimes it is so bad I cantstand anyone to touch me, and sometimes I cant even stand airto touch me, I have to cover totally up with only a peep hole to see out of.......very strange..........Try to do some things that make you laugh, listen to some music you really like....paint.........or draw how you feel.....Get some butcher paper, and some paint that washes off, andstep into paint and walk on the butcher paper.......let it dry inbetween, and do all kinds of colors..........and it can be yourdance ~ Your plate has been very full, the stress of it all may justbe catching up with you.......you pulled out all your strengthwhile at your parents, now you need to rest some and realizelife.....and just be. I hope you start to feel better. I am sorry you are in a rough spot. I hope the sun starts to shine for you ! LoveDede**************A Good Credit Score is 700 or Above. See yours in just 2 easy steps! (http://pr.atwola.com/promoclk/100000075x1215855013x1201028747/aol?redir=http://www.freecreditreport.com/pm/default.aspx?sc=668072%26hmpgID=62%26bcd=DecemailfooterNO62)