Re: hard on myself this morning

[Guest guest]

Sue,Good for you for recognizing how you are feeling, allowing yourself to feel them and deciding then that you will move on. Our minds are powerful and can keep us "stuck" in a feeling, thought or obsession.Today I am learning how to listen to my body and not my mind asking body what it feels like eating for breakfast. My brain keeps interrupting. I have been up an hour and still don't know and cant understand my bodies needs well enough to know what to feed it.Progress not perfectionTo: IntuitiveEating_Support Sent: Tue, August 24, 2010 6:09:35 AMSubject: hard on myself this morning

This morning I am feeling kind of down on myself thinking about the medical issues that have arisen due to my weight. Well, maybe or maybe not, DUE to my weight, but certainly my weight has contributed to the problems of plantar fasciitis, GERD, and sleep apnea. How did I let myself get to this point? Had a stress test last week to determine if the problem was my heart or GERD. Luckily, my heart is great. The other positive things that I have going for me are great blood pressure and cholesterol. But going on age 61, I don't want anymore problems popping up.

I guess that I am just feeling really bad that I haven't taken better care of myself over the years. Instead of being mad at myself, I think that now that I am writing this, I am really feeling sad for myself. I will spend some time today letting myself feel this, then...move on!

OK-so on the positive side, I am proactively taking care of the issues that have arisen and I (hopefully) have many, many more years to take care of myself in a loving, caring way.It helps so much to just write stuff out to you guys!

Sue--

[Guest guest]

Hey, Sue,

Have definitely been where you are. I also have plantars fascitis and I know it

feels better when I am lighter. It makes it hard to do any sort of exercise

that puts a lot of pounding or pressure on my feet (treadmill or jogging or even

a brisk walk, no way!). I've also had other conditions that were exacerbated

(but not caused) by my weight. I know how easy it is to blame ourselves for

being out of control and letting ourselves get to such a point. It's difficult.

But in another way, you could consider that we were " caring " for ourselves in

the best way we could figure out how to at the time.

Beating ourselves up doesn't help matters much. Just the other day, I was

actually thinking about a time when I was on a diet message board and I was

chastising myself for repeatedly straying from the plan. I compared myself to a

willful or rebellious 5-year-old that needed discipline. I wanted to just

" force " myself to get my act together. Now I realize how stupid that was. That

doesn't even work with real five year olds! Why did I think it would work with

me? Structure and guidelines are good, no doubt about that. But berating and

belittling are not. And the more you try to " force " a child to do something

without love and understanding, the more they're going to push back. My inner

5-year-old knows a lot more than I do! LOL.

That's all a long way of saying I think a lot of us have abused our inner

5-year-olds for a very long time because we didn't know any better. Now, it's

time to learn new, better ways of coping and move forward. And as we do, I

think a lot of those health issues will get resolved, as well. And even if it

takes a while, beating yourself up about them doesn't make them heal any faster.

Better to treat yourself with kindness.

Josie

>

> This morning I am feeling kind of down on myself thinking about the medical

> issues that have arisen due to my weight. Well, maybe or maybe not, DUE to

> my weight, but certainly my weight has contributed to the problems of

> plantar fasciitis, GERD, and sleep apnea. How did I let myself get to this

> point? Had a stress test last week to determine if the problem was my heart

> or GERD. Luckily, my heart is great. The other positive things that I have

> going for me are great blood pressure and cholesterol. But going on age 61,

> I don't want anymore problems popping up.

>

> I guess that I am just feeling really bad that I haven't taken better care

> of myself over the years. Instead of being mad at myself, I think that now

> that I am writing this, I am really feeling sad for myself. I will spend

> some time today letting myself feel this, then...move on!

>

> OK-so on the positive side, I am proactively taking care of the issues that

> have arisen and I (hopefully) have many, many more years to take care of

> myself in a loving, caring way.

>

> It helps so much to just write stuff out to you guys!

>

> Sue

> --

>

[Guest guest]

Hey, Sue,

Have definitely been where you are. I also have plantars fascitis and I know it

feels better when I am lighter. It makes it hard to do any sort of exercise

that puts a lot of pounding or pressure on my feet (treadmill or jogging or even

a brisk walk, no way!). I've also had other conditions that were exacerbated

(but not caused) by my weight. I know how easy it is to blame ourselves for

being out of control and letting ourselves get to such a point. It's difficult.

But in another way, you could consider that we were " caring " for ourselves in

the best way we could figure out how to at the time.

Beating ourselves up doesn't help matters much. Just the other day, I was

actually thinking about a time when I was on a diet message board and I was

chastising myself for repeatedly straying from the plan. I compared myself to a

willful or rebellious 5-year-old that needed discipline. I wanted to just

" force " myself to get my act together. Now I realize how stupid that was. That

doesn't even work with real five year olds! Why did I think it would work with

me? Structure and guidelines are good, no doubt about that. But berating and

belittling are not. And the more you try to " force " a child to do something

without love and understanding, the more they're going to push back. My inner

5-year-old knows a lot more than I do! LOL.

That's all a long way of saying I think a lot of us have abused our inner

5-year-olds for a very long time because we didn't know any better. Now, it's

time to learn new, better ways of coping and move forward. And as we do, I

think a lot of those health issues will get resolved, as well. And even if it

takes a while, beating yourself up about them doesn't make them heal any faster.

Better to treat yourself with kindness.

Josie

>

> This morning I am feeling kind of down on myself thinking about the medical

> issues that have arisen due to my weight. Well, maybe or maybe not, DUE to

> my weight, but certainly my weight has contributed to the problems of

> plantar fasciitis, GERD, and sleep apnea. How did I let myself get to this

> point? Had a stress test last week to determine if the problem was my heart

> or GERD. Luckily, my heart is great. The other positive things that I have

> going for me are great blood pressure and cholesterol. But going on age 61,

> I don't want anymore problems popping up.

>

> I guess that I am just feeling really bad that I haven't taken better care

> of myself over the years. Instead of being mad at myself, I think that now

> that I am writing this, I am really feeling sad for myself. I will spend

> some time today letting myself feel this, then...move on!

>

> OK-so on the positive side, I am proactively taking care of the issues that

> have arisen and I (hopefully) have many, many more years to take care of

> myself in a loving, caring way.

>

> It helps so much to just write stuff out to you guys!

>

> Sue

> --

>

[Guest guest]

Hey, Sue,

Have definitely been where you are. I also have plantars fascitis and I know it

feels better when I am lighter. It makes it hard to do any sort of exercise

that puts a lot of pounding or pressure on my feet (treadmill or jogging or even

a brisk walk, no way!). I've also had other conditions that were exacerbated

(but not caused) by my weight. I know how easy it is to blame ourselves for

being out of control and letting ourselves get to such a point. It's difficult.

But in another way, you could consider that we were " caring " for ourselves in

the best way we could figure out how to at the time.

Beating ourselves up doesn't help matters much. Just the other day, I was

actually thinking about a time when I was on a diet message board and I was

chastising myself for repeatedly straying from the plan. I compared myself to a

willful or rebellious 5-year-old that needed discipline. I wanted to just

" force " myself to get my act together. Now I realize how stupid that was. That

doesn't even work with real five year olds! Why did I think it would work with

me? Structure and guidelines are good, no doubt about that. But berating and

belittling are not. And the more you try to " force " a child to do something

without love and understanding, the more they're going to push back. My inner

5-year-old knows a lot more than I do! LOL.

That's all a long way of saying I think a lot of us have abused our inner

5-year-olds for a very long time because we didn't know any better. Now, it's

time to learn new, better ways of coping and move forward. And as we do, I

think a lot of those health issues will get resolved, as well. And even if it

takes a while, beating yourself up about them doesn't make them heal any faster.

Better to treat yourself with kindness.

Josie

>

> This morning I am feeling kind of down on myself thinking about the medical

> issues that have arisen due to my weight. Well, maybe or maybe not, DUE to

> my weight, but certainly my weight has contributed to the problems of

> plantar fasciitis, GERD, and sleep apnea. How did I let myself get to this

> point? Had a stress test last week to determine if the problem was my heart

> or GERD. Luckily, my heart is great. The other positive things that I have

> going for me are great blood pressure and cholesterol. But going on age 61,

> I don't want anymore problems popping up.

>

> I guess that I am just feeling really bad that I haven't taken better care

> of myself over the years. Instead of being mad at myself, I think that now

> that I am writing this, I am really feeling sad for myself. I will spend

> some time today letting myself feel this, then...move on!

>

> OK-so on the positive side, I am proactively taking care of the issues that

> have arisen and I (hopefully) have many, many more years to take care of

> myself in a loving, caring way.

>

> It helps so much to just write stuff out to you guys!

>

> Sue

> --

>

[Guest guest]

Alana-thanks for the link...I am very curious about this.  I, too, have custom orthotics that I wear all the time and sometimes wonder if they aren't more of the problem than not, but I can't go without them or my feet get really bad.  When I get home in a few days, I may go ahead and order these to try.  Thanks again!

Sue

 

I too was diagnosed with plantar fasciatis (and a heal spur) but my podiatrist said he see's women that are 120 lbs and they can too have plantar fasciatis. It's actually more about the structure of the foot. So please, do not blame this on your weight. I spent $300 on custom orthotics which actually caused more problems with my feet, even after I went back and had adjustments made. I finally quit having ANY problems with my feet when I purchased Walk Fit Orthotics from an infomercial. They are the best and I highly recommend them. I now don't have to wear them all the time, just when I exercise. They aren't very expensive compared to custom orthotics and the do work. Here is their website: www.walkfit.com.

Alana

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> Hey, Sue,

>

> Have definitely been where you are. I also have plantars fascitis and I know it feels better when I am lighter. It makes it hard to do any sort of exercise that puts a lot of pounding or pressure on my feet (treadmill or jogging or even a brisk walk, no way!). I've also had other conditions that were exacerbated (but not caused) by my weight. I know how easy it is to blame ourselves for being out of control and letting ourselves get to such a point. It's difficult. But in another way, you could consider that we were " caring " for ourselves in the best way we could figure out how to at the time.

>

>

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[Guest guest]

I don't blame *getting* plantar fasciatis on my weight. My mother, who has

never had a weight problem, has it as well. And in fact, had a worse case than

mine and had hydrocortisone shots in the soles of her feet (NOT pleasant, she

said).

But, I do know from experience that they hurt less when I have lost weight and

also that even when I am thinner, if I am doing something that involves lifting

lots of weight, such as moving and carrying a lot of heavy boxes, that they hurt

more. So, empirically, I believe that weight exacerbates the problem.

But thanks for the info on the walk fit orthotics. I've seen the infomercials

and often wondered if they'd be helpful. I'll probably check them out.

Josie

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> > Hey, Sue,

> >

> > Have definitely been where you are. I also have plantars fascitis and I

know it feels better when I am lighter. It makes it hard to do any sort of

exercise that puts a lot of pounding or pressure on my feet (treadmill or

jogging or even a brisk walk, no way!). I've also had other conditions that

were exacerbated (but not caused) by my weight. I know how easy it is to blame

ourselves for being out of control and letting ourselves get to such a point.

It's difficult. But in another way, you could consider that we were " caring "

for ourselves in the best way we could figure out how to at the time.

> >

> >

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