Re: Sugar/Flour Addict and IE (baking the cake & eating it, too)

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hi Jami,

I can totally relate to your post. It is so confusing at times. I seem to need

to have " something " (first it was peanut butter, banana & whole grain toast,

then brie with pretzels) for about a month it seems EVERY DAY!!!!! either until

it is gone (the brie) or I am just plain sick of it (the toast). LOL I didn't

eat a lot of those things (unlike the cake for those couple of days. I would

just take one piece of toast or a handful of pretzels with a few thin slices of

cheese as part of my lunch. Lately it has been the one slice of pesto pizza that

I seem to want after every gym workout. Today I sort of made up my mind that I

didn't really need it today BUT my feet made their way over to the pizza place

anyway & boy, did I enjoy that piece. Funny, even though every time I have a

piece of that yummy pizza, I want another one but then I tell myself " let's just

sit with this piece in the tummy for awhile & if you still want it, & if we do

go and order another one. " In the month that I have been eating pizza there I

have NEVER ordered that second piece.

I definitely think that for me there is something about the numbing of the

emotional state that has me getting piece after piece of cake when I am NOT at

all hungry. I really need to be the non-judgmental OBSERVER & CURIOSITY seeker

when that is happening & dig deeper into the WHY. That's the only way that I

will be able to change the behavior is by being conscious of how & why it

happens.

mj

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> > >

> > > What was going on for you when you were reaching into your desk for those

> > > hidden candy bars? What were you feeling - bored, anxious,.....? How did

> > > you feel when you covered over the empty wrappers with paper? Why did you

> > > feel this way?

> > >

> > > ~~~

> > > I have actually given a lot of thought into your questions (above). I

> > > know the experts believe we are eating out of some feelings, like boredom,

> > > sadness etc. What was I really feeling? Honestly, I was at work doing my

job

> > > that I love, when I was suddenly hit with an urge to eat the candy. I

> > > told myself I didn't really want that...I had promised myself not to do

that,

> > > my face is already a mess from previous encounters with the candy and yet

> > > those overwhelming thoughts of the candy continued. Even as I was reaching

> > > into the drawer for them, I kept telling myself not to do it. Even as I

> > > was pulling off the wrappers and chewing the candy. I wasn't bored,

> > > stressed, hurt, sad, lonely none of it. I was an addict going for my drug

and

> > > ruining my life yet another inch. How did I feel when I covered it with

paper?

> > > I was ashamed of my weakness, yet again, Why did I feel this

> > > way...because I am a fat person with a garbage can full of candy wrappers.

A garbage

> > > can that is emptied every day so obviously it happened in one day. I felt

> > > like the housekeeper must think there wasn't any wonder why I am so fat.

It

> > > all becomes self loathing in some respect that I can't seem to conquer

this

> > > addiction. I can finally admit that it is an addiction though. I had

> > > given up all white flour and sugars for about 21 days before Halloween.

Since

> > > then though, it's been a real struggle with some days so bad and others

> > > just enough off to insure a continuing of the issue.

> > >

> > > I've considered addiction therapy but honestly since it's not drug or

> > > alcohol, it's not considered much. My last doctor kept tell me to try

harder!

> > > I couldn't believe the ignorance of that advice. I actually eat very

> > > healthy foods when I'm not overtaken by the sugar. I have been fighting

this for

> > > 30 years since I was 25. I've never won for more than a few months.

> > >

> > > Sunny

> > >

> > > Sunny

> > >

> > > Best!

> > >

> > > Sunny

> > >

> > > In Beaverton, OR

> > >

> > >

> > > In a message dated 11/14/2010 9:45:17 A.M. Pacific Standard Time,

> > > imhere4u1232000@ writes:

> > >

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