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Hi, I am going to introduce myself . My name is Kelli and I am just stumbling onto this through another health lifestyle group. I have been beating myself up about food for a long time now and recently it has gotten very obsessive. I bought the book and really feel connected to the ideas but the whole thing is really overwhelming and hard right now for me. I am a long distance runner currently training for a marathon in the fall. I was counting calories because I had gotten about 10-15 pounds over what I would prefer myself to be at. I got down to a weight that was a lot lower than I normally see myself and felt good for the most part. Except I kept wanting to go lower and lower and I started to plateau and obsess over the correct amount of calories I needed. Since I am training

pretty hard, I couldn't really figure out how many calories I needed and would restrict hard and then binge on the weekends. The scale has slowly inched back up about 5 pounds and I started beating myself up again. I feel really consumed with food now. I lost touch with my hunger signals and tend to eat past being full for fear that I will never get to eat what I am eating again. I am extremely afraid of gaining weight. For years I have been restricting myself disguised by nutritional purposes (health, allergy, etc). I think about food constantly...all day long. I look at people and wonder if they think about food all the time too. Anyway, I look forward to reading posts for a while to get acclimated but I wanted to introduce myself in the meantime and get any advice that wants to be given .Thanks!-Kelli