Re: interesting reaction to Geneen Roth's workshop

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Sorry you had a rough night, but I've got to say that my binges sound like yours. It's no one thing, it's everything. Hang in there and know at least that you aren't alone.DawnTo: IntuitiveEating_Support Sent: Wed, May 26, 2010 7:30:45 AMSubject: interesting reaction to Geneen Roth's workshop

I started the workshop last night. My eating was ok the entire day. Then at 9 pm, the binge started.I am not even a person who allows herself to sit near a large amount of food so my binges start small and then they develop.

It was like I didnt want to hear what I hear during the workshop.

I wanted to go in the opposite direction.

So the binge took over. I was even upset at the fact that I don't binge on a large bag of chips or a cake or a jar of peanut butter or anything large. I take small quantities of so many different foods.In less than 20 minutes I had cereal, milk, bread, cream cheese, almond butter, a ham and cheese sandwich, two merengues...

my god, I hate this

A

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A,Are you doing a workshop with Geneen herself??? how cool if you are!I think it's not surprising at all that you binged last night! you are facing your own resistance and your psyche has an old and comfortable way of dealing with things. I started reading Geneen's new book last night and she talked about how people start the workshop and then within 24 hours are ready to leave, thinking they just need to watch their portion control and that they really don't need to work on their feelings, that they don't have a problem and don't need help. and then a few days in, things click.

so instead of being upset with yourself for the binge, what if you take a spectator's seat to your own psyche, and said, " ahh, i see, i'm facing some resistance to making huge changes. not surprising. i'm going to be patient with myself because this will take time, and focus positive energy instead on the things i am doing well... like attempting the workshop in the first place! and not binging all day long. and trying stay present with your feelings " ???

it sounds like you've got good insight into what's going on. so try to be patient and hang in there. it WILL get easier. you are doing a very brave thing that you should be proud of!

best,abby

 

Sorry you had a rough night, but I've got to say that my binges sound like yours.  It's no one thing, it's everything.  Hang in there and know at least that you aren't alone.

Dawn

To: IntuitiveEating_Support

Sent: Wed, May 26, 2010 7:30:45 AMSubject: interesting reaction to Geneen Roth's workshop

 

I started the workshop last night. My eating was ok the entire day. Then at 9 pm, the binge started.I am not even a person who allows herself to sit near a large amount of food so my binges start small and then they develop.

It was like I didnt want to hear what I hear during the workshop.

I wanted to go in the opposite direction.

So the binge took over. I was even upset at the fact that I don't binge on a large bag of chips or a cake or a jar of peanut butter or anything large. I take small quantities of so many different foods.In less than 20 minutes I had cereal, milk, bread, cream cheese, almond butter, a ham and cheese sandwich, two merengues...

my god, I hate this

A

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[Guest guest]

One thing I know about myself is that my repressed feelings or whatever stress I buried over the years comes out exactly like that. It numbed me and I would just eat...like you grazing and grazing until stuffed then I would eat dinner or whatever meal was next because I felt guilty about eating without my family!

When I first started this journey I started going to Burger King every morning for breakfast and sometimes for lunch ( my own form of resistance). My biggest challenge was to not berate myself. THIS is what I wanted for food. I had to shoo the guilt and shame away and just be with my choices. I am now reading Geneens book on emotional eating and her Chocolate chip cookies for breakfast lunch and dinner will stay with me forever. Very memorable.

Feeling while eating is easier said than done....but just allow yourself to eat and do the hard part of asking yourself how you feel. I was so numb for so many years I never realized I was feeling anything until I started really asking myself. Its eye opening (mind opening???) to feel when I eat and those feelings arent really always positive but I am working on asking myself why and what and awakening awareness.

The binge is done and gone. Other than hating the binge what else were you feeling? What was it you didn’t want to hear? Something to explore maybe.

Good luck you are not alone.

n

I started the workshop last night. My eating was ok the entire day. Then at 9 pm, the binge started.I am not even a person who allows herself to sit near a large amount of food so my binges start small and then they develop.

It was like I didnt want to hear what I hear during the workshop.

I wanted to go in the opposite direction.

So the binge took over. I was even upset at the fact that I don't binge on a large bag of chips or a cake or a jar of peanut butter or anything large. I take small quantities of so many different foods.In less than 20 minutes I had cereal, milk, bread, cream cheese, almond butter, a ham and cheese sandwich, two merengues...

my god, I hate this

A