Re: Been so busy!!!

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Hi ,

There are certain foods that used to be restricted and they're ordinary; if I had a slice of pizza today, I wouldn't want it tomorrow and I feel comfortable with it; same for cookies, pretty much same for chocolate.

But there are a few certain foods that I think I could eat every day for 10 days, lol, before I tired of them, and Chicken parm is one of them, so I don't want to do that because I'll get over wanting it if I did, but I know I'd gain a good amount of weight if I had it that much cause right now I can't eat a "normal" amount; it's too tempting.

Laurie

To: "IntuitiveEating_Support " <IntuitiveEating_Support >Sent: Sun, January 31, 2010 9:43:09 PMSubject: Re: Been so busy!!!

Hi Lori,

I'm new here so first let me say hi!

My question is this: if you went to your favorite Italian place tonight and ate your fill (whatever that may be) of chicken parm would you want it again tomorrow? Next week? Next month?

I'm going through this myself now with fish and chips. It's something I've hated my whole life but now want at every meal. For now I'm playing along (well not every meal) but am a little nervous how long this will last.

On Jan 31, 2010, at 7:13 PM, lori <laurietessyahoo (DOT) com> wrote:

Hi Everyone, I don't want you all to think I've fallen off the face of the earth!!! I was very busy with paperwork and got 99% of it in; this upcoming week I aught to have all the rest taken care of and then the stress will be just waiting to see how things go.I am sorry, I haven't even had time to read any of your emails!!As far as food goes..wow..it' s much more of a challenge when my level of stress is extremely high...and I also think my harmones are messing with me sometimes!!I have to say that I haven't had any lengthy periods of binging, and I used to go five days in a row before I can stop.What I'm doing now instead is an improvement; I'll be fine till about 6pm or so, and even then I will have waited til hungry to eat, but that meal is way, way bigger than any human being would need to get full; I think I'm having a big feast, lol. I have zero will to stop eating!!! But then after, when

I'm over-full, whereas I used to continue to binge through the night and into the next day, I'm not doing that. I'm not eating and just waiting til hungry the next day. So big improvement from what I used to do when very stressed, but still eating enough to create a bit of weight gain on a body that's already big. I'm not beating myself up.But I am confused about the eat what you want; I am a true believer that if we eat what we want enough it will lose its specialness, but sometimes I think the amount I'd have to eat to get those foods to be ordinary would create a bunch more weight gain. I have certain foods that are still "special" and I have no will power to eat a "normal" amount. Lots of foods, that I used to restrict, I can have and not overeat, but certain foods like a great Italian restaurant version of chicken parm......well, that is too hard to stop eating right now. I think the goal is

balance; I don't think I want to be a health extremist, but I sure want to eat a large variety of healthy foods but I sure can't restrict the chicken parm cause you can bet that will lead to an all out binge of it unless I avoid it forever. But I don't really want to have it ten times in a row til it seems ordinary because that will be another 20 Lb weight gain cause I don't stop at anormal amount. I know my goal is a healthy, balanced way of eating where no food is restricted but sometimes I don't know in the moment whether to have the chicken parm AGAIN to make it more ordinary, or whether to pick the salad because it's so good for me. If I could just have a normal balance of variety of foods that would be great, but then there are foods that are still "special" so how can I be the normal eater I want to be around those foods?I still don't feel like I have all the

answers!!!Laurie