Reaching out...

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Okay...so the last time I reached out here I got a ton of good advice and support and it really helped me get things rolling...so here I am again...I was doing really well at following hunger/fullness cues and making all food accessible and not having any " bad food " / " good food " lists in my head.  And then my husband came home on his two week vacation from his deployment in Iraq and I completely lost it.  He's VERY supportive of me in anything and everything I do whether it's food related, career related, parenting related, etc.  So it's not like he's the problem.  The problem is I get so caught up in making his favorite meals and cooking for him and taking care of him that I end up sitting down to eat with him or munching on snacks with him simply b/c it's what we're doing.  He's a very healthy, very active, and SUPER HOT (if I do say so myself) Army boy at 6' 2 " and about 225 lbs.  His metabolism still functions as if he's 16...and he's 34! 

And now he left again to go back to the desert until July.  And I'm right back into eating b/c I'm bored....eating b/c it's there and I'm afraid if I don't I won't get the chance to have " that " food again...continuing to eat what's on my plate even though I'm full...or even eating something b/c it needs to be gotten rid of and I don't want to " waste " it.  That is probably one of the hardest ones for me lately.  I have done quite a few (and continue to do) humanitarian and aide trips to under-developed nations.  So for me throwing away food sometimes feels like a smack in my own face.  And no one's ever told me that...it's something I do to myself b/c when you hand out bags of rice to people who have no other means of feeding their family except for your help...you remember it every time you stare at American excess...and it's worse when when that excess is on your own plate!

And while IE is not about rules or guilt but is about freedom, I do need a simple goal or simple steps or something to hem me in and focus a bit.  Not really a rule, like No Junk Food...but more like a mantra, a saying, a guideline...SOMETHING!!  I, personally, like a hunger scale but need a simple one liner to remind me to remember the scale! 

So...I'm just reaching out for thoughts, support, simple goals, simple guidelines...whatever anyone might have to say.  Thanks.Robyn-- " But in my mind’s eye I can see a place where Your glory fills every empty space...

every mouth is fed, and there’s no one left in the orphans’ bed. " iBlog at www.trlw.blogspot.com