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I am kinda new here. Been reading and posting for a little while but had not

taken the time to introduce myself. I name is Dawn and I am a single mom of a

ten year old girl. I have pretty much been dieting ever since I graduated high

school. I never had an issue about how I looked in high school. I was tiny.

Well, I didn't feel tiny then but I look back at pictures and see that I was.

But, even though I didn't feel tiny, it really didn't bother me to much.

BUT...when I joined the military I was considered over weight and ALWAYS had to

get the BMI text done. It always turned out that my BMI was fine but just being

called over weight really affected me. I started seeing myself different in the

mirror. I started to notice a little pudge around my middle. All of a sudden

when I would put on my swim suit I found that I would only sit and stand in

certain positions hoping that no one would notice my fat roll....I see how crazy

that was now because of how tiny I was back then....but it only got worse as I

got older and gained weight. I am thirty pounds heavier now than I was then and

I have just recently give up dieting. I have been dieting now for about fifteen

years and have only gained more with each binge. I am already beginning to feel

better as I give up dieting though my brain still takes me back to that dieting

mindset from time to time. My daughter helps me with it. I was looking at the

calories on the back of something one day and she was like, " Just eat it, you

are hungry. I thought you were going to quit looking at calories all the time. "

She is truely amazing. I am looking forward to taking this journey with her and

praying that she can learn to love her body as I never did. But, that is going

to change. I feel some body love coming soon

Be Blessed,

Dawn