Re: some things are difficult to hear

[Guest guest]

oh goodness! I am the same exact way! Can not take a compliment and always

apologizing! Drives my hubby crazy too! My response is always, " whatever " or

" your silly " ...

I guess its time to see ourselves how our hubbys see us!

thanks! jen

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> > > > I have been doing lots of work in counseling lately and some sessions

are

> > > just so difficult and anxiety producing... My counselor understands bpd

> > > better than anyone I have ever spoken with and I am so lucky that she

tells

> > > me what I need to hear but sometimes I think, " ouch " ...

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> > > > To give a general overview, what I do is take my Nada's voice and

> > > thoughts (which are so crazy) and think that everyone else thinks the same

> > > terrible thoughts about me that she does. Last night I had a counseling

appt

> > > and we went through many of my thoughts that she says are " distorted " ...

she

> > > says that those of us raised by a bpd mother especially have a distorted

> > > reality... therefor, we have some distorted thoughts. For instance.... I

can

> > > not eat in front of people I do not know without experiencing great

anxiety.

> > > When I was growing up my mom would always point out overweight people who

> > > were eating ice cream..etc and tell me that they were disgusting slobs and

> > > she would say really cruel things like, " I dont get it, look at that fat

> > > slob sitting there feeding her face, if you look that disgusting you would

> > > think you would know what causes it " ...

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> > > > As an adult woman who is about 25 pounds overweight I have a very low

> > > self- esteem... I find it very difficult to eat out in public....etc.... I

> > > told my therapist that I think people are looking at me wondering why I am

> > > eating because I am too fat to eat... She calls this distorted thinking...

> > > she says that other people are not sitting around watching me and saying

> > > those things... (my mom does that but she is crazy!)

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> > > > But.... It is difficult to be told that your thinking is distorted but I

> > > know that this is the only way to make progress. This is just my work and

I

> > > will keep pluggin along.

> > > > jen

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