I'm comfused and need some logic

[Guest guest]

I was just on the phone with my friend she called me to tell me she

got locked out of her computer and if I had changed it when I fixed it

last.(I have been in IT for over 13 year)...In the back ground her

husband is saying " don't worry about it I'll fix it later " ..Over and

over again.every time this guy asks me an IT related question I answer

him and he argues with me..He is not in the it field..far far from it.

And he doesn't ease up until he's right...usually I just stop arguing.

This is a huge trigger for me..It pisses me off and I don't know if

it's a really thing I sense or if it's just my BPD upbringing that I'm

" just a Girl " and that's a Man thing..I get so frustrated in my field

when people automatically assume a guy would know more. I work

probably twice as hard as any man because I feel I have to prove

myself . Usually it goes like this...they call ask for the guy to

call them or visit them..If he is not around and I go and I fix there

problem too (imagine that!) then people are ok and usually very

willing to have me help them. My coworkers are great and they teat me

normal. But the thing that pisses me off is that at first people don't

think I know much....I'm not very Geeky I don't talk in acronyms and I

don't fit the stereo type. Once the CEO came in the office and asked

me where are the IT guys I said they were busy.and If I could help

him with anything ..and he sat down and then said how about

coffee...And I smiled and said...thank you I like cream and suger...he

got me coffee. Then apologies because he thought I was a

sectary...This man and I formed a very good professional relationship

after and we laugh about that first day. It just confirms for me that

there is a problem. I just like helping people and solving problems.

But Lately I wonder if I really like it any more.

I was laid-off 2 years ago this October. I worked a 6 month contract

job that ended in May so I'm back job hunting..and I'm really thinking

of just chaging fields like to Nursing..something good and female-ish

and I liked that too..I love medical anything. I believe employers

are picking men over me..I know they are " not suppose " to But I

believe that maybe if two of us are qualified and have the same

experience they will pick a man over me.

So what do you think..am I being Logical or am experiencing Fleas?.

Are my thoughts valid?

Some times I don't know whats real or what Nada telling me how no good I am

Could someone honestly set me straigh?

Stefanie