Interesting turn of events

[Guest guest]

I had been struggling and totally gone off the deep end due to some personally

heartache. (eating for menus based in bad feelings toward myself -- getting

angry instead of internalizing is the cure for me. )

Anyway, last week my kids shared their strep throat with me. I went on abx and

due to allergies, I have to be on a particular antibiotic that in me causes

insomnia and depressive thoughts. I can talk myself out of the depression for

the most part but the thing I'm noticing is a loss of appetite. I try to push

myself to eat and I am just not interested. I asked myself if I could have

anything for dinner, what would it be. I finally conceded that a bagel sounded

ok. So I made a bagel and cut some fruit and I ate it and it was I'm but not

very exciting and I ended up going to bed. I'm just not that hungry.

The interesting thing about this for me is that before I would have eaten out of

boredom or habit or whatever. Now it has lost it's glitter and I have to eat

because it's the right thing to do in caring for myself.

Just some thoughts today.

Patti