Binge eater is really what I was!

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I stared to say I am, but not to day. I'm not a binge eater to day. But in

the past this is exactly what I was. when ever I would go eat some thing I

shouldn't I would not only eat it, I would eat other things one right after the

other until I felt satisfied. then I would beat my self up for giving in to the

sudden desire to binge. this I know is in my head. here is the bad will or the

stubborn side fighting with the good sense side who knows how to do it right.

kind of a pride issue if you stop and think about it. how many times I told my

self I deserved what ever it was that I had to eat? or tell my self that I would

eat this now and worry about doing right to morrow when I felt more like

fighting the battle. old habits take a while to change. no matter how hard you

try, there is always going to be those days when you will feel weak and harder

to say know. this is why we need a group to talk these issues out with and some

one to keep our feet to the fire. ok, I'm starting to see how it has been

working for me these many years. I was told I was a type 2 diabetic in 02 and I

handled that news with denial. if you say it isn't true, then how can it be so?

just deny the truth or the facts and you will be fine. well what a pile of BS

this is! sticking my head in the sand only made me just as blind as I am with my

head up out of the sand. Seems like I should spend more time analyzing my

motives for my own actions. I need a couch!