Guest guest Posted August 12, 2010 Report Share Posted August 12, 2010 Does anyone feel like a 'hate object' for their PD parent? I was thinking about this today after getting hit with another one of my father's tirades of sick, they are averaging every few days now, and for some reason I started thinking about the phrase 'object of my affection' which is whom you project love on to, and I was thinking about how it's the opposite with him and I am who he projects hate onto and it is probably 'self-hate' since it is infinite. This has been going on for 41 years. So I feel that if it was something I did it would be over by now. And I am unwilling to beleive my mere existence is enough of a reason to hate someone. Which leads me to the conclusion the hate is coming from inside him, and it has to be 'cleared' at certain intervals, kind of like a pulsar emits radiation at intervals. I remind him of something, probably the vulnerable child he was, that was abused. Not that that excuses anything or makes it easier. I'm so tired of it. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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