My own personal Revelation

[Guest guest]

Hi everyone! I wanted to share today!

Just a bit about myself. I just finished reading the IE book Sunday and with

the help of a eating disorder therapist I have been working on IE for the past

2-3 weeks. Now on to my personal revelation.

I have a job where for 2 weeks a month I am so busy I can't see straight and

then the rest of the month is catching up on items I let slide for 2 weeks and

getting ready for the next months busy time (I'm in accounting). So today was

really the first day I have been slower. I started thinking hmmm what snacks do

I have in my office to eat, then I asked myself what am I hungry for, so I said

to myself actaully I'm not even hungry. So then I said if I'm not hungry I must

not be eating for biological hunger so what is it that I do want??

I realized I'm just bored. I have lots to do at work but no real deadline and 2

weeks to do it before the next busy time so I'm not all that motivated and I was

just plain board. What I realized is that I've always said I " can't stop

eating " because there is something wrong with me, because I have this " disorder "

or whatever excuse I gave it. The reality is that I just never asked myself if

I was hungry or honored my hunger or asked what it was I really wanted. Also, I

think I never wanted to admit that I wasn't really hungry and I was just bored

because then I would have to deal with the fact that I was bored or my actual

emotions.

You know it sounds funny to read this all back to myself like more people would

probebly think that it should all be so natural but for me this IE is anything

but natural! Baby steps that's what I keep telling myself. Hopefully I havn't

bored anyone to death! I just really wanted to share.

Thanks! Amy

[Guest guest]

Thanks for sharing, Amy! It sounds like you are doing great with IE... simple (honoring your hunger, for example) is certainly not the same thing as easy!Good for you.Best,

Abby

 

Hi everyone! I wanted to share today!

Just a bit about myself. I just finished reading the IE book Sunday and with the help of a eating disorder therapist I have been working on IE for the past 2-3 weeks. Now on to my personal revelation.

I have a job where for 2 weeks a month I am so busy I can't see straight and then the rest of the month is catching up on items I let slide for 2 weeks and getting ready for the next months busy time (I'm in accounting). So today was really the first day I have been slower. I started thinking hmmm what snacks do I have in my office to eat, then I asked myself what am I hungry for, so I said to myself actaully I'm not even hungry. So then I said if I'm not hungry I must not be eating for biological hunger so what is it that I do want??

I realized I'm just bored. I have lots to do at work but no real deadline and 2 weeks to do it before the next busy time so I'm not all that motivated and I was just plain board. What I realized is that I've always said I " can't stop eating " because there is something wrong with me, because I have this " disorder " or whatever excuse I gave it. The reality is that I just never asked myself if I was hungry or honored my hunger or asked what it was I really wanted. Also, I think I never wanted to admit that I wasn't really hungry and I was just bored because then I would have to deal with the fact that I was bored or my actual emotions.

You know it sounds funny to read this all back to myself like more people would probebly think that it should all be so natural but for me this IE is anything but natural! Baby steps that's what I keep telling myself. Hopefully I havn't bored anyone to death! I just really wanted to share.

Thanks! Amy