Guest guest Posted September 15, 2010 Report Share Posted September 15, 2010 Hi Doug, I know exactly how that feels, 'cause I'm battling depression, too. It's hard for me to follow up on communication, sometimes, too, even with my relatives who aren't mentally ill (thank God most of them respect my NC and aren't BPD enablers.). DH thinks that I'm skittish about email correspondence now, because that's how fada and enabling nada all spewed the hateful and guilt-tripping disowning letters. I need to get therapy too. Seems like you and many others in this group have good luck with that. I'm glad you're still fighting, and thanks for posting--it helps remind us all to keep on fighting, too! Holly > > > Hello friends. > > I ve not been posting much lately. Battling my depression still. Trying to > care, and only marginally succeeding. But a very determined T will not let > me quit! > > We get tired. We are in a fight for our lives, for the quality of them, for > making them worth living. The fight started when we were children and were > defenseless, so we are way behind by the time we realize the fight is on. > > But, once we figure it out, I guess we could say, Oh it s ON! > > It sucks, folks. We are so messed up. My urging has always been, May we all > heal. It takes so long. Damn it. > > I don t know the odds, but most BP s lose. They stay sick all thier lives. > The won t choose to heal, and they will stay the crazy bitch from hell that > we all came to know. > > Some of us can win. Some of us need to. > > May we all heal. > > Doug > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 15, 2010 Report Share Posted September 15, 2010 ((((((Doug)))))) Maybe it will help you to know that even though you're feeling down and tired and discouraged right now, your insights and thoughts and the support that you offer here are so helpful to your fellow KOs. You are a giving kind of person and you're helping other people even if you can't feel that you're making progress in your own healing at the moment. That generous spirit, that being able to give even when you're not " getting " is pretty wonderful, sez I. -Annie > > Hello friends. > > I ve not been posting much lately. Battling my depression still. Trying to care, and only marginally succeeding. But a very determined T will not let me quit! > > We get tired. We are in a fight for our lives, for the quality of them, for making them worth living. The fight started when we were children and were defenseless, so we are way behind by the time we realize the fight is on. > > But, once we figure it out, I guess we could say, Oh it s ON! > > It sucks, folks. We are so messed up. My urging has always been, May we all heal. It takes so long. Damn it. > > I don t know the odds, but most BP s lose. They stay sick all thier lives. The won t choose to heal, and they will stay the crazy bitch from hell that we all came to know. > > > Some of us can win. Some of us need to. > > May we all heal. > > Doug > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 15, 2010 Report Share Posted September 15, 2010 i am so grateful to your very determined t, doug that you still are in the fight and still post here, even if only once in awhile.. i still get a lot out of your comments, your humor, the way your personality comes across, so gently and well. Â may you succeed in your battle with depression and may you and all of us indeed heal. it is worth the fight!blessings, ann Subject: Staying in the fight To: WTOAdultChildren1 Date: Wednesday, September 15, 2010, 8:48 AM Â Hello friends. I ve not been posting much lately. Battling my depression still. Trying to care, and only marginally succeeding. But a very determined T will not let me quit! We get tired. We are in a fight for our lives, for the quality of them, for making them worth living. The fight started when we were children and were defenseless, so we are way behind by the time we realize the fight is on. But, once we figure it out, I guess we could say, Oh it s ON! It sucks, folks. We are so messed up. My urging has always been, May we all heal. It takes so long. Damn it. I don t know the odds, but most BP s lose. They stay sick all thier lives. The won t choose to heal, and they will stay the crazy bitch from hell that we all came to know. Some of us can win. Some of us need to. May we all heal. Doug Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 15, 2010 Report Share Posted September 15, 2010 Hi Doug, so good to hear from you. we've missed you!! what you said is true: " we are way behind by the time we realize the fight is on. " some days, i think " oh my gosh, I really am a mess!! " well, doug, all i can say for now is, i'm so grateful all of us can fight through together. Corny? yes! but if not for everyone here, i'd really think I was nuts!! > > Hello friends. > > I ve not been posting much lately. Battling my depression still. Trying to care, and only marginally succeeding. But a very determined T will not let me quit! > > We get tired. We are in a fight for our lives, for the quality of them, for making them worth living. The fight started when we were children and were defenseless, so we are way behind by the time we realize the fight is on. > > But, once we figure it out, I guess we could say, Oh it s ON! > > It sucks, folks. We are so messed up. My urging has always been, May we all heal. It takes so long. Damn it. > > I don t know the odds, but most BP s lose. They stay sick all thier lives. The won t choose to heal, and they will stay the crazy bitch from hell that we all came to know. > > > Some of us can win. Some of us need to. > > May we all heal. > > Doug > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 16, 2010 Report Share Posted September 16, 2010 amen to that.. Subject: Re: Staying in the fight To: WTOAdultChildren1 Date: Wednesday, September 15, 2010, 10:14 AM Â ((((((Doug)))))) Maybe it will help you to know that even though you're feeling down and tired and discouraged right now, your insights and thoughts and the support that you offer here are so helpful to your fellow KOs. You are a giving kind of person and you're helping other people even if you can't feel that you're making progress in your own healing at the moment. That generous spirit, that being able to give even when you're not " getting " is pretty wonderful, sez I. -Annie > > Hello friends. > > I ve not been posting much lately. Battling my depression still. Trying to care, and only marginally succeeding. But a very determined T will not let me quit! > > We get tired. We are in a fight for our lives, for the quality of them, for making them worth living. The fight started when we were children and were defenseless, so we are way behind by the time we realize the fight is on. > > But, once we figure it out, I guess we could say, Oh it s ON! > > It sucks, folks. We are so messed up. My urging has always been, May we all heal. It takes so long. Damn it. > > I don t know the odds, but most BP s lose. They stay sick all thier lives. The won t choose to heal, and they will stay the crazy bitch from hell that we all came to know. > > > Some of us can win. Some of us need to. > > May we all heal. > > Doug > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 16, 2010 Report Share Posted September 16, 2010 I couldn't have said it better than Annie. I've really appreciated your support on here Doug. You are obviously a very reflective, wise and generous person and I believe that with your great strength of character, you will find the peace and happiness that you so deserve. Keep your chin up! Many blessings to you. Lynda > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Â > > > > > > > > > > ((((((Doug)))))) > > Maybe it will help you to know that even though you're feeling down and tired and discouraged right now, your insights and thoughts and the support that you offer here are so helpful to your fellow KOs. You are a giving kind of person and you're helping other people even if you can't feel that you're making progress in your own healing at the moment. That generous spirit, that being able to give even when you're not " getting " is pretty wonderful, sez I. > > -Annie > > > > > > > > > > Hello friends. > > > > > > I ve not been posting much lately. Battling my depression still. Trying to care, and only marginally succeeding. But a very determined T will not let me quit! > > > > > > We get tired. We are in a fight for our lives, for the quality of them, for making them worth living. The fight started when we were children and were defenseless, so we are way behind by the time we realize the fight is on. > > > > > > But, once we figure it out, I guess we could say, Oh it s ON! > > > > > > It sucks, folks. We are so messed up. My urging has always been, May we all heal. It takes so long. Damn it. > > > > > > I don t know the odds, but most BP s lose. They stay sick all thier lives. The won t choose to heal, and they will stay the crazy bitch from hell that we all came to know. > > > > > > > > > Some of us can win. Some of us need to. > > > > > > May we all heal. > > > > > > Doug > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 16, 2010 Report Share Posted September 16, 2010 amen and hallelujah thanks you guys for doing this with me. On Thu, Sep 16, 2010 at 6:18 AM, birdonawire77 wrote: > > > I couldn't have said it better than Annie. I've really appreciated your > support on here Doug. You are obviously a very reflective, wise and generous > person and I believe that with your great strength of character, you will > find the peace and happiness that you so deserve. > > Keep your chin up! > > Many blessings to you. > > Lynda > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Â > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > ((((((Doug)))))) > > > > Maybe it will help you to know that even though you're feeling down and > tired and discouraged right now, your insights and thoughts and the support > that you offer here are so helpful to your fellow KOs. You are a giving kind > of person and you're helping other people even if you can't feel that you're > making progress in your own healing at the moment. That generous spirit, > that being able to give even when you're not " getting " is pretty wonderful, > sez I. > > > > -Annie > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Hello friends. > > > > > > > > > > I ve not been posting much lately. Battling my depression still. Trying > to care, and only marginally succeeding. But a very determined T will not > let me quit! > > > > > > > > > > We get tired. We are in a fight for our lives, for the quality of them, > for making them worth living. The fight started when we were children and > were defenseless, so we are way behind by the time we realize the fight is > on. > > > > > > > > > > But, once we figure it out, I guess we could say, Oh it s ON! > > > > > > > > > > It sucks, folks. We are so messed up. My urging has always been, May we > all heal. It takes so long. Damn it. > > > > > > > > > > I don t know the odds, but most BP s lose. They stay sick all thier > lives. The won t choose to heal, and they will stay the crazy bitch from > hell that we all came to know. > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Some of us can win. Some of us need to. > > > > > > > > > > May we all heal. > > > > > > > > > > Doug > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 17, 2010 Report Share Posted September 17, 2010 All I know is I miss you. All I know is I'm pissed. You deserve better, and always have. All I know is I want you--the one who holds us all together, somehow--back. F*** you, depression. Grace and Peace, Your " sister " Karla > > Hello friends. > > I ve not been posting much lately. Battling my depression still. Trying to care, and only marginally succeeding. But a very determined T will not let me quit! > > We get tired. We are in a fight for our lives, for the quality of them, for making them worth living. The fight started when we were children and were defenseless, so we are way behind by the time we realize the fight is on. > > But, once we figure it out, I guess we could say, Oh it s ON! > > It sucks, folks. We are so messed up. My urging has always been, May we all heal. It takes so long. Damn it. > > I don t know the odds, but most BP s lose. They stay sick all thier lives. The won t choose to heal, and they will stay the crazy bitch from hell that we all came to know. > > > Some of us can win. Some of us need to. > > May we all heal. > > Doug > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 17, 2010 Report Share Posted September 17, 2010 I ve finally found the handle to put on this! F you, depression. Love it! To all my KO brothers and sisters, I m truly touched, and moved to tears, ( though depressed people cry easily) by your words of love and friendship and support. I m still here. Down but not out. As always, May we ALL, ( yea, dummy, even yourself, remember?) heal. Blessings Doug Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 17, 2010 Report Share Posted September 17, 2010 Doug, I hope you do stay in the fight. You are such an encouragement to those of us on the board, especially to me. I have even taken to using your closing " May we all heal " with attribution to you. Your perseverence is even an encouragement. Now let US hold YOU up for a change, and help YOU and carry YOU for a while. We would welcome the chance to return your many favors. Praying that you heal too, Tina > > > > Hello friends. > > > > I ve not been posting much lately. Battling my depression still. Trying to care, and only marginally succeeding. But a very determined T will not let me quit! > > > > We get tired. We are in a fight for our lives, for the quality of them, for making them worth living. The fight started when we were children and were defenseless, so we are way behind by the time we realize the fight is on. > > > > But, once we figure it out, I guess we could say, Oh it s ON! > > > > It sucks, folks. We are so messed up. My urging has always been, May we all heal. It takes so long. Damn it. > > > > I don t know the odds, but most BP s lose. They stay sick all thier lives. The won t choose to heal, and they will stay the crazy bitch from hell that we all came to know. > > > > > > Some of us can win. Some of us need to. > > > > May we all heal. > > > > Doug > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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