Re: Re: Ahhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!

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I'm in! 12pm!

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> I think this has great therapuetic possibilities.

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> We need to do a group scream. So, all KO s, tomorrow, Thursday Aug 5,

> at 12 noon EST, ( nods to you on the west coast) , just cut loose and

> let it all out! We ll all feel better.

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> Doug

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> > Ok, after that scream I feel better now. Actually, I feel better

> because I just finished emailing my Nada what I don't like how she talks

> to me. We've had this huge problem where she over reacted to my

> disinterest in going on a vacation with her (I'm 56!) and has been

> sarcastically brow beating me and finding as many hurtful things to say

> to me as she can. She claims that I don't show my teeth to her when I'm

> with her. Yes, it's very difficult for me to smile with her while I'm

> walking on those eggshells. She doesn't get it. Verbal abuse=NC and a

> very unenergetic guest when I do see her. I guess it made me feel better

> to say the things I did. I was using my " I statements " , was impeccable

> with my words, and very distinctly told her that I don't like her

> criticisms of me, judgements, lack of respect, insults, humiliations,

> sarcasm, assumptions, " mind-raping " , and hurtful things she says of me.

> I told her, you want teeth? Then...and I gave her a list of behaviors

> that would work. I'm drained, but my frustration is subsided.

> > Silly me, I want her to get it. I still can't accept that's she's

> " damaged " and is not going to get it. She plagues me with her cancer

> guilt, expects me to spend more time with her now that she thinks she's

> got cancer coming back any minute. Blames her cancer episodes on me, her

> ex., etc. and doesn't think I've done enough to care for her while she's

> worried about it coming back. Then she cries and says, " I hope I've

> never made you feel guilt. I don't want you to ever feel that way. "

> Then, she says, another day, " You don't care about me anyway. You don't

> ask about my throat. " She thinks her sore throat is cancer. Doctor put

> her on antibiotics.

> > Yes, she told me that my first words were " No " and that I've been

> difficult all my life. She, too, says I always wriggled my way out of

> being held once I could walk. Duh! If she was like this my entire life,

> she had to be trouble when I was a toddler! Guilt...guilt...guilt...I

> wish she would just leave me alone. She has no real friends and my

> sister lives an hour and a half away.

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> It feels never ending... " T "

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