Re: rough day yesterday

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Hi Sue,

Sorry you're having a rough time. It's tough when a parent is ill.

I don't have any easy answers, but do be sure to recognize your progress. I

heard a number of positive things in your message. First, while you're not

necessarily eating just when hungry, it doesn't sound like you were binging.

That's good. Even eating less than you normally would have under the same

circumstance is a good thing. Second, you recognized that you were eating

because of feelings. Recognizing the problem is half the battle. Third, you

did take action to address your feelings other than eating, by going to the

pool. Those are all awesome. This is a process and none of us are going to be

perfect. I'm always guilty of this myself, but it's so easy to focus on the bad

and not recognize the good. Try to focus on the positive steps you've made and

maybe it will make dealing with all the other " stuff " you've got going on right

now, a bit easier.

(((((hugs)))))))

Josie

>

> I have been feeling like I am lost the last few days. The holiday weekend

> was difficult for me…I felt so distracted (lots of company here) that I lost

> my way. I had a rough day yesterday with hearing about how bad the summer

> cabin had been left by my parents for my son and his wife's visit there. My

> mom is slipping and fading away so quickly now. Several e-mail

> conversations with my sister left me feeling so sad and depressed yesterday.

>

>

>

> Then, I woke this morning beating myself up for eating as I did yesterday. I

> will have to admit, however, that I was pretty aware of what I was doing

> with my eating yesterday…aware of trying to numb the feelings. And, in

> reality, my eating wasn't all that bad, but I was feeling badly about eating

> over feelings. Oh wait…perhaps I need to remember that I am human and it's

> ok to feel!!!

>

>

> I am not used to knowing what else to do with my feelings other than eat. I

> did kind of force myself to go to the pool for a short while in the

> afternoon and that felt really good. But then when I came home, I dreaded

> calling my dad to see how mom was and put it off for a couple of hours. And

> then ate snacks all night.

>

>

> Today we are going to see my parents and perhaps I will feel a little better

> about their situation…or not. Regardless, today I am going to work on

> finding ways to deal with my feelings that don't involve food.

>

> Any suggestions welcome!

>

> Sue

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