Clothes Rant

[Guest guest]

I'm really cranky today. I've actually been having a really good week, feeling

good about myself and I finally made it back to yoga last night, which I enjoyed

and think I may now try to do twice a week. So that was great.

But here's the problem. I've decided that while I don't think I will ever love

my body at this size, that this IE thing is going to be a journey and I'm not

going to lose weight overnight and I need to at least make peace with my body in

order for this to work. I'm one of those people who never buys really nice

clothes because I always want to wait until I'm skinnier. So I figured I'd

start by buying some great clothes that make me feel really good. So I go

online to try to buy some stuff and that's where the crankyness begins!!

I'm not just a big girl, I'm also 5'9 " , which doesn't sound all that tall, but

apparently, as far as retailers that make plus size clothing are concerned,

there is no such thing as a tall fat girl. Apparently, I'm the only fat person

on the planet that's taller than 5'6 " because every single pair of pants makes

me look like I'm expecting a flood!!!!!!!! As if it's not bad enough that I

have to wear shapeless mumus out of 1970, they also have to be too short, too.

Argh!

Okay, I am exagerating here. I don't wear shapeless mumus, but I'm just so

cranky, I can't help it. Lane does have a few pairs of pants in tall

lengths, but only a very limited number, and most are casual, not necessarily

right for the office. Apparently, they acknowledge that there are tall fat

girls, but they think we only want to wear two different kinds of pants, ALL THE

TIME. Besides, I'm so sick to death of LB. I mean, god bless them for

producing anything at all that I can wear, because that puts them ahead of 95%

of all retailers, but I've always had issues with the quality and fit of their

clothes. Sometimes shopping there feels like settling and I hate that I have to

settle.

So then I think that I need to venture outside of LB and look at some stores

that I've never actually tried before, so I start googling different stores and

while there are a number I've never shopped at before, most still don't offer

tall plus sizes. I could probably count on one hand the number of stores that

do and half of them offer clothes made of fabrics that can only be created in a

test tube and in styles that I'm sure my grandmother would enjoy but that aren't

necessarily going to make me feel all that great in my next business meeting.

And here's the final annoying thing I discovered. There are a number of

retailers that have tall sizes, BUT they're not plus sizes. If you're

exceedingly lucky, they may offer tall pants in a small number of plus sizes,

but " tall " plus sizes are not the same measurements as the " woman " plus sizes!

So, I'm a size 20 and there are maybe three or four retailers that have tall

pants in size 20, but because the measurements are smaller, I can wear the woman

plus sizes, but the tall plus sizes will be too tight, if they fit at all.

WTF????????? That's SO annoying!!!!!!!!!! Grrrrrrrrrrrr!!!

Okay. Sorry. There's not much to be done about it, so I just needed to get it

off my chest. It's hard to be fat and it's hard to do IE and I feel like I can

deal with those things. But sometimes it just seems like everything's stacked

against you, and that's when I start getting really bent out of shape and start

questioning my choice. Quitting IE isn't an option, so I guess venting is all

I can do.

Thanks for listening!

Josie