Re: Question about weight loss

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I think this might be the hardest thing to let go of for a lot of us. 

I know that even on my best days, when my mind tells me I'm OK the way

I am, my heart doesn't believe it yet.  I think that when we get to the

point where we can really accept ourselves as we are, we'll be totally

free.   At the same time, look at how far you've come!  You're doing so

well, and you should give yourself credit for that.

Maybe you can try running again, but be very mindful of it starting up

ED thoughts again.  Are you seeing a therapist at all?  What kind of

thoughts are you worried that running will trigger?  I used to run

quite a bit when I was in my more buff incarnation (lol), so I

understand how much you must miss it.

Sohni

Rowell wrote:

 

this is a big one for me.  I have been working towards eating

normally for the apst 18 months.  I have come sooooo far.  I am now

eating regularly and have not restriced or binged for ages.  For me the

difficulty is being able to deal with the body image stuff and get rid

of the desire to loose weight.  I have been a passionate runner and

loved marathons BUT it went from something I loved to something that

was triggering my E.D thoughts.  I have stopped running but would love

to do it again.  I don't think this can happen until I can come to

terms with "this might be me set point weight" and how I look.  I am

now 20kg heavier than when anorexia was there and I am now much happier

and healthier, but can't seem to let go of the "hate" of my body and

secret wish to be thin.

 

Hmmm so complicated

 

From:

lori <laurietess>

To: IntuitiveEating_Support

Sent: Mon, 8 February,

2010 2:09:28 PM

Subject: Re:

Question about weight loss

 

Hi,

I started walking and jogging again finally because I purposely

took three months off to get away from using exercise as weight loss. 

My first walk, purely for fitness at any size, was a joy because it was

pleasurable to feel the sensations of body movement without thought to

calorie count, or pressure of need to lose weight.  Since that walk,

I've jogged three times and walked once, and I can very, very happily

say that I have managed to totally disconnect weight loss from my

activity; that my motivations are heart health and basic fitness of

muscles and skeletal system, etc. 

Previously, if I'd been exercising, I'd start to restrict foods

and I'm not doing that.

I have apple pie, reeses p.b. cups, almond cream cake,

grapefruit, lowfat yogurt and whole grain granola, lots of spinach and

low fat cheese.  So what I'm doing is my best to never restrict

anything, but to also have lots of options to choose from; I'm aiming

for variety.

 

Health At Any Size sounds like a great book that I'd like to

read.

 

Laurie

From:

jeanniet58 <jeanniet58gmail (DOT) com>

To: IntuitiveEating_

Support@yahoogro ups.com

Sent: Sun, February 7,

2010 5:42:41 PM

Subject: Re:

[intuitiveEating_ Support] Question about weight loss

 

Hi ,

There's no reason why you can't continue with running and lifting

weights if you enjoy that.  You may feel a lot better if you're fit, no

matter what your weight is.

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Hi Sohni

Yes I have come along way and I am really proud of myself. It has been very hard and weekly sessions with an E.D therapist. I am also seeing a dietician who specialises in Intuitive eating- she has been brilliant. My past is a mess and my eating issues and body issues are all tied up with that....so working through all of that is the key. but at the same time I feel like I don't know what to do with my feelings- I have always eaten them or starved them away. My biggest hurdle is this ingrained hate towards what I consider my fat self. I am currently an Australian size 14 which is average....but I look at myself and have feelings of disgust. So then my desire is to do what I know I can do really well and restrict, exercise excessively and loose weight. To combat that I try and recall the stress and anxiety I felt when I was at my lowest weight and that is enough to help me decide to just have faith in

the process and keep going.

The running for me became a way to binge and then purge. I have tried to run again a few times recently and instantly I start the criticism, I am to slow, I am too fat blah blah. I finish feeling bad. There was a time when running was a joy, I felt fit and healthy and it always made me feel happy. just not sure how to get that back.

This is so helpful to just get thoughts out there.

To: IntuitiveEating_Support Sent: Thu, 11 February, 2010 6:27:43 AMSubject: Re: Question about weight loss

I think this might be the hardest thing to let go of for a lot of us. I know that even on my best days, when my mind tells me I'm OK the way I am, my heart doesn't believe it yet. I think that when we get to the point where we can really accept ourselves as we are, we'll be totally free. At the same time, look at how far you've come! You're doing so well, and you should give yourself credit for that.Maybe you can try running again, but be very mindful of it starting up ED thoughts again. Are you seeing a therapist at all? What kind of thoughts are you worried that running will trigger? I used to run quite a bit when I was in my more buff incarnation (lol), so I understand how much you must miss it.Sohni Rowell wrote:

this is a big one for me. I have been working towards eating normally for the apst 18 months. I have come sooooo far. I am now eating regularly and have not restriced or binged for ages. For me the difficulty is being able to deal with the body image stuff and get rid of the desire to loose weight. I have been a passionate runner and loved marathons BUT it went from something I loved to something that was triggering my E.D thoughts. I have stopped running but would love to do it again. I don't think this can happen until I can come to terms with "this might be me set point weight" and how I look. I am now 20kg heavier than when anorexia was there and I am now much happier and healthier, but can't seem to let go of the "hate" of my body and secret wish to be thin.

Hmmm so complicated

From: lori <laurietessyahoo (DOT) com>To: IntuitiveEating_ Support@yahoogro ups.comSent: Mon, 8 February, 2010 2:09:28 PMSubject: Re: [intuitiveEating_ Support] Question about weight loss

Hi,

I started walking and jogging again finally because I purposely took three months off to get away from using exercise as weight loss. My first walk, purely for fitness at any size, was a joy because it was pleasurable to feel the sensations of body movement without thought to calorie count, or pressure of need to lose weight. Since that walk, I've jogged three times and walked once, and I can very, very happily say that I have managed to totally disconnect weight loss from my activity; that my motivations are heart health and basic fitness of muscles and skeletal system, etc.

Previously, if I'd been exercising, I'd start to restrict foods and I'm not doing that.

I have apple pie, reeses p.b. cups, almond cream cake, grapefruit, lowfat yogurt and whole grain granola, lots of spinach and low fat cheese. So what I'm doing is my best to never restrict anything, but to also have lots of options to choose from; I'm aiming for variety.

Health At Any Size sounds like a great book that I'd like to read.

Laurie

From: jeanniet58 <jeanniet58gmail (DOT) com>To: IntuitiveEating_ Support@yahoogro ups.comSent: Sun, February 7, 2010 5:42:41 PMSubject: Re: [intuitiveEating_ Support] Question about weight loss

Hi ,There's no reason why you can't continue with running and lifting weights if you enjoy that. You may feel a lot better if you're fit, no matter what your weight is.Send instant messages to your online friends http://au.messenger .yahoo.com

Send instant messages to your online friends http://au.messenger.yahoo.com

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I was always a pretty ploddy runner, but I felt like a gazelle, lol.  I

hope at some point you can run and feel that joy again.

Sometimes it's just all very overwhelming, isn't it?  Then at other

times I really feel like I have a handle on things.  I'm glad you have

a good therapist and dietician who can help you through this.   I think

we can all understand what you mean by not knowing what to do with your

feelings.  Sometimes I think I just don't know *how* to have feelings!

Sohni

Rowell wrote:

 

Hi Sohni

Yes I have come along way and I am really proud of myself.  It

has been very hard and weekly sessions with an E.D therapist.  I am

also seeing a dietician who specialises in Intuitive eating- she has

been brilliant.  My past is a mess and my eating issues and body issues

are all tied up with that....so working through all of that is the

key.  but at the same time I feel like I don't know what to do with my

feelings- I have always eaten them or starved them away.  My biggest

hurdle is this ingrained hate towards what I consider my fat self.  I

am currently an Australian size 14 which is average....but I look at

myself and have feelings of disgust.  So then my desire is to do what I

know I can do really well and restrict, exercise excessively and loose

weight.  To combat that I try and recall the stress and anxiety I felt

when I was at my lowest weight and that is enough to help me decide to

just have faith in the process and keep going. 

 

The running for me became a way to binge and then purge.  I have

tried to run again a few times recently and instantly I start the

criticism, I am to slow, I am too fat blah blah.  I finish feeling

bad.  There was a time when running was a joy, I felt fit and healthy

and it always made me feel happy.  just not sure how to get that back.

 

This is so helpful to just get thoughts out there.

From:

jeanniet58 <jeanniet58gmail>

To: IntuitiveEating_Support

Sent: Thu, 11

February, 2010 6:27:43 AM

Subject: Re:

Question about weight loss

 

I think this might be the hardest thing to let go of for a lot of

us.  I know that even on my best days, when my mind tells me I'm OK the

way I am, my heart doesn't believe it yet.  I think that when we get to

the point where we can really accept ourselves as we are, we'll be

totally free.   At the same time, look at how far you've come!  You're

doing so well, and you should give yourself credit for that.

Maybe you can try running again, but be very mindful of it starting up

ED thoughts again.  Are you seeing a therapist at all?  What kind of

thoughts are you worried that running will trigger?  I used to run

quite a bit when I was in my more buff incarnation (lol), so I

understand how much you must miss it.

Sohni

Rowell wrote:

 

this is a big one for me.  I have been working towards eating

normally for the apst 18 months.  I have come sooooo far.  I am now

eating regularly and have not restriced or binged for ages.  For me the

difficulty is being able to deal with the body image stuff and get rid

of the desire to loose weight.  I have been a passionate runner and

loved marathons BUT it went from something I loved to something that

was triggering my E.D thoughts.  I have stopped running but would love

to do it again.  I don't think this can happen until I can come to

terms with "this might be me set point weight" and how I look.  I am

now 20kg heavier than when anorexia was there and I am now much happier

and healthier, but can't seem to let go of the "hate" of my body and

secret wish to be thin.

 

Hmmm so complicated

 

From:

lori <laurietessyahoo (DOT) com>

To: IntuitiveEating_

Support@yahoogro ups.com

Sent: Mon, 8

February, 2010 2:09:28 PM

Subject: Re:

[intuitiveEating_ Support] Question about weight loss

 

Hi,

I started walking and jogging again finally because I

purposely took three months off to get away from using exercise as

weight loss.  My first walk, purely for fitness at any size, was a joy

because it was pleasurable to feel the sensations of body movement

without thought to calorie count, or pressure of need to lose weight. 

Since that walk, I've jogged three times and walked once, and I can

very, very happily say that I have managed to totally disconnect weight

loss from my activity; that my motivations are heart health and basic

fitness of muscles and skeletal system, etc. 

Previously, if I'd been exercising, I'd start to restrict

foods and I'm not doing that.

I have apple pie, reeses p.b. cups, almond cream cake,

grapefruit, lowfat yogurt and whole grain granola, lots of spinach and

low fat cheese.  So what I'm doing is my best to never restrict

anything, but to also have lots of options to choose from; I'm aiming

for variety.

 

Health At Any Size sounds like a great book that I'd like to

read.

 

Laurie

From:

jeanniet58 <jeanniet58gmail (DOT) com>

To: IntuitiveEating_

Support@yahoogro ups.com

Sent: Sun, February

7, 2010 5:42:41 PM

Subject: Re:

[intuitiveEating_ Support] Question about weight loss

 

Hi ,

There's no reason why you can't continue with running and lifting

weights if you enjoy that.  You may feel a lot better if you're fit, no

matter what your weight is.

Send instant messages to your online friends http://au.messenger .yahoo.com

Send instant messages to your online friends http://au.messenger.yahoo.com