Depression update

[Guest guest]

My friends, whose loving words of support during my battle have made me

teary several times, here is an update.

I know many, perhaps most , of us battle this ugly black monkey. It is

such a temptation to give up. I know. So, as encouragement to those of

you battling and perhaps not getting help, and for you who pour out such

love and concern, to let you know because you do care, here is where we

are, 6 weeks after starting to fight back.

One month now on SSRI s. Had to shift to Wellbutrin due to side effects

of Celexa. I don t feel like a worthless POS , failure, and like life

is a burden and hardly worth the effort to eat or get up constantly.

Now , I just feel that way most of the time. From time to time I feel

worthwhile. Once in a great while I have a moment of almost happiness.

I can at least force myself to care somewhat, and do some of the things

I enjoy.

There is still a long way to go, and a lot of work to do. It sucks.

But if you are there, don t stay there. Hell, it may kill me. It may

kill you. But let s at least go down swinging.

Success is never final. Failure is never fatal. It is courage, courage,

courage which matters.

Winston Churchill

Blessings all,

Doug