My full signal is almost always very, very subtle and this annoys me!

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Hi Everyone,

I'm sorry to sound like a pessimist my first couple days back, but I have to be

honest that I've had this gripe for a very long time; that my " full " signal is

very, very, very dim and so very subtle!  I don't even think I'm exxaggerating

when I say if I blink I'll miss it entirely!  I know I'm not thinking positively

in this moment, but rather I'm frustrated and just want to vent.

I like how I look, and I like what my body can do for me re walking, swimming,

etc.  BUT I HATE that my body has such dim full signals; it would be challenging

enough even if they were obvious signals!   And I hate equally that my body has

stubbornly decided that every single extra bite will absolutely become added

weight; I'm convinced that this is true and I know that not everyone has such a

slow metabolism where there's no wiggle room. 

I am just super pissed about these two things even though I know it's not

productive to be.  I don't feel like just smiling and saying the serenity prayer

in this particular moment though I'm happy to do that at other times. 

I AM really a believer in intuitive eating; I have no doubt that if I hadn't

stopped restricting many foods that I'd still be lost and starving and binging

and so on.  I'm grateful that I can have the cookies and cakes in my kitchen. 

I'm glad that many formerly forbidden foods are really ok now, but I've still

got a couple left which I overeat every time I am in contact with them.  I'm

still giving myself permission to have them but I am pacing myself instead of

having them every single day, but I would always say yes if I really wanted one

of them so I'm not restricting.

I've been under extreme stress and so, of course, everything that seemed easy is

somewhat more challenging right now.

I want to go back to answering others' emails and being helpful but I probably

will need my stress level to lessen just a bit more before I really can do that.

But I'm reading your emails and want to say I appreciate all you have to say and

thanks for the fact that reading your ideas is very helpful.

Laurie