Vicky

[Guest guest]

One post to reply to a few things.

1. I am so glad you got my daisies and liked them. The thought

that they provided a smile and maybe a wallpaper or screensaver for

you makes me more happy than I can even tell you!

2. Your Satan joke was absolutely hilarious. I saw the subject in

the digest, went to read it, wondered what horrible experience you

had and then thought 'oh, not your experience, but a moral of the

story or strength tale', then to find the punch line and this coming

from you... it was just wonderful. I will carry that humor through

my day now. Thank you!

3. I saw your picture and all I can say is that it made me mad.

Other's have said they saw peace, they saw beauty, I don't remember

all the reactions. I could tell you I saw strength because here you

are getting out and continuing on, I could say I saw depth of

character because here you are making memories and spending time w/

your family, I could tell you many characteristics and praise you

for so many things. Instead I'll tell you I was sad and mad and

frustrated. The picture is powerful because w/ this world being

mostly typed words on a screen it might make it easy for me to think

here's this woman at the end of her life and she's made peace and is

put things on her terms and is taking care of end of life issues and

isn't that nice. While I have to be happy for you to be doing

exactly that I see your picture and am smacked back into the reality

of 'this woman is way, way too young to be doing this!' I know in

posting this picture you probably only see how you look in

comparison to your healthy self. In posting this picture, you bring

you off the screen from typed words. Life is too short. Believe

me, it's not like I'm saying any age makes this okay. Did, I

mention... Life is too short?! I know I'm sounding greedy now

rather than thankful, but so be it. My Mom just passed last year at

69 and it seems ridiculous. As I've said my father is doing amazing

after stints, back surgery, and all that at 71 and that's how we all

should be. This stupid disease is such a thief. In those stupid

Quality of Life survey's they ask some question about satifaction

and quality vs. quanity... I want it all. I have answered that if I

live one day less than I'm wanting I'm gonna be pissed. Vicky, I

hate this disease for you and Gene and Abby and and all of

us. I hate it, I hate it, I hate it. I feel like I should delete

this 3rd part and leave it at that, but I'm gonna selfishly let it

fly. Don't you dare console me. Vicky, thanks for sharing yourself

again and again. Thanks for the email, thanks for the photos and

for affecting me and my journey. And here I said I would use your

joke to buoy my mood... maybe I'll go back now and reread your

joke. Somehow my order was all wrong... maybe I need to go back to

pretty flowers...

Kerry

37 IPF '01 S. IN