Guest guest Posted September 22, 2010 Report Share Posted September 22, 2010 I HATE this about myself. I am really upset over a work episode today that is no big deal but I can't let it go. I walked over to my boss and this guy I work with who has the same position as me. I accidentally interrupted them and boss walked away. I said to the other guy, " I'm sorry, I didn't mean to interrupt. " Other guy: " Why? You do it all the time. " me: " Really? I'm sorry. " other guy, " Don't apologize to ME " the tone being apologize to the other guy So I did and he said, " I'm used to it by now. " No one said don't worry about it. I didn't even realize I was doing that and I feel really bad and stupid. I just can't let it go. As far as I know I have a good working relationship with these people. We always joke around and I think they like me. Now this small thing is spiraling into me doubting if I am good at my job! WHY WHY WHY do I obsess and over-analyze like this? Actually I just remembered something my T told me: obsessive people do this in order to try to gain some control or feel better about the fact that the world is unpredictable. Find security somehow. What's more insecure than growing up w/ a BPD parent? She said out of all the psych issues I could have developed, this is the best one as it is the most manageable. But still, I am really upset over this incident to the point that I just can't relax right now. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Recommended Posts
Join the conversation
You are posting as a guest. If you have an account, sign in now to post with your account.
Note: Your post will require moderator approval before it will be visible.