Re: Re: Just Broke up with Girl Friend

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(()) I'm sorry you have been thru so much pain. I can understand that

a breakup is always a double edge sword. You remember the good feelings and

you remember your battle scars. It sounds to me that you parting from this

women could be a good opportunity for you to have a more stable world..where

you can grow and heal. Maybe in future relationships you will be more aware

of certain personality traits.... I know for me ever since I found out about

PDs I could spot them a mile away. It's good for me to consider things

that didn't go well for me like a course I would take in colledge..I leaned

stuff and passed the course now I move on to something else.

This is a good place for you to get things off your chest..Your among people

that understand.

Stefanie

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> Thank you Karla,

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> My ramblings continue....

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> My ex some times did things that reminded me of my dad. A little bit of gas

> lighting..... I lost my shit and yelled when this happened..... Accusing

> me abandoning her and not loving her.... of intentionally trying to hurt

> her....

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> I had tried twice to break up before..... The first time, she cried and

> said " you broke me " , and the second time, she cut herself.... Not suicide,

> just cutting. Not in front of me.....I felt sorry for her....

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> What did I get out of the relationship? When I knew I was making her happy,

> that made me feel wonderful. I could make her tears disappear with hour

> long hugs and kisses. I was able to comfort her, like I was never able to

> comfort my fada. Lord knows I tried to comfort him, but he couldn't take it

> in. If I could make him happy...... then he would he would have provided

> the love and support I needed.

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> I kept thinking with her " just one more bump, and then I'll have some one I

> can rely on " . I used to want to join the military because I craved that

> sense of camaraderie. I still crave camaraderie. The feeling that some one

> has my back and is looking out for me. I never had this growing up. The

> relationship provided me with hope for a comrade.

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