Re: feels like a huge relapse

[Guest guest]

Hi, na,

I haven't been at IE long enough to be able to have a real relapse--still trying to adjust to the point where I don't overeat regularly to be able to say I have had enough clear time to even consider what I'm doing as a relapse, but I sure do know that feeling of deciding to go with a binge instead of facing what I know I'm avoiding.

I try at times like those to realize that whatever it was that sent me into old habits is something that I now know I need to address, to get more balance in that part of my life, because obviously there's something there that can still trigger me.

I've had a miserable two days, trying to deal with some very bad news, cancer in someone I love dearly. The best I could do was sometimes eat to console myself, and then feel the effects of having overeaten. I didn't binge because frankly I was feeling too sick (at heart, as well as in my stomach--nothing agreed with me) to overeat much at all. And I found myself sleeping--like someone took me down with a hammer to the head--at odd times during the day, and feeling totally exhausted all the time, like I was carrying around arms that weighed a hundred pounds.

Since I wasn't doing any bingeing, but just some mildly inappropriate eating, I finally figured out that ohhhhhh, THIS is what it's like to feel really crummy feelings, and now I know why I sometimes just plain want to blot them out. It's like having the flu, but not being sick enough that you can justify going to bed.

I have been trying to take it easy on myself, to sleep when I feel like it (better than eating a ton), to email all my friends and I live for their replies to me, and to let myself cry whenever I feel like it.

Your stress with your boyfriend is pointing to something in your relationship with him that will need your attention. You don't necessarily have to do anything about it now; just journal or meditate on it, see what comes up for you, and think about how you can address it in a loving, positive way. Are your insecurities coming from your own head, or are they triggered by something he habitually says or does, something that would make anyone feel insecure? Take your time with this; and most of all, take really good care of yourself now, because you're hurting both from the argument as well as from the binges.

Laurie

feels like a huge relapse

I have done very well with IE for about 3 years.I thought binges were something of the past.I only delt with minor over-eating issues for the last 2 years which were really sporadic.

However, since last Monday, binges started.I know what caused the issue: dialogue with my boyfriend which turned into an argument with more insecurities from my side. I thought at first that a little overeating could be justified by PMS. Then a slight overeating turned into a Tue night binge and a Wed night binge.

It hurts when I know why I am overeating and or engaging in a binge but I choose to go with it instead of taking my mind off it.

Anyway, I just wanted to share that.

relapse can take place, so I hope it does not last more than these past 2 days.

I threw away the peanut butter jar, the most tempting thing.

I hope to eat in a more mindful manner.

has a relapsed occured to you? did it last long?

have a great day ladies

A

[Guest guest]

I have not been on IE long enough to have ever not had a nighlty binge but I can still relate that I too turn to food (or cleaning my house) when I am upset with my husband, kids or stressed. But what is different for me today is that I don't decide to start a new diet as an excuse to binge eat I stop to see what I am feeling and although I can't label it yet I know its there and I try not to beat myself up. I am not perfect but I am making progress and that I am okay with. Not where I want to be but it will come and I will fall and I will rise again

To: IntuitiveEating_Support Sent: Wed, September 8, 2010 9:11:48 PMSubject: feels like a huge relapse

I have done very well with IE for about 3 years.I thought binges were something of the past.I only delt with minor over-eating issues for the last 2 years which were really sporadic.However, since last Monday, binges started.I know what caused the issue: dialogue with my boyfriend which turned into an argument with more insecurities from my side. I thought at first that a little overeating could be justified by PMS. Then a slight overeating turned into a Tue night binge and a Wed night binge.It hurts when I know why I am overeating and or engaging in a binge but I choose to go with it instead of taking my mind off it.Anyway, I just wanted to share that.relapse can take place, so I hope it does not last more than these past 2 days.I threw away the peanut butter jar, the most tempting thing.I hope to eat in a more mindful manner.has a relapsed occured to you? did it last long?have a great day ladies

A