Life after abuse

[Guest guest]

How do we let go of all the hurt and the pain, the memories, the flashbacks, the

nightmares that torture our beautiul souls every day of our lives?

 

How do we learn to truly let go and start to live our lives for the present

moment?

 

How do we learn to accept that past is past?  How do we learn to love ourselves,

and accept ourselves for whom we are?

 

There are so many hows and why's that us abuse survivors battle with everyday,

we battle with our inner deamons, we wonder and wonder how another human

being/s, could rip our soul and heart out and leave nothing but a deep black

hole filled with fright and terror.

 

We are constanty searching for something, but we dont know what that something

is, but we still keep searching, we search everywhere, we seek out self

destructive behaviours such as alcohol, drugs, compulsive shopping, pushing

people away, rejecting love, we may constantly seek reassurance from others, we

may not trust in ourselves or others.

 

This is just some of the damage that abuse can do to the human spirit, but there

is hope, we as survivors may have had our souls deeply wounded and torn apart,

but we are still here living, breathing.........even though at times we dont

really feel like we are living but we are.

 

We as survivors got through the abuse, and we can and will heal our broken

hearts.  We are beautiful individals who deserve everything that the world has

to offer, however, to heal we need to take that leap of faith, we need to have

courage, we need to have strength and determination, we have to want to heal,

and I believe that no matter how hard the days may seem, we all as survivors

have all the qualities to heal.

 

As an abuse survior myself, in an ironic kind of way, I am learning to accept my

abuse and that actually if I never endured what I went through as a child, I

would not be the person that I am today, some of the most humanistic and

creative people I know are abuse survivors, we as survivors have so much to

offer the world and our children and the children of tomorrow.

 

The truth will set you free.