Re: Moderation? kind of the same as normal!

March 27, 2012

You manage, somehow Mark, to put an entirely new image on things I, and perhaps

others, take for granted!

You're doing fine, and I would add some more advice. Don't expect too much too

fast. You're breaking away from one life style, and learning a new one. It won't

happen instantly. As you have noted previously, it's not a diet, but a way of

life. Give it time and don't be too hard on yourself.

And if moderation for you right now is one gallon a week of milk, instead of 3

gallons, go with it. Your meter is indicating you're really doing well with

matching your food with insulin and other meds, and just keep in mind you'll

need to be eating significantly smaller portions than you're used to in order to

lose some weight.

Dave

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Moderation? kind of the same as normal!

this moderation thing is kind of messing this pig up. my idea use to be if you

dig it, I mean really like it, then have all you can eat until you can't eat no

more! then nurses and saw bones tells me if I get any bigger they won't be able

to operate on me on the table. they will have to leave me on the floor and he

said he hated to bend over, so I was in trouble! so he ask me about eating in

moderation? then you guys tell me to just go on and eat what I like, but just do

it in moderation! well I'm thinking my idea of moderation may be a bit larger

then most of you are thinking. instead of just simply grabbing a large spoon and

eating the ice cream right out of the bucket it comes in, get a bowl and use a

little spoon to eat the bowl full. it is after all cutting down what size of ice

cream I use to eat, so there for the full bowl is in moderation, isn't it? so I

can go out to Wal-Mart and buy me my favorite package of cookies! well can't

just decide on one favorite, so I may need to purchase seven different packages

and only eat one from each sack. to me this would be moderation for the way I

use to eat these same cookies. now take milk for another example, you who have

more sense then does this pig will have a eight ounce glass of milk and call it

moderation and for you it is. now for me instead of the 32 ounce glass I drank

twice at breakfast, I will now have only a 20 ounce glass and this is moderation

for me. As we can see moderation and Normal both depend on the person in

question, isn't this right? now on the other hand if your idea of moderation is

one very small cookie which in reality is just one bite for a pig, then I don't

believe I will bother if this is all I can have based on your opinion of

moderation. I would rather use my idea instead. like the lady who picked her up

a box of cookies and ate to many before she realized she was a bad girl! If that

had of been me? I would have ate the whole box and then instead of telling my

self what a bad fat pig I was, I would then tell my self to go on and eat the

rest because the damage was all ready done and a bit more isn't going to change

the bad. I say if you are going to stumble, then fall off the cliff and not the

curb! it's really kind of a sick way of thinking if you want to know the truth,

but then I have been called worse then just sick! I just can't eat what I use to

eat in my idea of moderation or your's. I mean your idea is of course the right

way and your idea of moderation is as it should be for all of us who wish to

continue living, but I have no good sense of moderation in my life now based on

my yesterday's of huge portions. you can't get to over 300 pounds with out

having huge portions of what ever it is you eat. my idea of a salad is out of a

serving bowl. I mean if you plan to eat a salad for dinner, then eat a real

salad that is proud to call it self a salad! I think I really may be able to eat

one cookie, but I can assure you right now this pig will look around in order to

buy the largest package of large cookies I can find, this way my one cookie will

be a big cookie! my honey likes for me to make home made chocolate chip cookies

with pecans. the only problem is I should get at least 3 dozen from the recipe,

but I only get maybe 16. I'm thinking I just can't get pass the thought that if

moderation is good, then bigger is much better. so I should make smaller

cookies? yes I know this is so and you are all right once again, but this pig

just simply isn't there at this time. I just can't go for moderation of those

items that I use to over eat in huge amounts. maybe next year at this same time,

but not to day for sure. how many of you use to go eat Mexican food and eat just

one bowl of ships and dip? here in Oklahoma they bring you all the chips with

dip you can eat for only $7 and no charge if you order from the menu. then there

is those round things made from flour or corn that you got to tare in to at

least 5 with butter and the little veggies! then you got to order some fried hot

peppers to go with the cold beer with salt and lime around the rim! then here

comes your main dish so stop eating all that for the main course! Now I'm here

to tell you guys right now once you decide you are going to eat right and

control your blood sugar, you better not go to a Mexican restaurant that serves

you like I'm talking about here! I have done it twice in the past 3 weeks and

not ate those chips or the flour and corn what ever that I can't spell. all the

pig had was that meat and onions they bring out in a skillet that is on fire and

man o man is it just so good! I had nothing with it off of that plate of beans

and all the rest to make one of the flour things in to a burrito. I only ate

what was in the skillet because I know the pig we are talking about way better

then any one does and I would have tore that plate up and all those other things

as well, then I would have stopped to catch my breath. I didn't even have 3

beers with lime and salt on the rim. I cried to tell you the truth because I had

to only drink water. can you even start to feel the pain I felt from looking at

all those chips and dips that every one else was enjoying? it just about caused

me to act up like a kid throwing a fit in public! I actually wondered what every

one would have thought if I threw my fat butt on the floor and rolled back and

forth yelling my pig head off because it just wasn't one bit fair! Now a person

that has good sense would wonder why I even went in that kind of a restaurant in

the first place when I all ready knew how hard it was going to be? well I was

simply born with a hard fat head and there is a part of me that thinks I have to

prove a point to me if no one else cares and the rest didn't care how I ate or

what I ate, but I cared and I had to prove to me that I could go in there and

eat right with other folks who were eating all wrong. I can't stop living life

and stop hanging out with people, so I got to over come food and the best way to

do it is face the food you dig the most head on like I done! by the way, my

sugar 3 hours later was 114! the people I was with said go on and eat what you

like, but do it in moderation. now see? here is that word once again that is

every where I turn now days! my idea of moderation would have sent my sugar over

200 because my idea of less would still be lots more then any of you would have

ate on your worse day. I'm sure us who are over eaters can and do learn how to

eat in moderation after a while. I'm not sure if I ever will, but I do know I

can with some things because I proved it in the Mexican restaurant. here in OkC

we only have a Mexican restaurant every 25 feet. well not that many I guess, but

it is my very favorite food to eat and they are as thick as hair on a dog's back

around this city. plus it seems to me that every body and there dog wishes to go

eat Mexican food when they go out. When in Rome, you do as the roman's do. so

what we have learned from this pile of ramble to day is you and I may all be

normal, but who is the real judge of what is Normal? to me moderation is the

same way and I know it shouldn't be. of course I am a pig in more ways then just

hanging the feed bag on most of the day long. I as well just have piggish ways

about me and all my buds will tell you it is so and calling me a pig is only in

a loving way. I'm trying to teach the piggish ways of me how to eat less and for

now stay away from those things I really dig. that butter milk in the ice box is

killing me because I can't go down what is left. I haven't had a glass of moo

milk in more then 3 weeks going on four now. I only had 3 gallons a week, so in

my opinion moderation would only be one gallon a week instead, but at 13 carbs

per eight ounces? last time I looked a gallon only had 128 ounces. so 13 times

128 is to many carbs in one week from just one food item! see? the pig is

learning! I'm figuring it out! there is hope for me yet! love you guys and sorry

for the ramble again. sure didn't mean to. just happens when my fingers get on

my keyboard.

March 27, 2012

Very Interesting. I know it must be so hard for you and I will be interested

to see what your weigh in is even if I don't guess right. I came down about

another half pound again so it is going to be a very slow process.

I started to listen to that presentation Vickie sent but I got interrupted

because I could not get my media player to pause. Si I guess I have gotta

start it over again. I am trying to figure out what their catch is and I

also wonder if they have an audio book or text format so we could have

access to it. I wonder if they give any contact phone number. My brother

Dan has diabetes too, he found out in 2009 and he has lost over 50 pounds.

He is a strong believer that if you lose the weight you will also lose the

diabetes.

He claims he barely needs to test anymore. He is convinced he will

completely cure himself.

I am not so sure about him or about this doctor in the presentation but the

way I look at it is if either method saves or prolongs lives then it is on

the right track for someone and we are all different. I think there is

always something more we could do if we try hard enough.

Yes, I took 2 spoons of peanut butter and a fruit gumdrop tonight, I am not

entirely being as good as I could. I am trying to watch it because I don't

know when the blood draw will be.

Moderation? kind of the same as normal!

> this moderation thing is kind of messing this pig up. my idea use to be

> if you dig it, I mean really like it, then have all you can eat until you

> can't eat no more! then nurses and saw bones tells me if I get any bigger

> they won't be able to operate on me on the table. they will have to leave

> me on the floor and he said he hated to bend over, so I was in trouble! so

> he ask me about eating in moderation? then you guys tell me to just go on

> and eat what I like, but just do it in moderation! well I'm thinking my

> idea of moderation may be a bit larger then most of you are thinking.

> instead of just simply grabbing a large spoon and eating the ice cream

> right out of the bucket it comes in, get a bowl and use a little spoon to

> eat the bowl full. it is after all cutting down what size of ice cream I

> use to eat, so there for the full bowl is in moderation, isn't it? so I

> can go out to Wal-Mart and buy me my favorite package of cookies! well

> can't just decide on one favorite, so I may need to purchase seven

> different packages and only eat one from each sack. to me this would be

> moderation for the way I use to eat these same cookies. now take milk for

> another example, you who have more sense then does this pig will have a

> eight ounce glass of milk and call it moderation and for you it is. now

> for me instead of the 32 ounce glass I drank twice at breakfast, I will

> now have only a 20 ounce glass and this is moderation for me. As we can

> see moderation and Normal both depend on the person in question, isn't

> this right? now on the other hand if your idea of moderation is one very

> small cookie which in reality is just one bite for a pig, then I don't

> believe I will bother if this is all I can have based on your opinion of

> moderation. I would rather use my idea instead. like the lady who picked

> her up a box of cookies and ate to many before she realized she was a bad

> girl! If that had of been me? I would have ate the whole box and then

> instead of telling my self what a bad fat pig I was, I would then tell my

> self to go on and eat the rest because the damage was all ready done and a

> bit more isn't going to change the bad. I say if you are going to stumble,

> then fall off the cliff and not the curb! it's really kind of a sick way

> of thinking if you want to know the truth, but then I have been called

> worse then just sick! I just can't eat what I use to eat in my idea of

> moderation or your's. I mean your idea is of course the right way and your

> idea of moderation is as it should be for all of us who wish to continue

> living, but I have no good sense of moderation in my life now based on my

> yesterday's of huge portions. you can't get to over 300 pounds with out

> having huge portions of what ever it is you eat. my idea of a salad is out

> of a serving bowl. I mean if you plan to eat a salad for dinner, then eat

> a real salad that is proud to call it self a salad! I think I really may

> be able to eat one cookie, but I can assure you right now this pig will

> look around in order to buy the largest package of large cookies I can

> find, this way my one cookie will be a big cookie! my honey likes for me

> to make home made chocolate chip cookies with pecans. the only problem is

> I should get at least 3 dozen from the recipe, but I only get maybe 16.

> I'm thinking I just can't get pass the thought that if moderation is good,

> then bigger is much better. so I should make smaller cookies? yes I know

> this is so and you are all right once again, but this pig just simply

> isn't there at this time. I just can't go for moderation of those items

> that I use to over eat in huge amounts. maybe next year at this same time,

> but not to day for sure. how many of you use to go eat Mexican food and

> eat just one bowl of ships and dip? here in Oklahoma they bring you all

> the chips with dip you can eat for only $7 and no charge if you order from

> the menu. then there is those round things made from flour or corn that

> you got to tare in to at least 5 with butter and the little veggies! then

> you got to order some fried hot peppers to go with the cold beer with salt

> and lime around the rim! then here comes your main dish so stop eating all

> that for the main course! Now I'm here to tell you guys right now once you

> decide you are going to eat right and control your blood sugar, you better

> not go to a Mexican restaurant that serves you like I'm talking about

> here! I have done it twice in the past 3 weeks and not ate those chips or

> the flour and corn what ever that I can't spell. all the pig had was that

> meat and onions they bring out in a skillet that is on fire and man o man

> is it just so good! I had nothing with it off of that plate of beans and

> all the rest to make one of the flour things in to a burrito. I only ate

> what was in the skillet because I know the pig we are talking about way

> better then any one does and I would have tore that plate up and all those

> other things as well, then I would have stopped to catch my breath. I

> didn't even have 3 beers with lime and salt on the rim. I cried to tell

> you the truth because I had to only drink water. can you even start to

> feel the pain I felt from looking at all those chips and dips that every

> one else was enjoying? it just about caused me to act up like a kid

> throwing a fit in public! I actually wondered what every one would have

> thought if I threw my fat butt on the floor and rolled back and forth

> yelling my pig head off because it just wasn't one bit fair! Now a person

> that has good sense would wonder why I even went in that kind of a

> restaurant in the first place when I all ready knew how hard it was going

> to be? well I was simply born with a hard fat head and there is a part of

> me that thinks I have to prove a point to me if no one else cares and the

> rest didn't care how I ate or what I ate, but I cared and I had to prove

> to me that I could go in there and eat right with other folks who were

> eating all wrong. I can't stop living life and stop hanging out with

> people, so I got to over come food and the best way to do it is face the

> food you dig the most head on like I done! by the way, my sugar 3 hours

> later was 114! the people I was with said go on and eat what you like, but

> do it in moderation. now see? here is that word once again that is every

> where I turn now days! my idea of moderation would have sent my sugar over

> 200 because my idea of less would still be lots more then any of you would

> have ate on your worse day. I'm sure us who are over eaters can and do

> learn how to eat in moderation after a while. I'm not sure if I ever will,

> but I do know I can with some things because I proved it in the Mexican

> restaurant. here in OkC we only have a Mexican restaurant every 25 feet.

> well not that many I guess, but it is my very favorite food to eat and

> they are as thick as hair on a dog's back around this city. plus it seems

> to me that every body and there dog wishes to go eat Mexican food when

> they go out. When in Rome, you do as the roman's do. so what we have

> learned from this pile of ramble to day is you and I may all be normal,

> but who is the real judge of what is Normal? to me moderation is the same

> way and I know it shouldn't be. of course I am a pig in more ways then

> just hanging the feed bag on most of the day long. I as well just have

> piggish ways about me and all my buds will tell you it is so and calling

> me a pig is only in a loving way. I'm trying to teach the piggish ways of

> me how to eat less and for now stay away from those things I really dig.

> that butter milk in the ice box is killing me because I can't go down what

> is left. I haven't had a glass of moo milk in more then 3 weeks going on

> four now. I only had 3 gallons a week, so in my opinion moderation would

> only be one gallon a week instead, but at 13 carbs per eight ounces? last

> time I looked a gallon only had 128 ounces. so 13 times 128 is to many

> carbs in one week from just one food item! see? the pig is learning! I'm

> figuring it out! there is hope for me yet! love you guys and sorry for the

> ramble again. sure didn't mean to. just happens when my fingers get on my

> keyboard.

>

March 27, 2012

I had two cookies a while ago.

Have to be good now.

Becky

Moderation? kind of the same as normal!

>

>> this moderation thing is kind of messing this pig up. my idea use to be

>> if you dig it, I mean really like it, then have all you can eat until you

>> can't eat no more! then nurses and saw bones tells me if I get any bigger

>> they won't be able to operate on me on the table. they will have to leave

>> me on the floor and he said he hated to bend over, so I was in trouble!

>> so

>> he ask me about eating in moderation? then you guys tell me to just go on

>> and eat what I like, but just do it in moderation! well I'm thinking my

>> idea of moderation may be a bit larger then most of you are thinking.

>> instead of just simply grabbing a large spoon and eating the ice cream

>> right out of the bucket it comes in, get a bowl and use a little spoon to

>> eat the bowl full. it is after all cutting down what size of ice cream I

>> use to eat, so there for the full bowl is in moderation, isn't it? so I

>> can go out to Wal-Mart and buy me my favorite package of cookies! well

>> can't just decide on one favorite, so I may need to purchase seven

>> different packages and only eat one from each sack. to me this would be

>> moderation for the way I use to eat these same cookies. now take milk for

>> another example, you who have more sense then does this pig will have a

>> eight ounce glass of milk and call it moderation and for you it is. now

>> for me instead of the 32 ounce glass I drank twice at breakfast, I will

>> now have only a 20 ounce glass and this is moderation for me. As we can

>> see moderation and Normal both depend on the person in question, isn't

>> this right? now on the other hand if your idea of moderation is one very

>> small cookie which in reality is just one bite for a pig, then I don't

>> believe I will bother if this is all I can have based on your opinion of

>> moderation. I would rather use my idea instead. like the lady who picked

>> her up a box of cookies and ate to many before she realized she was a bad

>> girl! If that had of been me? I would have ate the whole box and then

>> instead of telling my self what a bad fat pig I was, I would then tell my

>> self to go on and eat the rest because the damage was all ready done and

>> a

>> bit more isn't going to change the bad. I say if you are going to

>> stumble,

>> then fall off the cliff and not the curb! it's really kind of a sick way

>> of thinking if you want to know the truth, but then I have been called

>> worse then just sick! I just can't eat what I use to eat in my idea of

>> moderation or your's. I mean your idea is of course the right way and

>> your

>> idea of moderation is as it should be for all of us who wish to continue

>> living, but I have no good sense of moderation in my life now based on my

>> yesterday's of huge portions. you can't get to over 300 pounds with out

>> having huge portions of what ever it is you eat. my idea of a salad is

>> out

>> of a serving bowl. I mean if you plan to eat a salad for dinner, then eat

>> a real salad that is proud to call it self a salad! I think I really may

>> be able to eat one cookie, but I can assure you right now this pig will

>> look around in order to buy the largest package of large cookies I can

>> find, this way my one cookie will be a big cookie! my honey likes for me

>> to make home made chocolate chip cookies with pecans. the only problem is

>> I should get at least 3 dozen from the recipe, but I only get maybe 16.

>> I'm thinking I just can't get pass the thought that if moderation is

>> good,

>> then bigger is much better. so I should make smaller cookies? yes I know

>> this is so and you are all right once again, but this pig just simply

>> isn't there at this time. I just can't go for moderation of those items

>> that I use to over eat in huge amounts. maybe next year at this same

>> time,

>> but not to day for sure. how many of you use to go eat Mexican food and

>> eat just one bowl of ships and dip? here in Oklahoma they bring you all

>> the chips with dip you can eat for only $7 and no charge if you order

>> from

>> the menu. then there is those round things made from flour or corn that

>> you got to tare in to at least 5 with butter and the little veggies! then

>> you got to order some fried hot peppers to go with the cold beer with

>> salt

>> and lime around the rim! then here comes your main dish so stop eating

>> all

>> that for the main course! Now I'm here to tell you guys right now once

>> you

>> decide you are going to eat right and control your blood sugar, you

>> better

>> not go to a Mexican restaurant that serves you like I'm talking about

>> here! I have done it twice in the past 3 weeks and not ate those chips or

>> the flour and corn what ever that I can't spell. all the pig had was that

>> meat and onions they bring out in a skillet that is on fire and man o man

>> is it just so good! I had nothing with it off of that plate of beans and

>> all the rest to make one of the flour things in to a burrito. I only ate

>> what was in the skillet because I know the pig we are talking about way

>> better then any one does and I would have tore that plate up and all

>> those

>> other things as well, then I would have stopped to catch my breath. I

>> didn't even have 3 beers with lime and salt on the rim. I cried to tell

>> you the truth because I had to only drink water. can you even start to

>> feel the pain I felt from looking at all those chips and dips that every

>> one else was enjoying? it just about caused me to act up like a kid

>> throwing a fit in public! I actually wondered what every one would have

>> thought if I threw my fat butt on the floor and rolled back and forth

>> yelling my pig head off because it just wasn't one bit fair! Now a person

>> that has good sense would wonder why I even went in that kind of a

>> restaurant in the first place when I all ready knew how hard it was going

>> to be? well I was simply born with a hard fat head and there is a part of

>> me that thinks I have to prove a point to me if no one else cares and the

>> rest didn't care how I ate or what I ate, but I cared and I had to prove

>> to me that I could go in there and eat right with other folks who were

>> eating all wrong. I can't stop living life and stop hanging out with

>> people, so I got to over come food and the best way to do it is face the

>> food you dig the most head on like I done! by the way, my sugar 3 hours

>> later was 114! the people I was with said go on and eat what you like,

>> but

>> do it in moderation. now see? here is that word once again that is every

>> where I turn now days! my idea of moderation would have sent my sugar

>> over

>> 200 because my idea of less would still be lots more then any of you

>> would

>> have ate on your worse day. I'm sure us who are over eaters can and do

>> learn how to eat in moderation after a while. I'm not sure if I ever

>> will,

>> but I do know I can with some things because I proved it in the Mexican

>> restaurant. here in OkC we only have a Mexican restaurant every 25 feet.

>> well not that many I guess, but it is my very favorite food to eat and

>> they are as thick as hair on a dog's back around this city. plus it seems

>> to me that every body and there dog wishes to go eat Mexican food when

>> they go out. When in Rome, you do as the roman's do. so what we have

>> learned from this pile of ramble to day is you and I may all be normal,

>> but who is the real judge of what is Normal? to me moderation is the same

>> way and I know it shouldn't be. of course I am a pig in more ways then

>> just hanging the feed bag on most of the day long. I as well just have

>> piggish ways about me and all my buds will tell you it is so and calling

>> me a pig is only in a loving way. I'm trying to teach the piggish ways of

>> me how to eat less and for now stay away from those things I really dig.

>> that butter milk in the ice box is killing me because I can't go down

>> what

>> is left. I haven't had a glass of moo milk in more then 3 weeks going on

>> four now. I only had 3 gallons a week, so in my opinion moderation would

>> only be one gallon a week instead, but at 13 carbs per eight ounces? last

>> time I looked a gallon only had 128 ounces. so 13 times 128 is to many

>> carbs in one week from just one food item! see? the pig is learning! I'm

>> figuring it out! there is hope for me yet! love you guys and sorry for

>> the

>> ramble again. sure didn't mean to. just happens when my fingers get on my

>> keyboard.

>>

March 27, 2012

What kind of cookies so I can know what I am drooling for, LOL.

What I stopped buying were sandwich cookies like Oreos or the reverse ones

and the peanut butter ones. Oh, oh, that sounds so good right now. It does

no good for me right now to say I will just have one or two because every

time I would walk out in the kitchen I would grab two or three. No I never

ate the pack in one session of course ,but grab, grab, pick, pick.

Lora

s

Moderation? kind of the same as normal!

>>

>>> this moderation thing is kind of messing this pig up. my idea use to

>>> be

>>> if you dig it, I mean really like it, then have all you can eat until

>>> you

>>> can't eat no more! then nurses and saw bones tells me if I get any

>>> bigger

>>> they won't be able to operate on me on the table. they will have to

>>> leave

>>> me on the floor and he said he hated to bend over, so I was in trouble!

>>> so

>>> he ask me about eating in moderation? then you guys tell me to just go

>>> on

>>> and eat what I like, but just do it in moderation! well I'm thinking my

>>> idea of moderation may be a bit larger then most of you are thinking.

>>> instead of just simply grabbing a large spoon and eating the ice cream

>>> right out of the bucket it comes in, get a bowl and use a little spoon

>>> to

>>> eat the bowl full. it is after all cutting down what size of ice cream I

>>> use to eat, so there for the full bowl is in moderation, isn't it? so I

>>> can go out to Wal-Mart and buy me my favorite package of cookies! well

>>> can't just decide on one favorite, so I may need to purchase seven

>>> different packages and only eat one from each sack. to me this would be

>>> moderation for the way I use to eat these same cookies. now take milk

>>> for

>>> another example, you who have more sense then does this pig will have a

>>> eight ounce glass of milk and call it moderation and for you it is. now

>>> for me instead of the 32 ounce glass I drank twice at breakfast, I will

>>> now have only a 20 ounce glass and this is moderation for me. As we can

>>> see moderation and Normal both depend on the person in question, isn't

>>> this right? now on the other hand if your idea of moderation is one very

>>> small cookie which in reality is just one bite for a pig, then I don't

>>> believe I will bother if this is all I can have based on your opinion of

>>> moderation. I would rather use my idea instead. like the lady who picked

>>> her up a box of cookies and ate to many before she realized she was a

>>> bad

>>> girl! If that had of been me? I would have ate the whole box and then

>>> instead of telling my self what a bad fat pig I was, I would then tell

>>> my

>>> self to go on and eat the rest because the damage was all ready done and

>>> a

>>> bit more isn't going to change the bad. I say if you are going to

>>> stumble,

>>> then fall off the cliff and not the curb! it's really kind of a sick way

>>> of thinking if you want to know the truth, but then I have been called

>>> worse then just sick! I just can't eat what I use to eat in my idea of

>>> moderation or your's. I mean your idea is of course the right way and

>>> your

>>> idea of moderation is as it should be for all of us who wish to continue

>>> living, but I have no good sense of moderation in my life now based on

>>> my

>>> yesterday's of huge portions. you can't get to over 300 pounds with out

>>> having huge portions of what ever it is you eat. my idea of a salad is

>>> out

>>> of a serving bowl. I mean if you plan to eat a salad for dinner, then

>>> eat

>>> a real salad that is proud to call it self a salad! I think I really may

>>> be able to eat one cookie, but I can assure you right now this pig will

>>> look around in order to buy the largest package of large cookies I can

>>> find, this way my one cookie will be a big cookie! my honey likes for me

>>> to make home made chocolate chip cookies with pecans. the only problem

>>> is

>>> I should get at least 3 dozen from the recipe, but I only get maybe 16.

>>> I'm thinking I just can't get pass the thought that if moderation is

>>> good,

>>> then bigger is much better. so I should make smaller cookies? yes I know

>>> this is so and you are all right once again, but this pig just simply

>>> isn't there at this time. I just can't go for moderation of those items

>>> that I use to over eat in huge amounts. maybe next year at this same

>>> time,

>>> but not to day for sure. how many of you use to go eat Mexican food and

>>> eat just one bowl of ships and dip? here in Oklahoma they bring you all

>>> the chips with dip you can eat for only $7 and no charge if you order

>>> from

>>> the menu. then there is those round things made from flour or corn that

>>> you got to tare in to at least 5 with butter and the little veggies!

>>> then

>>> you got to order some fried hot peppers to go with the cold beer with

>>> salt

>>> and lime around the rim! then here comes your main dish so stop eating

>>> all

>>> that for the main course! Now I'm here to tell you guys right now once

>>> you

>>> decide you are going to eat right and control your blood sugar, you

>>> better

>>> not go to a Mexican restaurant that serves you like I'm talking about

>>> here! I have done it twice in the past 3 weeks and not ate those chips

>>> or

>>> the flour and corn what ever that I can't spell. all the pig had was

>>> that

>>> meat and onions they bring out in a skillet that is on fire and man o

>>> man

>>> is it just so good! I had nothing with it off of that plate of beans and

>>> all the rest to make one of the flour things in to a burrito. I only ate

>>> what was in the skillet because I know the pig we are talking about way

>>> better then any one does and I would have tore that plate up and all

>>> those

>>> other things as well, then I would have stopped to catch my breath. I

>>> didn't even have 3 beers with lime and salt on the rim. I cried to tell

>>> you the truth because I had to only drink water. can you even start to

>>> feel the pain I felt from looking at all those chips and dips that every

>>> one else was enjoying? it just about caused me to act up like a kid

>>> throwing a fit in public! I actually wondered what every one would have

>>> thought if I threw my fat butt on the floor and rolled back and forth

>>> yelling my pig head off because it just wasn't one bit fair! Now a

>>> person

>>> that has good sense would wonder why I even went in that kind of a

>>> restaurant in the first place when I all ready knew how hard it was

>>> going

>>> to be? well I was simply born with a hard fat head and there is a part

>>> of

>>> me that thinks I have to prove a point to me if no one else cares and

>>> the

>>> rest didn't care how I ate or what I ate, but I cared and I had to prove

>>> to me that I could go in there and eat right with other folks who were

>>> eating all wrong. I can't stop living life and stop hanging out with

>>> people, so I got to over come food and the best way to do it is face the

>>> food you dig the most head on like I done! by the way, my sugar 3 hours

>>> later was 114! the people I was with said go on and eat what you like,

>>> but

>>> do it in moderation. now see? here is that word once again that is every

>>> where I turn now days! my idea of moderation would have sent my sugar

>>> over

>>> 200 because my idea of less would still be lots more then any of you

>>> would

>>> have ate on your worse day. I'm sure us who are over eaters can and do

>>> learn how to eat in moderation after a while. I'm not sure if I ever

>>> will,

>>> but I do know I can with some things because I proved it in the Mexican

>>> restaurant. here in OkC we only have a Mexican restaurant every 25 feet.

>>> well not that many I guess, but it is my very favorite food to eat and

>>> they are as thick as hair on a dog's back around this city. plus it

>>> seems

>>> to me that every body and there dog wishes to go eat Mexican food when

>>> they go out. When in Rome, you do as the roman's do. so what we have

>>> learned from this pile of ramble to day is you and I may all be normal,

>>> but who is the real judge of what is Normal? to me moderation is the

>>> same

>>> way and I know it shouldn't be. of course I am a pig in more ways then

>>> just hanging the feed bag on most of the day long. I as well just have

>>> piggish ways about me and all my buds will tell you it is so and calling

>>> me a pig is only in a loving way. I'm trying to teach the piggish ways

>>> of

>>> me how to eat less and for now stay away from those things I really dig.

>>> that butter milk in the ice box is killing me because I can't go down

>>> what

>>> is left. I haven't had a glass of moo milk in more then 3 weeks going on

>>> four now. I only had 3 gallons a week, so in my opinion moderation would

>>> only be one gallon a week instead, but at 13 carbs per eight ounces?

>>> last

>>> time I looked a gallon only had 128 ounces. so 13 times 128 is to many

>>> carbs in one week from just one food item! see? the pig is learning! I'm

>>> figuring it out! there is hope for me yet! love you guys and sorry for

>>> the

>>> ramble again. sure didn't mean to. just happens when my fingers get on

>>> my

>>> keyboard.

>>>

March 27, 2012

Keebler fudge sticks.

Becky

Moderation? kind of the same as normal!

>>>

>>>> this moderation thing is kind of messing this pig up. my idea use to

>>>> be

>>>> if you dig it, I mean really like it, then have all you can eat until

>>>> you

>>>> can't eat no more! then nurses and saw bones tells me if I get any

>>>> bigger

>>>> they won't be able to operate on me on the table. they will have to

>>>> leave

>>>> me on the floor and he said he hated to bend over, so I was in trouble!

>>>> so

>>>> he ask me about eating in moderation? then you guys tell me to just go

>>>> on

>>>> and eat what I like, but just do it in moderation! well I'm thinking my

>>>> idea of moderation may be a bit larger then most of you are thinking.

>>>> instead of just simply grabbing a large spoon and eating the ice cream

>>>> right out of the bucket it comes in, get a bowl and use a little spoon

>>>> to

>>>> eat the bowl full. it is after all cutting down what size of ice cream

>>>> I

>>>> use to eat, so there for the full bowl is in moderation, isn't it? so I

>>>> can go out to Wal-Mart and buy me my favorite package of cookies! well

>>>> can't just decide on one favorite, so I may need to purchase seven

>>>> different packages and only eat one from each sack. to me this would be

>>>> moderation for the way I use to eat these same cookies. now take milk

>>>> for

>>>> another example, you who have more sense then does this pig will have a

>>>> eight ounce glass of milk and call it moderation and for you it is. now

>>>> for me instead of the 32 ounce glass I drank twice at breakfast, I will

>>>> now have only a 20 ounce glass and this is moderation for me. As we can

>>>> see moderation and Normal both depend on the person in question, isn't

>>>> this right? now on the other hand if your idea of moderation is one

>>>> very

>>>> small cookie which in reality is just one bite for a pig, then I don't

>>>> believe I will bother if this is all I can have based on your opinion

>>>> of

>>>> moderation. I would rather use my idea instead. like the lady who

>>>> picked

>>>> her up a box of cookies and ate to many before she realized she was a

>>>> bad

>>>> girl! If that had of been me? I would have ate the whole box and then

>>>> instead of telling my self what a bad fat pig I was, I would then tell

>>>> my

>>>> self to go on and eat the rest because the damage was all ready done

>>>> and

>>>> a

>>>> bit more isn't going to change the bad. I say if you are going to

>>>> stumble,

>>>> then fall off the cliff and not the curb! it's really kind of a sick

>>>> way

>>>> of thinking if you want to know the truth, but then I have been called

>>>> worse then just sick! I just can't eat what I use to eat in my idea of

>>>> moderation or your's. I mean your idea is of course the right way and

>>>> your

>>>> idea of moderation is as it should be for all of us who wish to

>>>> continue

>>>> living, but I have no good sense of moderation in my life now based on

>>>> my

>>>> yesterday's of huge portions. you can't get to over 300 pounds with out

>>>> having huge portions of what ever it is you eat. my idea of a salad is

>>>> out

>>>> of a serving bowl. I mean if you plan to eat a salad for dinner, then

>>>> eat

>>>> a real salad that is proud to call it self a salad! I think I really

>>>> may

>>>> be able to eat one cookie, but I can assure you right now this pig will

>>>> look around in order to buy the largest package of large cookies I can

>>>> find, this way my one cookie will be a big cookie! my honey likes for

>>>> me

>>>> to make home made chocolate chip cookies with pecans. the only problem

>>>> is

>>>> I should get at least 3 dozen from the recipe, but I only get maybe 16.

>>>> I'm thinking I just can't get pass the thought that if moderation is

>>>> good,

>>>> then bigger is much better. so I should make smaller cookies? yes I

>>>> know

>>>> this is so and you are all right once again, but this pig just simply

>>>> isn't there at this time. I just can't go for moderation of those items

>>>> that I use to over eat in huge amounts. maybe next year at this same

>>>> time,

>>>> but not to day for sure. how many of you use to go eat Mexican food and

>>>> eat just one bowl of ships and dip? here in Oklahoma they bring you all

>>>> the chips with dip you can eat for only $7 and no charge if you order

>>>> from

>>>> the menu. then there is those round things made from flour or corn that

>>>> you got to tare in to at least 5 with butter and the little veggies!

>>>> then

>>>> you got to order some fried hot peppers to go with the cold beer with

>>>> salt

>>>> and lime around the rim! then here comes your main dish so stop eating

>>>> all

>>>> that for the main course! Now I'm here to tell you guys right now once

>>>> you

>>>> decide you are going to eat right and control your blood sugar, you

>>>> better

>>>> not go to a Mexican restaurant that serves you like I'm talking about

>>>> here! I have done it twice in the past 3 weeks and not ate those chips

>>>> or

>>>> the flour and corn what ever that I can't spell. all the pig had was

>>>> that

>>>> meat and onions they bring out in a skillet that is on fire and man o

>>>> man

>>>> is it just so good! I had nothing with it off of that plate of beans

>>>> and

>>>> all the rest to make one of the flour things in to a burrito. I only

>>>> ate

>>>> what was in the skillet because I know the pig we are talking about way

>>>> better then any one does and I would have tore that plate up and all

>>>> those

>>>> other things as well, then I would have stopped to catch my breath. I

>>>> didn't even have 3 beers with lime and salt on the rim. I cried to tell

>>>> you the truth because I had to only drink water. can you even start to

>>>> feel the pain I felt from looking at all those chips and dips that

>>>> every

>>>> one else was enjoying? it just about caused me to act up like a kid

>>>> throwing a fit in public! I actually wondered what every one would have

>>>> thought if I threw my fat butt on the floor and rolled back and forth

>>>> yelling my pig head off because it just wasn't one bit fair! Now a

>>>> person

>>>> that has good sense would wonder why I even went in that kind of a

>>>> restaurant in the first place when I all ready knew how hard it was

>>>> going

>>>> to be? well I was simply born with a hard fat head and there is a part

>>>> of

>>>> me that thinks I have to prove a point to me if no one else cares and

>>>> the

>>>> rest didn't care how I ate or what I ate, but I cared and I had to

>>>> prove

>>>> to me that I could go in there and eat right with other folks who were

>>>> eating all wrong. I can't stop living life and stop hanging out with

>>>> people, so I got to over come food and the best way to do it is face

>>>> the

>>>> food you dig the most head on like I done! by the way, my sugar 3 hours

>>>> later was 114! the people I was with said go on and eat what you like,

>>>> but

>>>> do it in moderation. now see? here is that word once again that is

>>>> every

>>>> where I turn now days! my idea of moderation would have sent my sugar

>>>> over

>>>> 200 because my idea of less would still be lots more then any of you

>>>> would

>>>> have ate on your worse day. I'm sure us who are over eaters can and do

>>>> learn how to eat in moderation after a while. I'm not sure if I ever

>>>> will,

>>>> but I do know I can with some things because I proved it in the Mexican

>>>> restaurant. here in OkC we only have a Mexican restaurant every 25

>>>> feet.

>>>> well not that many I guess, but it is my very favorite food to eat and

>>>> they are as thick as hair on a dog's back around this city. plus it

>>>> seems

>>>> to me that every body and there dog wishes to go eat Mexican food when

>>>> they go out. When in Rome, you do as the roman's do. so what we have

>>>> learned from this pile of ramble to day is you and I may all be normal,

>>>> but who is the real judge of what is Normal? to me moderation is the

>>>> same

>>>> way and I know it shouldn't be. of course I am a pig in more ways then

>>>> just hanging the feed bag on most of the day long. I as well just have

>>>> piggish ways about me and all my buds will tell you it is so and

>>>> calling

>>>> me a pig is only in a loving way. I'm trying to teach the piggish ways

>>>> of

>>>> me how to eat less and for now stay away from those things I really

>>>> dig.

>>>> that butter milk in the ice box is killing me because I can't go down

>>>> what

>>>> is left. I haven't had a glass of moo milk in more then 3 weeks going

>>>> on

>>>> four now. I only had 3 gallons a week, so in my opinion moderation

>>>> would

>>>> only be one gallon a week instead, but at 13 carbs per eight ounces?

>>>> last

>>>> time I looked a gallon only had 128 ounces. so 13 times 128 is to many

>>>> carbs in one week from just one food item! see? the pig is learning!

>>>> I'm

>>>> figuring it out! there is hope for me yet! love you guys and sorry for

>>>> the

>>>> ramble again. sure didn't mean to. just happens when my fingers get on

>>>> my

>>>> keyboard.

>>>>

March 27, 2012

Mine aren't in one sitting either.

Had them since Sunday.

Becky

Moderation? kind of the same as normal!

>>>

>>>> this moderation thing is kind of messing this pig up. my idea use to

>>>> be

>>>> if you dig it, I mean really like it, then have all you can eat until

>>>> you

>>>> can't eat no more! then nurses and saw bones tells me if I get any

>>>> bigger

>>>> they won't be able to operate on me on the table. they will have to

>>>> leave

>>>> me on the floor and he said he hated to bend over, so I was in trouble!

>>>> so

>>>> he ask me about eating in moderation? then you guys tell me to just go

>>>> on

>>>> and eat what I like, but just do it in moderation! well I'm thinking my

>>>> idea of moderation may be a bit larger then most of you are thinking.

>>>> instead of just simply grabbing a large spoon and eating the ice cream

>>>> right out of the bucket it comes in, get a bowl and use a little spoon

>>>> to

>>>> eat the bowl full. it is after all cutting down what size of ice cream

>>>> I

>>>> use to eat, so there for the full bowl is in moderation, isn't it? so I

>>>> can go out to Wal-Mart and buy me my favorite package of cookies! well

>>>> can't just decide on one favorite, so I may need to purchase seven

>>>> different packages and only eat one from each sack. to me this would be

>>>> moderation for the way I use to eat these same cookies. now take milk

>>>> for

>>>> another example, you who have more sense then does this pig will have a

>>>> eight ounce glass of milk and call it moderation and for you it is. now

>>>> for me instead of the 32 ounce glass I drank twice at breakfast, I will

>>>> now have only a 20 ounce glass and this is moderation for me. As we can

>>>> see moderation and Normal both depend on the person in question, isn't

>>>> this right? now on the other hand if your idea of moderation is one

>>>> very

>>>> small cookie which in reality is just one bite for a pig, then I don't

>>>> believe I will bother if this is all I can have based on your opinion

>>>> of

>>>> moderation. I would rather use my idea instead. like the lady who

>>>> picked

>>>> her up a box of cookies and ate to many before she realized she was a

>>>> bad

>>>> girl! If that had of been me? I would have ate the whole box and then

>>>> instead of telling my self what a bad fat pig I was, I would then tell

>>>> my

>>>> self to go on and eat the rest because the damage was all ready done

>>>> and

>>>> a

>>>> bit more isn't going to change the bad. I say if you are going to

>>>> stumble,

>>>> then fall off the cliff and not the curb! it's really kind of a sick

>>>> way

>>>> of thinking if you want to know the truth, but then I have been called

>>>> worse then just sick! I just can't eat what I use to eat in my idea of

>>>> moderation or your's. I mean your idea is of course the right way and

>>>> your

>>>> idea of moderation is as it should be for all of us who wish to

>>>> continue

>>>> living, but I have no good sense of moderation in my life now based on

>>>> my

>>>> yesterday's of huge portions. you can't get to over 300 pounds with out

>>>> having huge portions of what ever it is you eat. my idea of a salad is

>>>> out

>>>> of a serving bowl. I mean if you plan to eat a salad for dinner, then

>>>> eat

>>>> a real salad that is proud to call it self a salad! I think I really

>>>> may

>>>> be able to eat one cookie, but I can assure you right now this pig will

>>>> look around in order to buy the largest package of large cookies I can

>>>> find, this way my one cookie will be a big cookie! my honey likes for

>>>> me

>>>> to make home made chocolate chip cookies with pecans. the only problem

>>>> is

>>>> I should get at least 3 dozen from the recipe, but I only get maybe 16.

>>>> I'm thinking I just can't get pass the thought that if moderation is

>>>> good,

>>>> then bigger is much better. so I should make smaller cookies? yes I

>>>> know

>>>> this is so and you are all right once again, but this pig just simply

>>>> isn't there at this time. I just can't go for moderation of those items

>>>> that I use to over eat in huge amounts. maybe next year at this same

>>>> time,

>>>> but not to day for sure. how many of you use to go eat Mexican food and

>>>> eat just one bowl of ships and dip? here in Oklahoma they bring you all

>>>> the chips with dip you can eat for only $7 and no charge if you order

>>>> from

>>>> the menu. then there is those round things made from flour or corn that

>>>> you got to tare in to at least 5 with butter and the little veggies!

>>>> then

>>>> you got to order some fried hot peppers to go with the cold beer with

>>>> salt

>>>> and lime around the rim! then here comes your main dish so stop eating

>>>> all

>>>> that for the main course! Now I'm here to tell you guys right now once

>>>> you

>>>> decide you are going to eat right and control your blood sugar, you

>>>> better

>>>> not go to a Mexican restaurant that serves you like I'm talking about

>>>> here! I have done it twice in the past 3 weeks and not ate those chips

>>>> or

>>>> the flour and corn what ever that I can't spell. all the pig had was

>>>> that

>>>> meat and onions they bring out in a skillet that is on fire and man o

>>>> man

>>>> is it just so good! I had nothing with it off of that plate of beans

>>>> and

>>>> all the rest to make one of the flour things in to a burrito. I only

>>>> ate

>>>> what was in the skillet because I know the pig we are talking about way

>>>> better then any one does and I would have tore that plate up and all

>>>> those

>>>> other things as well, then I would have stopped to catch my breath. I

>>>> didn't even have 3 beers with lime and salt on the rim. I cried to tell

>>>> you the truth because I had to only drink water. can you even start to

>>>> feel the pain I felt from looking at all those chips and dips that

>>>> every

>>>> one else was enjoying? it just about caused me to act up like a kid

>>>> throwing a fit in public! I actually wondered what every one would have

>>>> thought if I threw my fat butt on the floor and rolled back and forth

>>>> yelling my pig head off because it just wasn't one bit fair! Now a

>>>> person

>>>> that has good sense would wonder why I even went in that kind of a

>>>> restaurant in the first place when I all ready knew how hard it was

>>>> going

>>>> to be? well I was simply born with a hard fat head and there is a part

>>>> of

>>>> me that thinks I have to prove a point to me if no one else cares and

>>>> the

>>>> rest didn't care how I ate or what I ate, but I cared and I had to

>>>> prove

>>>> to me that I could go in there and eat right with other folks who were

>>>> eating all wrong. I can't stop living life and stop hanging out with

>>>> people, so I got to over come food and the best way to do it is face

>>>> the

>>>> food you dig the most head on like I done! by the way, my sugar 3 hours

>>>> later was 114! the people I was with said go on and eat what you like,

>>>> but

>>>> do it in moderation. now see? here is that word once again that is

>>>> every

>>>> where I turn now days! my idea of moderation would have sent my sugar

>>>> over

>>>> 200 because my idea of less would still be lots more then any of you

>>>> would

>>>> have ate on your worse day. I'm sure us who are over eaters can and do

>>>> learn how to eat in moderation after a while. I'm not sure if I ever

>>>> will,

>>>> but I do know I can with some things because I proved it in the Mexican

>>>> restaurant. here in OkC we only have a Mexican restaurant every 25

>>>> feet.

>>>> well not that many I guess, but it is my very favorite food to eat and

>>>> they are as thick as hair on a dog's back around this city. plus it

>>>> seems

>>>> to me that every body and there dog wishes to go eat Mexican food when

>>>> they go out. When in Rome, you do as the roman's do. so what we have

>>>> learned from this pile of ramble to day is you and I may all be normal,

>>>> but who is the real judge of what is Normal? to me moderation is the

>>>> same

>>>> way and I know it shouldn't be. of course I am a pig in more ways then

>>>> just hanging the feed bag on most of the day long. I as well just have

>>>> piggish ways about me and all my buds will tell you it is so and

>>>> calling

>>>> me a pig is only in a loving way. I'm trying to teach the piggish ways

>>>> of

>>>> me how to eat less and for now stay away from those things I really

>>>> dig.

>>>> that butter milk in the ice box is killing me because I can't go down

>>>> what

>>>> is left. I haven't had a glass of moo milk in more then 3 weeks going

>>>> on

>>>> four now. I only had 3 gallons a week, so in my opinion moderation

>>>> would

>>>> only be one gallon a week instead, but at 13 carbs per eight ounces?

>>>> last

>>>> time I looked a gallon only had 128 ounces. so 13 times 128 is to many

>>>> carbs in one week from just one food item! see? the pig is learning!

>>>> I'm

>>>> figuring it out! there is hope for me yet! love you guys and sorry for

>>>> the

>>>> ramble again. sure didn't mean to. just happens when my fingers get on

>>>> my

>>>> keyboard.

>>>>

March 27, 2012

Oh, that sounds good! I would have a definite hard time. I also really

have enjoyed a lot of Little Debbies in my time, especially Swiss Cake Rolls

were my favorite.

has some Hostess cupcakes and twinkies in the freezer and about once

every week to two weeks I nail one of those babies. I really am trying to

stop doing it.

Moderation? kind of the same as normal!

>>>>

>>>>> this moderation thing is kind of messing this pig up. my idea use to

>>>>> be

>>>>> if you dig it, I mean really like it, then have all you can eat until

>>>>> you

>>>>> can't eat no more! then nurses and saw bones tells me if I get any

>>>>> bigger

>>>>> they won't be able to operate on me on the table. they will have to

>>>>> leave

>>>>> me on the floor and he said he hated to bend over, so I was in

>>>>> trouble!

>>>>> so

>>>>> he ask me about eating in moderation? then you guys tell me to just go

>>>>> on

>>>>> and eat what I like, but just do it in moderation! well I'm thinking

>>>>> my

>>>>> idea of moderation may be a bit larger then most of you are thinking.

>>>>> instead of just simply grabbing a large spoon and eating the ice cream

>>>>> right out of the bucket it comes in, get a bowl and use a little spoon

>>>>> to

>>>>> eat the bowl full. it is after all cutting down what size of ice cream

>>>>> I

>>>>> use to eat, so there for the full bowl is in moderation, isn't it? so

>>>>> I

>>>>> can go out to Wal-Mart and buy me my favorite package of cookies! well

>>>>> can't just decide on one favorite, so I may need to purchase seven

>>>>> different packages and only eat one from each sack. to me this would

>>>>> be

>>>>> moderation for the way I use to eat these same cookies. now take milk

>>>>> for

>>>>> another example, you who have more sense then does this pig will have

>>>>> a

>>>>> eight ounce glass of milk and call it moderation and for you it is.

>>>>> now

>>>>> for me instead of the 32 ounce glass I drank twice at breakfast, I

>>>>> will

>>>>> now have only a 20 ounce glass and this is moderation for me. As we

>>>>> can

>>>>> see moderation and Normal both depend on the person in question, isn't

>>>>> this right? now on the other hand if your idea of moderation is one

>>>>> very

>>>>> small cookie which in reality is just one bite for a pig, then I don't

>>>>> believe I will bother if this is all I can have based on your opinion

>>>>> of

>>>>> moderation. I would rather use my idea instead. like the lady who

>>>>> picked

>>>>> her up a box of cookies and ate to many before she realized she was a

>>>>> bad

>>>>> girl! If that had of been me? I would have ate the whole box and then

>>>>> instead of telling my self what a bad fat pig I was, I would then tell

>>>>> my

>>>>> self to go on and eat the rest because the damage was all ready done

>>>>> and

>>>>> a

>>>>> bit more isn't going to change the bad. I say if you are going to

>>>>> stumble,

>>>>> then fall off the cliff and not the curb! it's really kind of a sick

>>>>> way

>>>>> of thinking if you want to know the truth, but then I have been called

>>>>> worse then just sick! I just can't eat what I use to eat in my idea of

>>>>> moderation or your's. I mean your idea is of course the right way and

>>>>> your

>>>>> idea of moderation is as it should be for all of us who wish to

>>>>> continue

>>>>> living, but I have no good sense of moderation in my life now based on

>>>>> my

>>>>> yesterday's of huge portions. you can't get to over 300 pounds with

>>>>> out

>>>>> having huge portions of what ever it is you eat. my idea of a salad is

>>>>> out

>>>>> of a serving bowl. I mean if you plan to eat a salad for dinner, then

>>>>> eat

>>>>> a real salad that is proud to call it self a salad! I think I really

>>>>> may

>>>>> be able to eat one cookie, but I can assure you right now this pig

>>>>> will

>>>>> look around in order to buy the largest package of large cookies I can

>>>>> find, this way my one cookie will be a big cookie! my honey likes for

>>>>> me

>>>>> to make home made chocolate chip cookies with pecans. the only problem

>>>>> is

>>>>> I should get at least 3 dozen from the recipe, but I only get maybe

>>>>> 16.

>>>>> I'm thinking I just can't get pass the thought that if moderation is

>>>>> good,

>>>>> then bigger is much better. so I should make smaller cookies? yes I

>>>>> know

>>>>> this is so and you are all right once again, but this pig just simply

>>>>> isn't there at this time. I just can't go for moderation of those

>>>>> items

>>>>> that I use to over eat in huge amounts. maybe next year at this same

>>>>> time,

>>>>> but not to day for sure. how many of you use to go eat Mexican food

>>>>> and

>>>>> eat just one bowl of ships and dip? here in Oklahoma they bring you

>>>>> all

>>>>> the chips with dip you can eat for only $7 and no charge if you order

>>>>> from

>>>>> the menu. then there is those round things made from flour or corn

>>>>> that

>>>>> you got to tare in to at least 5 with butter and the little veggies!

>>>>> then

>>>>> you got to order some fried hot peppers to go with the cold beer with

>>>>> salt

>>>>> and lime around the rim! then here comes your main dish so stop eating

>>>>> all

>>>>> that for the main course! Now I'm here to tell you guys right now once

>>>>> you

>>>>> decide you are going to eat right and control your blood sugar, you

>>>>> better

>>>>> not go to a Mexican restaurant that serves you like I'm talking about

>>>>> here! I have done it twice in the past 3 weeks and not ate those chips

>>>>> or

>>>>> the flour and corn what ever that I can't spell. all the pig had was

>>>>> that

>>>>> meat and onions they bring out in a skillet that is on fire and man o

>>>>> man

>>>>> is it just so good! I had nothing with it off of that plate of beans

>>>>> and

>>>>> all the rest to make one of the flour things in to a burrito. I only

>>>>> ate

>>>>> what was in the skillet because I know the pig we are talking about

>>>>> way

>>>>> better then any one does and I would have tore that plate up and all

>>>>> those

>>>>> other things as well, then I would have stopped to catch my breath. I

>>>>> didn't even have 3 beers with lime and salt on the rim. I cried to

>>>>> tell

>>>>> you the truth because I had to only drink water. can you even start to

>>>>> feel the pain I felt from looking at all those chips and dips that

>>>>> every

>>>>> one else was enjoying? it just about caused me to act up like a kid

>>>>> throwing a fit in public! I actually wondered what every one would

>>>>> have

>>>>> thought if I threw my fat butt on the floor and rolled back and forth

>>>>> yelling my pig head off because it just wasn't one bit fair! Now a

>>>>> person

>>>>> that has good sense would wonder why I even went in that kind of a

>>>>> restaurant in the first place when I all ready knew how hard it was

>>>>> going

>>>>> to be? well I was simply born with a hard fat head and there is a part

>>>>> of

>>>>> me that thinks I have to prove a point to me if no one else cares and

>>>>> the

>>>>> rest didn't care how I ate or what I ate, but I cared and I had to

>>>>> prove

>>>>> to me that I could go in there and eat right with other folks who were

>>>>> eating all wrong. I can't stop living life and stop hanging out with

>>>>> people, so I got to over come food and the best way to do it is face

>>>>> the

>>>>> food you dig the most head on like I done! by the way, my sugar 3

>>>>> hours

>>>>> later was 114! the people I was with said go on and eat what you like,

>>>>> but

>>>>> do it in moderation. now see? here is that word once again that is

>>>>> every

>>>>> where I turn now days! my idea of moderation would have sent my sugar

>>>>> over

>>>>> 200 because my idea of less would still be lots more then any of you

>>>>> would

>>>>> have ate on your worse day. I'm sure us who are over eaters can and do

>>>>> learn how to eat in moderation after a while. I'm not sure if I ever

>>>>> will,

>>>>> but I do know I can with some things because I proved it in the

>>>>> Mexican

>>>>> restaurant. here in OkC we only have a Mexican restaurant every 25

>>>>> feet.

>>>>> well not that many I guess, but it is my very favorite food to eat and

>>>>> they are as thick as hair on a dog's back around this city. plus it

>>>>> seems

>>>>> to me that every body and there dog wishes to go eat Mexican food when

>>>>> they go out. When in Rome, you do as the roman's do. so what we have

>>>>> learned from this pile of ramble to day is you and I may all be

>>>>> normal,

>>>>> but who is the real judge of what is Normal? to me moderation is the

>>>>> same

>>>>> way and I know it shouldn't be. of course I am a pig in more ways then

>>>>> just hanging the feed bag on most of the day long. I as well just have

>>>>> piggish ways about me and all my buds will tell you it is so and

>>>>> calling

>>>>> me a pig is only in a loving way. I'm trying to teach the piggish ways

>>>>> of

>>>>> me how to eat less and for now stay away from those things I really

>>>>> dig.

>>>>> that butter milk in the ice box is killing me because I can't go down

>>>>> what

>>>>> is left. I haven't had a glass of moo milk in more then 3 weeks going

>>>>> on

>>>>> four now. I only had 3 gallons a week, so in my opinion moderation

>>>>> would

>>>>> only be one gallon a week instead, but at 13 carbs per eight ounces?

>>>>> last

>>>>> time I looked a gallon only had 128 ounces. so 13 times 128 is to many

>>>>> carbs in one week from just one food item! see? the pig is learning!

>>>>> I'm

>>>>> figuring it out! there is hope for me yet! love you guys and sorry for

>>>>> the

>>>>> ramble again. sure didn't mean to. just happens when my fingers get on

>>>>> my

>>>>> keyboard.

>>>>>

March 27, 2012

I can understand what you mean.

Becky

Moderation? kind of the same as normal!

this moderation thing is kind of messing this pig up. my idea use to be if

you dig it, I mean really like it, then have all you can eat until you can't

eat no more! then nurses and saw bones tells me if I get any bigger they

won't be able to operate on me on the table. they will have to leave me on

the floor and he said he hated to bend over, so I was in trouble! so he ask

me about eating in moderation? then you guys tell me to just go on and eat

what I like, but just do it in moderation! well I'm thinking my idea of

moderation may be a bit larger then most of you are thinking. instead of

just simply grabbing a large spoon and eating the ice cream right out of the

bucket it comes in, get a bowl and use a little spoon to eat the bowl full.

it is after all cutting down what size of ice cream I use to eat, so there

for the full bowl is in moderation, isn't it? so I can go out to Wal-Mart

and buy me my favorite package of cookies! well can't just decide on one

favorite, so I may need to purchase seven different packages and only eat

one from each sack. to me this would be moderation for the way I use to eat

these same cookies. now take milk for another example, you who have more

sense then does this pig will have a eight ounce glass of milk and call it

moderation and for you it is. now for me instead of the 32 ounce glass I

drank twice at breakfast, I will now have only a 20 ounce glass and this is

moderation for me. As we can see moderation and Normal both depend on the

person in question, isn't this right? now on the other hand if your idea of

moderation is one very small cookie which in reality is just one bite for a

pig, then I don't believe I will bother if this is all I can have based on

your opinion of moderation. I would rather use my idea instead. like the

lady who picked her up a box of cookies and ate to many before she realized

she was a bad girl! If that had of been me? I would have ate the whole box

and then instead of telling my self what a bad fat pig I was, I would then

tell my self to go on and eat the rest because the damage was all ready done

and a bit more isn't going to change the bad. I say if you are going to

stumble, then fall off the cliff and not the curb! it's really kind of a

sick way of thinking if you want to know the truth, but then I have been

called worse then just sick! I just can't eat what I use to eat in my idea

of moderation or your's. I mean your idea is of course the right way and

your idea of moderation is as it should be for all of us who wish to

continue living, but I have no good sense of moderation in my life now based

on my yesterday's of huge portions. you can't get to over 300 pounds with

out having huge portions of what ever it is you eat. my idea of a salad is

out of a serving bowl. I mean if you plan to eat a salad for dinner, then

eat a real salad that is proud to call it self a salad! I think I really may

be able to eat one cookie, but I can assure you right now this pig will look

around in order to buy the largest package of large cookies I can find, this

way my one cookie will be a big cookie! my honey likes for me to make home

made chocolate chip cookies with pecans. the only problem is I should get at

least 3 dozen from the recipe, but I only get maybe 16. I'm thinking I just

can't get pass the thought that if moderation is good, then bigger is much

better. so I should make smaller cookies? yes I know this is so and you are

all right once again, but this pig just simply isn't there at this time. I

just can't go for moderation of those items that I use to over eat in huge

amounts. maybe next year at this same time, but not to day for sure. how

many of you use to go eat Mexican food and eat just one bowl of ships and

dip? here in Oklahoma they bring you all the chips with dip you can eat for

only $7 and no charge if you order from the menu. then there is those round

things made from flour or corn that you got to tare in to at least 5 with

butter and the little veggies! then you got to order some fried hot peppers

to go with the cold beer with salt and lime around the rim! then here comes

your main dish so stop eating all that for the main course! Now I'm here to

tell you guys right now once you decide you are going to eat right and

control your blood sugar, you better not go to a Mexican restaurant that

serves you like I'm talking about here! I have done it twice in the past 3

weeks and not ate those chips or the flour and corn what ever that I can't

spell. all the pig had was that meat and onions they bring out in a skillet

that is on fire and man o man is it just so good! I had nothing with it off

of that plate of beans and all the rest to make one of the flour things in

to a burrito. I only ate what was in the skillet because I know the pig we

are talking about way better then any one does and I would have tore that

plate up and all those other things as well, then I would have stopped to

catch my breath. I didn't even have 3 beers with lime and salt on the rim. I

cried to tell you the truth because I had to only drink water. can you even

start to feel the pain I felt from looking at all those chips and dips that

every one else was enjoying? it just about caused me to act up like a kid

throwing a fit in public! I actually wondered what every one would have

thought if I threw my fat butt on the floor and rolled back and forth

yelling my pig head off because it just wasn't one bit fair! Now a person

that has good sense would wonder why I even went in that kind of a

restaurant in the first place when I all ready knew how hard it was going to

be? well I was simply born with a hard fat head and there is a part of me

that thinks I have to prove a point to me if no one else cares and the rest

didn't care how I ate or what I ate, but I cared and I had to prove to me

that I could go in there and eat right with other folks who were eating all

wrong. I can't stop living life and stop hanging out with people, so I got

to over come food and the best way to do it is face the food you dig the

most head on like I done! by the way, my sugar 3 hours later was 114! the

people I was with said go on and eat what you like, but do it in moderation.

now see? here is that word once again that is every where I turn now days!

my idea of moderation would have sent my sugar over 200 because my idea of

less would still be lots more then any of you would have ate on your worse

day. I'm sure us who are over eaters can and do learn how to eat in

moderation after a while. I'm not sure if I ever will, but I do know I can

with some things because I proved it in the Mexican restaurant. here in OkC

we only have a Mexican restaurant every 25 feet. well not that many I guess,

but it is my very favorite food to eat and they are as thick as hair on a

dog's back around this city. plus it seems to me that every body and there

dog wishes to go eat Mexican food when they go out. When in Rome, you do as

the roman's do. so what we have learned from this pile of ramble to day is

you and I may all be normal, but who is the real judge of what is Normal? to

me moderation is the same way and I know it shouldn't be. of course I am a

pig in more ways then just hanging the feed bag on most of the day long. I

as well just have piggish ways about me and all my buds will tell you it is

so and calling me a pig is only in a loving way. I'm trying to teach the

piggish ways of me how to eat less and for now stay away from those things I

really dig. that butter milk in the ice box is killing me because I can't go

down what is left. I haven't had a glass of moo milk in more then 3 weeks

going on four now. I only had 3 gallons a week, so in my opinion moderation

would only be one gallon a week instead, but at 13 carbs per eight ounces?

last time I looked a gallon only had 128 ounces. so 13 times 128 is to many

carbs in one week from just one food item! see? the pig is learning! I'm

figuring it out! there is hope for me yet! love you guys and sorry for the

ramble again. sure didn't mean to. just happens when my fingers get on my

keyboard.

March 27, 2012

You are correct Sir! but no more milk for me. I can't be happy with only a

small glass. I'm kind of a all or none kind of guy. I know it takes time and

even if the scales say in one month I only lost 4 pounds, then not going to lose

heart this time as in the past. one pound a week works for me as well if it is

this way. more is always better, but one pound at a time will also teach me how

to make new and better choices and learn to live with them daily. It may sound

like I'm being hard on my self, but if you knew from where I came from it is a

good thing for me. Way to many times in my past I have started doing right and

fell on my head in only a few days. lots of times I would treat my self with

something I enjoyed eating with the right attitude of eating in normal

moderation, but it never worked out as it was planned out. this to day is day 22

of my life style change and I haven't messed up yet. my numbers for the past 3

days have mostly been in the 90's and 80's. I know I will need to fax these

numbers in to the doc because he wanted to see them if there was a change from

ten days ago. since I started taking the cinnamon there has certainly been a

change causing the numbers to go even lower. now I got no clue where the scales

will say I am, but I know for sure from what has happened in my past that the

scales can disappoint you if you get all excited thinking you have lost more

then you have. this time even changing that attitude as well. any pound lost is

one pound not gained! I piled this weight on over a life time and it isn't going

away and staying away if I take it off to fast and don't learn new life changing

habits and how to live with them daily. I'm not after a quick fix as I was many

times in my past. quick fixes don't work or every one with a weight problem

would go on a diet and keep the weight off they lost. 90% don't keep it off

because they learned nothing about why they put it on in the first place and nor

do they learn how to make life style changes for the rest of there life. for all

these reasons is why at this time in my new way of living is why moderation

can't work for me. maybe next year at this time it will, but now is to early in

the game for me. what is that they call where you lose it, then you gain it

back, then you lose it and you gain it back! then again you lose it and again

you gain it back? yo yo diet or something like this. I've done this kind of diet

most of 55 years, well maybe not the first 15 or so because as a kid you don't

really care about weight. I've read that the lose and gain back diets are really

harder on your health. seems to me using my self as the example, I not only

gained back what I lost, but I gained back some extra as well. I figure until I

get to the mind set of eating right and making better choices with out thinking

about it, then I will have made the crossing to the other side where my life

style change has to be. actually what it means is no moderation for anything

that I over ate in my fat past! got to go cold turkey for now and leave that

junk alone for now. some day I can introduce it back in to my diet and not allow

it to control me as it has way to many times. I will control it and this is the

main reason I got to go cold turkey with those foods at this time. I've been

making good choices as of late and eating the right amounts to get me through a

day. my numbers tell the story and I'm not hungry between meals most of the

time. I do drink lots of water and if I believe I need a change of pace I add

fresh lemon to water and a few splindas. now I got my own lemond aid and it is

ok for me to enjoy. plus with my numbers the past 3 days running in the 90's and

80's my biggest concern now is my bed time reading has been near 80 3 nights in

a row. this makes me a bit concerned that it could dip to low during the night.

so far my morning reading has been right at 100 3 days in a row. I was only

testing four times a day, but now have stepped that up to six and eight so I can

make sure my numbers don't dip under 80. yesterday before lunch I took my sugar

3 times because I just couldn't except it was what it said it was. first it said

72, then it said 76 and the third time it said 80. so I went with the 80, but

knew they all 3 was in the ball park. the best thing is I got by the shakes

finally. not long ago anything under 120 gave me the shakes and I felt like

poop. now I'm in the 80's and no shakes! know, I'm not beating me self up for

being weak, but I have to be tough with my self or I will slide back in to bad

habits. I have to retrain everything there is that controls better eating

choices over the long haul. I know I probably more then likely don't have 55

more years in front of me, so my new life style change won't be for as long as

the over eating years and feeling bad. for the past 22 days I feel grate! better

then I have felt in a long time. it really is amazing how making the changes I

have for the best has caused me to feel so much better! makes me ask my self why

couldn't I make these same changes way back when? like before the heart attack

and all the rest had to happen? the only answer I have it I never thought any of

it would happen to me. I figured I could change when I learned that I was

running out of time, so making better eating decisions was a piece of cake and I

could do it when ever I put my mind to it. as you can see, this is the very same

attitude any one has who is addicted to something they think they can't give up

or they don't want to give it up. alcohol, drugs, gambling, over eating, all are

a form of addiction and I am a over eater and have been most of my adult life

and to be honest with my self, I was a childhood over eater as well because I

was allowed to be. they say once you are addicted to alcohol or drugs, you are

always this way. well I don't know if this is actually true or not. I have known

many who drank alcohol who went years with out a drink and when they had a drink

they would go a week before they stopped. so by using this as an example over

eating is the same as the alcoholic or drug attic. if I was to try and eat

anything I dig in moderation I would probably maybe go full tilt and eat way

more then I should and get in to lots of trouble. I do believe in portion

control and that is exactly what I have been doing the past 22 days, but a over

eater or a alcoholic can't do the moderation thing or they will more then likely

fall off the wagon. seems like I heard at over eaters of America they as well

have a twelve step program just like alcohol or drugs. I have never been, but

will go if I need to if I can't get it done on my own. I got you guys as my

support group and don't need them at this time. not only do I have to watch what

I eat and how much, I also must watch out for to many snacks between meals.

controlling sugar and trying to lose weight at the same time is a balancing

trick up on a tight rope crossing a huge empty void. if I get out of balance on

either side I will fall a long ways before I hit bottom. so I walk the fine line

between the two and so far so good. it will take the saw bones a little while to

get the insulin dose right and adjusted to the way I eat and the amounts I eat,

but when he can get all that in balance, then I will be on my way! I will be

singing, here comes the pig, running down the back stretch, headed for the

finish line, looking thinner then he was when he started!!!