big success please congratulate me

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I did it. I visited the FOO, to meet my nieces. I achieved that expectation.

Good thing I kept the expectation low.

It was so sad, I am sad, but I know that I have overcome my fears and anger, and

a lot of stuff. It's been 5 years.

I also have let go of any other expectations. These people are stuck and

limited, adn that is all they will ever be. I am so sorry for them.

It is realy sad.

but it was worth it, to meet my nieces.

I spent about three hours over at their house, and I IGNORED nada, pretty easy

to do, bc she makes no sense when she talks. I gave her the " you don't exist "

treatment she gave me all my childhood. Works pretty well, but I have worked a

long time to get to where I am psychologically, that she can't pull any flying

monkeys or tricks on me anymore. It's just, I had conversations with others,

adn she is so inappropriate; its' easy to ignore her when she interrupts with

irrelevant and childish statements that make no sense.

I stay FAR AWAY, and I have STRONG BOUNDARIES. I had a car, so I left as soon

as it got uncomfortable.

I also gave up any expectations of rescuing my nieces. '[

I have to thank the difficult BPD boss at work that i have, the exposure therapy

has worked, but I have to say, I've been treated by a T the whole time. " Do not

attempt this at home alone "

and posted here under different names.

Thank you all. for your support and the healing that has happened in this

group.

This can be done, I just did it. It was wierd, because they were really manic,

and I felt so sad inside. I just stayed really calm, the calm in the center of

the storm. I am so sad for all teh FOO, that this is what their lives are.

Others have told me, maybe they are happy. I doubt it. I do know, it's no

longer my problem. THey are no longer the center of my life. My problem now is

my own happiness and my own life and my own problems.

too bad my FOO couldn't be different, but that is how they are. IT still makes

me REALLY sad, but I can aknowledge that and that is the best I can do.

I am NOW SAFE.

I AM SAFE, in that I have grown strong in my own mind, and nada can't touch my

mind now.

I know you understand what i mean. Nadas function through mind games. She can't

touch me now.

I am

WALKED TO HAPPINESS