Guest guest Posted May 30, 2010 Report Share Posted May 30, 2010 Jon,You came to the right place!You are not alone, and your relationship to "exercise" is something I also experience. Why do something we hate? There's a much friendlier and kinder way to treat ourselves and our bodies. Walking is a much more liberating and refreshing experience and I don't even like to call it "exercise". I call it 'being with myself in motion.'This is the beginning of a great journey for you.KateHi Everyone, I alluded to this earlier in the week but I need to reach out to everyone. I need all kinds of support at the moment. Being a 350lb man is tough. Everything about it is tough. My knees hurt, I have no energy, the thought of moving a lot of the time is just fundamentally unpleasant. I’m fully mobile and just a few days ago give a 40lb child a half mile piggy back ride and trekked all over a Six Flags carrying that 40lb child – so I’m not a cripple by any stretch. But at the same time my weight is a conscious aspect of my life literally on a minute-by-minute basis. There’s no question in my mind that I’m a compulsive overeater. In the past six months I’ve come to really understand this, started to dig into all the pain that exists below my surface to cause it and have been working hard to heal that hurt while starting to learn how to fix my badly damaged relationship with food. But, I’m suffering through it at this point. I’m meeting with my dietitian weekly and attending a support group and for an hour or so after those meetings I feel great. But the remaining 150 or so hours of the week I’m feeling further and further from where I want to be. I feel like I’m overeating on a regular basis though I’m not sure I am. I’m developing a really hostile relationship with exercise that today almost lead me to cancel my gym membership and just start walking. I don’t know what I need or want from those who will read this. But I need something and I know how wonderful of a group this is so I know I’m asking the right set of people. Jon Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 30, 2010 Report Share Posted May 30, 2010 But at the same time I want to become strong and maybe one day become a runner. I generally like exercise but it's become as adversarial of a relationship as the one I have with food.Everything is just such a struggle. I know focusing on weight I'd dangerous but I just can't live like this for too much longer. I want to feel like a 31 year old man with a wife and child not a 90 year old who just wants to lie in bed. I have a high pressure job and last week I really struggled just getting out of bed. Jon,You came to the right place!You are not alone, and your relationship to "exercise" is something I also experience. Why do something we hate? There's a much friendlier and kinder way to treat ourselves and our bodies. Walking is a much more liberating and refreshing experience and I don't even like to call it "exercise". I call it 'being with myself in motion.'This is the beginning of a great journey for you.KateHi Everyone, I alluded to this earlier in the week but I need to reach out to everyone. I need all kinds of support at the moment. Being a 350lb man is tough. Everything about it is tough. My knees hurt, I have no energy, the thought of moving a lot of the time is just fundamentally unpleasant. I’m fully mobile and just a few days ago give a 40lb child a half mile piggy back ride and trekked all over a Six Flags carrying that 40lb child – so I’m not a cripple by any stretch. But at the same time my weight is a conscious aspect of my life literally on a minute-by-minute basis. There’s no question in my mind that I’m a compulsive overeater. In the past six months I’ve come to really understand this, started to dig into all the pain that exists below my surface to cause it and have been working hard to heal that hurt while starting to learn how to fix my badly damaged relationship with food. But, I’m suffering through it at this point. I’m meeting with my dietitian weekly and attending a support group and for an hour or so after those meetings I feel great. But the remaining 150 or so hours of the week I’m feeling further and further from where I want to be. I feel like I’m overeating on a regular basis though I’m not sure I am. I’m developing a really hostile relationship with exercise that today almost lead me to cancel my gym membership and just start walking. I don’t know what I need or want from those who will read this. But I need something and I know how wonderful of a group this is so I know I’m asking the right set of people. Jon Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 31, 2010 Report Share Posted May 31, 2010 Hi Jon, Good to hear from you! Jon, I'm really sorry to hear your going through such a rough time right now! I'm here to help if I can and glad you're reaching out! I'm with Kate on the walking! I'm not big on going to the gym and prefer to put on my walking shoes and hit the streets in my neighborhood for what I call my "mental health hour." Not only does the movement make my body feel good, it does wonders for my mood and is a great, less strenuous way to work out stress. And it is far easier on the joints. Maybe it would be a helpful activity for you right now! All it takes is that first step! Take care! Best wishes, Jeanne Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 31, 2010 Report Share Posted May 31, 2010 It helps if you don't think of it as exercise. Especially don't think of it as exercise to lose weight. If you find something you do like to do, like walking - do it to destress and have some fun listening to your favorite tunes or walking the dog and or meeting new neighbors. I think of it as a social outing. I love the gym because I love taking classes and having fun. I don't bore myself to death doing machines, free weights, those awful cardio machines. I do zumba, dance classes and other stuff over the past 15 years. I did hurt myself (back injury) and have been out of the gym for quite a while and I miss it. Once you have the habit, exercise will become second nature. > > > Hi Jon, > > Good to hear from you! Jon, I'm really sorry to hear your going through such a rough time right now! I'm here to help if I can and glad you're reaching out! > > I'm with Kate on the walking! I'm not big on going to the gym and prefer to put on my walking shoes and hit the streets in my neighborhood for what I call my " mental health hour. " Not only does the movement make my body feel good, it does wonders for my mood and is a great, less strenuous way to work out stress. And it is far easier on the joints. Maybe it would be a helpful activity for you right now! All it takes is that first step! > > Take care! > > Best wishes, > Jeanne > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 31, 2010 Report Share Posted May 31, 2010 Remember this is a journey and we can't press a button and change it overnight, but what we can do first, is treat ourselves with kindness. Don't assume being kind to ourselves is easy, but it is the most important part. Here is a free audio interview with Geneen Roth I encourage you to listen to as your first step. You can also put it on itunes. http://howshereallydoesit.com/podcast/2010/04/geneen-roth/ She believes " nothing is unworkable. " If that resonates with you, consider her " Feeding the hungry heart " very inexpensive. I downloaded it on itunes for $14. It really helped me get my head around all this and stop fighting myself. Kate > > > >> > >> Hi Everyone, > >> > >> > >> > >> I alluded to this earlier in the week but I need to reach out to > >> everyone. I need all kinds of support at the moment. > >> > >> > >> > >> Being a 350lb man is tough. Everything about it is tough. My > >> knees hurt, I have no energy, the thought of moving a lot of the > >> time is just fundamentally unpleasant. I’m fully mobile and just > >> a few days ago give a 40lb child a half mile piggy back ride and t > >> rekked all over a Six Flags carrying that 40lb child †" so I’m > >> not a cripple by any stretch. But at the same time my weight is a > >> conscious aspect of my life literally on a minute-by-minute basis. > >> > >> > >> > >> There’s no question in my mind that I’m a compulsive overeater. > >> In the past six months I’ve come to really understand this, starte > >> d to dig into all the pain that exists below my surface to cause i > >> t and have been working hard to heal that hurt while starting to l > >> earn how to fix my badly damaged relationship with food. > >> > >> > >> > >> But, I’m suffering through it at this point. I’m meeting with > >> my dietitian weekly and attending a support group and for an hour > >> or so after those meetings I feel great. But the remaining 150 or > >> so hours of the week I’m feeling further and further from where I > >> want to be. I feel like I’m overeating on a regular basis though > >> I’m not sure I am. I’m developing a really hostile > >> relationship with exercise that today almost lead me to cancel my > >> gym membership and just start walking. > >> > >> > >> > >> I don’t know what I need or want from those who will read this. B > >> ut I need something and I know how wonderful of a group this is so > >> I know I’m asking the right set of people. > >> > >> > >> > >> Jon > >> > >> > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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