hi everyone

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Hi Everyone,

I alluded to this earlier in the week but I need to reach

out to everyone. I need all kinds of support at the moment.

Being a 350lb man is tough. Everything about it is

tough. My knees hurt, I have no energy, the thought of moving a lot of

the time is just fundamentally unpleasant. I’m fully mobile and

just a few days ago give a 40lb child a half mile piggy back ride and trekked all

over a Six Flags carrying that 40lb child – so I’m not a cripple by

any stretch. But at the same time my weight is a conscious aspect of my

life literally on a minute-by-minute basis.

There’s no question in my mind that I’m a

compulsive overeater. In the past six months I’ve come to really

understand this, started to dig into all the pain that exists below my surface

to cause it and have been working hard to heal that hurt while starting to

learn how to fix my badly damaged relationship with food.

But, I’m suffering through it at this point. I’m

meeting with my dietitian weekly and attending a support group and for an hour

or so after those meetings I feel great. But the remaining 150 or so

hours of the week I’m feeling further and further from where I want to

be. I feel like I’m overeating on a regular basis though I’m

not sure I am. I’m developing a really hostile relationship with

exercise that today almost lead me to cancel my gym membership and just start

walking.

I don’t know what I need or want from those who will

read this. But I need something and I know how wonderful of a group this

is so I know I’m asking the right set of people.

Jon